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| So since I've deactivated facebook once again, I will blog a bit more often, maybe. I'm currently downloading a few episodes of new serials at 230-256 kb/s and so the browsing sucks big time. That's something really weird with my connection, the browsing just dies off when I'm downloading at high speed. Plus my modem lights like to dance every now and then when I download torrents, and the connection almost dies that time too. I don't know why.
Ok anyhow, this wasn't supposed to be an entry regarding my connection issues. Why did I deactivate my facebook account. I deactivated my facebook account because I have no time. No time I tell you. I have exams in 45 days give or take. I have three subjects, with ginormous portions, so roughly I have 15 days per subject. Eco is pure rote learning. You can't reproduce the concepts in the right words if you don't rote learn. Though I do both. Understand the concept and rote learn for fast reproduction on paper.
I didn't realise how fast this module went by. Forty five days are not enough. They are barely anything. The syllabus is HUGE. I'm giving it all I've got, hoping for all the best from God.
My neighbour in fujairah is in bhawalpur these days, he'll be coming down to Karachi in 2 or 3 weeks, I plan to meet him inshAllah. Me and him have a very crazy sense of things.
I lost the thread of what I was actually going to write. Ok so I'll write another one later on when I remember what I had to write haha.
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| Alright. What day is it. *checks calendar*. It is Sunday, the 6th of July. I need to remember a few birthday's one a childhood friend. 19th July and the other 27th July of a special someone  . And I need your help. Yes your help, to tell me what to get that someone.
I've started studying and its high time I did. Module B is seriously tough. Just reading a chapter, yes reading, takes 2 hours. These days I feel mentally rotten, therefore I've added the word game application on facebook, and as soon as possible I'll find the Suduko (or was it Sudoku ?) application and add it, plus I've started learning law, that should be brain stimulating - correction, brain rotting. It's weird how I have an extremely sharp memory relating to events at times, but forget very normal things and things that I shouldn't forget, such as stuff I've just memorised.
I also hate how I seem to have lost vocabulary :@. Not many people here speak English, not the ones I'm in contact with and a few days ago I was talking to someone and I literally had to search for the words that would normally be there to complete a sentence without sounding like a 5th grader. I mean good vocab is neccesary. I feel hollow without it. The only reason I'm losing it is because I don't have to speak it on a regular basis. My urdu has improved on the other hand though, thats probably because of the news and my grandfather. He on the other hand has an exceptional vocabulary in both of the languages. Now that I come to think of it, he is probably a role model to me.
Ho k, So ma ch 4 Nao.
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| Ok random stuff today. Its 10 to 2 in the morning and why am I awake and blogging ? because somehow I just dozed off at 9 pm and woke up a 1am. I had class at 8am today, which means that I had to wake up at 7am. I hate waking up early and making breakfast, because its just once a week. So, I take the easy way out, I just get a chicken roll and microwave it early morning hehe, because if I make omelette, I like it to be perfect, with tomatoes and other garnishing and that takes time at times  .
I lost my O levels certifying statement of results and I'd been wanting to get a new one for ages, but didn't get the time too. Today I printed the form out so I'll be working that shit out too.
I just realised that music playing distracts me into writing crappy blogs, not that I'm writing for someone, just me, but still. I'd like to have something to read in proper wordings.
These days, I don't know where the hell my time's flying off to. Oh and I like trance, sort of. sometimes I just listen to 2 hours of trance with visualisations. Its quite nice.
Ok headache now, here ends the random blog entry of the month. Keep visiting for more crap like this !
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| I dislike my birthday. Not anyone else's, just mine. And I don't know why. I seriously don't. Its the most depressing day of the year. Every year I want it to just pass unnoticed and I actually succeed at times, but someone or the other remembers it and wishes me. I don't like to be wished, and at the same time I want to be. That is why I hate my birthday, because it messes me up. I don't like to feel anything and a birthday can just be overwhelming. I didn't even tell my grandparents until just a few moments ago ie late evening because I spent Rs.500 on Mcdonalds for no reason and now I don't have money. And no it wasn't to celebrate. I don't know why I loath my birthday so much. I've never been big on celebrating it. I have always had to study or do some other thing on my birthday and I haven't 'celebrated' for a good 4-5 years at least (of course parents do the whole cake stuff an 'in-house' activity) and I have to study today too, which is cool, because it distracts me. The only good thing about the birthday is probably the duas from the elders and my parents. Other than that I hate it. I don't even like most of the wishers because I think they are just fake friends. I'm rude. I'm not a nice person. Meh. screw it. I'll just go pray. I need clarity of thought. | | |
| Its been quite sometime since I last blogged. My life's really weird. Sometimes its dead boring and slow, sometimes things happen at a whirlwind place. Random updates for now include me officially being in module B i.e Module A I passed. Its almost the start of June. And I dislike June. I'm not so sure why. I don't like people who have been out of my life for a long time come up and wish me on my birthday. I find that fake. Ironically I do the same with a lot of people, but I think of it as courtesy, so I guess its ok, and yeah not that it really matters if anyone wishes me or not, sometimes the person you least expecting it from surprises you, and sometimes someone you were expecting it from surprises you too. That is indeed life. You win some you lose some. On to Academics. I feel stressed out, big time stressed out. The subjects are new and tough. Mercantile law, Economics and Accounting. Accounting has the crappiest teacher possible. Economics can be boring at times, but I love it at the moment. I'm enjoying learning how the economy operates and stuff. I admit I have to put in twice or even thrice as much effort as a normal commerce student would, but then again, I WANT to learn this shit. Last class I learnt something about exchange rates, needless to say, I got the idea of FOREX again. I will pursue that itch later on. Anyhow the point was, I no longer feel bored of it. I'm also blacklisted with the administration because the the peeps I sit with in class are mischievous and well when it comes to it, everyoneg gets screwed. I try not to laugh at the teachers at times, but sometimes its really hard. For example, our economics teacher has this habit of saying "Price" like he's really constipated or something. So it comes out like "PRRRRrrriiiiiice". Sharif Tabani on the other hand, during his extremely lame jokes said something about Nando's, and literally said it as "NAANDOO'S". I had to grit my teeth together to stop laughing. Hey I can't help it if I have a retarded sense of humour haha. I've started jogging, and I jog 4 days a week. I'm also joining the gym from today with a trainer. They gym is literally astaghfirullah, but something's gotta give. On a positive note, the social drama I was going through is sort of ending, the outcome being that it has me more motivated to study hard and stay away from girls . I would like to modify the saying of a woman playing a part behind a man's success. No sorry, its the other way round. There's "always" a woman behind a man's destruction. Right now, I realise the risks of this module are way too high. Literally way too high. I can't have any of this that fucking around with my career. I must steamroll through, and get out of this shithole. Fuck yeah. That will be all. PS: Listen to 10 years - Russian Roulette | | |
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