So where to start..??

I know some people probably think Im one of the luckiest guys on earth.. I work in one of the best "adult" stores in the US... i get VIP treatment in the one of top five Strip clubs in the US (Diamonds Cabaret) and VIP in one of the top 3 dance clubs in the US(Club Masque), granted its a gay club, but a dance club none the less.. Im tall, blonde, athletic,I kno right for wrong, i can treat a girl shes everything..I guess Im a good lookin guy... But steadily my life has been on a decline, and for the most part there's nutin I can do...

Earlier this school year i was kicked out of a group that i put my heart into, and they threw me out like i was yesterdays garbage..and for what a job title? About 3 weeks ago Wayne kicked me out of school for apparently missing days and what what did they tell me? "we dont need you here anymore" ... No child left behind..I lost all my friends I never see anyone anymore, no one ever talks to me..I knew when i was there i wasnt popular or even close to it, but now im gone its lik no one even relizes Im gone in the first place, like i was never there to begin with....Make things even worse a  little over a month or so ago I lost the best thing to ever happen to me, she was everything to me... lookin back on it all, the thing that hurts the most is what could have been.. the plans we had, the places we where going... I had everything i ever wanted... Now..I wake up to nothing.. Sometimes I dont even want to wake up, I just want to lay there and wish things were like they were.....wishing i had her back. For the first time in almost a month i saw her today, when i first laid eyes on her i almost started to cry and when i was talkin to her i couldnt even hardly see her cuz my eyes were watering so much... Shes so beautiful and Im such a fuck up...Its said a broken never heals.. its true..When she gave me a hug good bye its like i didnt even want to let go cuz i had that one peice that was missing... On the ride home all i did was cry.......i had to drive around the block a couple times so when i got home no one would think anything was wrong..... earlier this week i was robbed at gunpoint.. they took my wallet and everything i had in it.... really lookin on it... if they did pull the trigger.. Who would know i was gone? who would really care?..... My life seems to be going down and nothing that can really stop it as far as me putting a bullet un my own head.. Sad to say ive thought about it a couple times... I hate to say it but its true.. and i dont mean to scare anyone sayin all this BUT it true... and i dont have anyone to turn to....

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so keith is going to a camp for crime watch  sunday... Im not really lookin forward to it, not because its a camp, but ill miss liz.. terribly.. six days.. man its going to suck.. my sanity is going to be like...gone.. leave me some lovins.. even tho no one prolly reads this.. later

liz i love you so much have fun n try not to get into to much trouble beatin up nick.

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Yea its been a long time.....

A lot has happened lately...First off... my iguana died from a tumar a couple days ago and it sux and is hitting me perdy hard.....                                                                                  It was the summer before 7th grade and i was jus recovering from being sick the whole year and i ended up getting her from my neighbor, she boosted my morale and i never put her down, she was really the only friend i had that summer..and now .... shes ...dead. I knew once the tumar started growing she was going to die from it.. i just didnt expect it to be so soon.....I dont really know what else to say about it... It's just going to be hard knowing she could be with me when i moved out.. she was only 8 and iguanas can live til mid 30s'..Im going to miss her.....Rest In Peace Shiva...

I feel very emo... there's no one i can really talk to anymore..and I'm really upset.. so if yur out there and wanna cheer me up... jus leave me a message..

1. Keith has made a crime watch officer *clap*
2. Keith has mocked Liz (typing)effciently to the point of no return.
3. Keith has been casted in the play *Murder at brantly manor* in the role of "Rev. Godly
4. Keith almost had a heart attack last night when liz said "call for an ambulance"[hahaha]
5. Keith and Liz went to prom
6. Keith and Liz went to after prom
7. Keith has attached himself to liz's hip.
8. Liz has attached her self to keiths hip.