Hey guys!  Man i had alo of fun today.. me and kt went to the Carny in Baldwin with Steven and josh and yea.. idk..it was just ALOT of fun.. but i was having my own little hyper momment.. and when im hyper i tend to break/move/steal/ be destructive and yea.. they wee all like OMG stop adn i was :(:(... why?.. and yea  also when im hyper im all extra dumb and act reatrded.. and steven was like ur weird in public and im like.. no this is just me.. lol im hyper..  But otherwise it was ALOT of fun.. and this weekend im going to my friend sweet 16th b-day party.. and Steven might go. lol... what a trip!! lmao.. then on Sunday.. whoo hooo!! Im going to Michigans adventure.. and kalei  might come.. but she hasnt gotten back to me .. an yea.. if she dont go.. Katie is goin gin replace and i might get and extra ticket or two.. ((i find out tomorrow.)) and then imma bring Steven .... and i havent figured out who else.. its between Josh and Nichole... but ya kno.. Josh is more fun.. soo.... idk... lol.. gurlz are usually alwayz boring!... I have alot of guy friends.. they are much cooler..lol... yea When lah was driving back from pickin josh up tere was this hill and we Jumped it... it was awesome.. and josh was all about to shit his pants and hten when we jumped it he was like.. DO IT AGAIN... and before we did it.. leah was like imma jump this hill coming up and i was like thats fuckin awesome lets do it.. and everyone else was all like .SHIT!! lol.. i love it.. i could careless.. i just wanna die havng fun..!! but yea imma go.. lol i know i havent updated in a LONG ASS TIME.. but yea..o well.. screw all ya'll..!! lol jm.. i love ya!

<^> Cidney <^>

Jamie... I love you soo much, Only if you knew..!! Miss you soooo much!! I hope i get to talk to you soon!! *kiss and hugz*  

Hey Everyone! Howz life treatin ya? well my life is going decent besides the fact i just found out my best friend Kalei.. is back HOME... in WC! and i was supose to be the FIRST person to see her and i was supose to be there when she got here.. BUT NOO... i am in gay  GR... not that i dont like being here becuz i love my friends here.. but there is alwayz so much damn DRAMA.. like.. coming here makes me not want to be around people.. so ..People = Drama.. so.. Cidney=alone... Cidney-drama = happy...(sumwhat)..but yea... im TANNER.. lol suckers.. IM dark!... becuz i went up to my friends cottage and yea.. we were tubin and crap.. yea awesome awesome.. it was soooo fun.. but im REALLY sore.. i have bruises from me smackin the water.. seriously.. one time me and my friend Carie were in a double tube that holds two ppl and we hit this 4 foot wave and went flyin and it was windy that day so the tube like caught the wind and we flew (not joking) 10 ft in the air..  I looked over.. AFTER I FELL OUT OF THE TUBE... over at Carie and was liek OMG and then looked down and watched the water come towards me.. it was sooooo COOL!.. but i got some mega whip-lash....fun fun.. and i was being stalked by two guyz that were tryin to get down my pants.. it was creepy.. but funny..then downtown tonight at the fireworks my my friend meg and friend danny were walking around and we were TRYIN to cross a bridge and i was in the back of them and meg was tryin to push her way thru but wasnt workin to well and soo i went to the front and was like ok.. n like idk.. but everyone moved outta the way for me and danny was like good thing guyz think ur hott or we woulda never made it.. it was funny.. but yea..i gotta go I love and miss you all that i know and if i dont know you.. get the fuck off my xanga!.. IM GOING HOME 2MORROW!!!! ( im homesick )

~Cidney~ I Love You Jamie!

PS. Hey jamie i miss you and like i said im coming home monday..i hope to talk to you soon.. I Love You More Than You Know!! ((((( u can have my <3 if you promise not to break it....)))))*Kiss*

Hey everyone, yea yea yea its been a LONG time since i made an entry but who reads it anywayz. I'm alwayz to busy reading everyone else's xanga they are much more exciting then mine.. i am soo boring. My life is GAY! i have nuthin to say. But talk about how stupid my life is and i hate babbling about myself. It makes me sound conceeded. But i guess i will... for now!.. So yea.. there is a guy that  i REALLY REALLY like, I feel like i got a real connection wit him. *Cough* (jamie)*Cough* . The other day we were talkin about it and everything but i dont know if i want to "start" anything quite yet becuz of the fact that i know he cant possibly be over APRIL yet.. n i dont want to start anything and have that mess it up.. and the fact that im not all the way over Dipshit (derrick).. Im just confused about his....love interest..feelings... w/e you want to call it. I cant stop thinking about it.. about... HIM.. we have alot in commen..prolly more then he knows..prolly more then i know. I have like him since last year.. he knew that but i guess he didnt. IDK.. I really Care about him... i dont know what to do.. blah.. and i havent talked to him in like 3 or 4 dayz... i miss talkin to him. The last time i talked to him was on the phone which was REALLY nice to just hear his voice.. sadly the conversation didnt last very long cuz he had to go.. I miss Cedar soo much .. i HATE White Cloud.. there are only a few ppl there that i would miss.. one would be my Sista Kt!! shes my home gurl!.. adn then my homeboyz Alex M.,Craig and Steve-o!! yupperz! but yea im gonna go.. even thou there is much muhc more to say.. i dont feel like sayin anymore.. cuz yea.. i just dont.. im gettin depressed talkin about this.. so buh bye fuck off to all i dont kno and to everyone else I LOVE YOU! and miss you!

~Cidney~      Love ya Jamie and Kt!

Hey People.. yea im finally updating.. I havent had a serious update in a while...i dont think i have ever.. but yea.. theres alot on my mind and i dont know what to do. My mind is soo messed up right now.. ~Mixed Emotions~.. umm First of all... There is this guy... his name is Jamie.. and i have alot of feelings for him and i dont know what to do.. he says he has feelings for me to.. ut the distance is the only thing... But then i have alot of feelings for Derrick.. a dickhead from here. that is FOR REAL over now.. becuz no matter how strong my feelings are for him he dont care and today i went to see him and busted him all over some other chick.. and yea.. then later i went ova to my friend Bills and he was there and i was walkin up to the door and he looked out the window and ran downstairs.. so yea i was there for two hours and he wouldnt come up stairs and yea.. tso when i left i was like HES A FUCKIN BASTURD AND HES GOING TO DIE!!.. GGRR.. i hate him....he has cheated on me soo many times .. i swear im the stupided person ever!.. i just want someone to love me the way i love them... I wish sometimes that there was a guy out there that I loved like i did derrick...((and do Jamie )) and they loved me back ... and treated me atleast half way decent!... derrick is a asshole.. he hit me alot.. he gave me two bloody lips.. but im fuckin stupid and let him come back...GOD I HATE MYSELF!!.. I dont know what i am going to do... i need help.. then my friend she is going thru problems with her b/f and yea she cutt her self..and her mom saw today adn she freaked out.. and was like is that the "IN" thing today these dayz!? we have talked bout this.. blah blah.. and she freaked out on me too! and iw as like no i dont do that...((( even thou lately i have...:(:(:(:( ))) and yea.. im sooo depressed about alot of crap and yea.. but i have to go this is getting way to long!! .. and my mom is bitchin she need the computer.. I Love you Jamie adn i need to talk to you!!

~Cidney~                   

Hey People.. yea im finally updating.. I havent had a serious update in a while...i dont think i have ever.. but yea.. theres alot on my mind and i dont know what to do. My mind is soo messed up right now.. ~Mixed Emotions~.. umm First of all... There is this guy... his name is Jamie.. and i have alot of feelings for him and i dont know what to do.. he says he has feelings for me to.. ut the distance is the only thing... But then i have alot of feelings for Derrick.. a dickhead from here. that is FOR REAL over now.. becuz no matter how strong my feelings are for him he dont care and today i went to see him and busted him all over some other chick.. and yea.. then later i went ova to my friend Bills and he was there and i was walkin up to the door and he looked out the window and ran downstairs.. so yea i was there for two hours and he wouldnt come up stairs and yea.. tso when i left i was like HES A FUCKIN BASTURD AND HES GOING TO DIE!!.. GGRR.. i hate him....he has cheated on me soo many times .. i swear im the stupided person ever!.. i just want someone to love me the way i love them... I wish sometimes that there was a guy out there that I loved like i did derrick...((and do Jamie )) and they loved me back ... and treated me atleast half way decent!... derrick is a asshole.. he hit me alot.. he gave me two bloody lips.. but im fuckin stupid and let him come back...GOD I HATE MYSELF!!.. I dont know what i am going to do... i need help.. then my friend she is going thru problems with her b/f and yea she cutt her self..and her mom saw today adn she freaked out.. and was like is that the "IN" thing today these dayz!? we have talked bout this.. blah blah.. and she freaked out on me too! and iw as like no i dont do that...((( even thou lately i have...:(:(:(:( ))) and yea.. im sooo depressed about alot of crap and yea.. but i have to go this is getting way to long!! .. and my mom is bitchin she need the computer.. I Love you Jamie adn i need to talk to you!!

~Cidney~