why do I have to keep a diary. some things are better never written down and found out. and I don't believe in chances... put my diary over the last 5 years in an unlocked top drawer in my bedroom. what are the chances someone will open them? it's not as small as it seemed now. I have horrible judgement. was it so hard to believe that someone will open them. unbelievable... I wish I can snatch them away and burn them before they can be read, if I'm home now I can at least take them away to stop further studying of it, but I'm not. things I said to myself should never be read by another person. I don't say it to them for a reason and what good is it for them to find out. everything is distorted. and shouldn't I get mad at them? why am I the one being criticized and judged and bothered? I need to shut up. why do I write things down.