I think it's time for an update.

Senior year has been anything but perfect, but I guess you have to make the best with what you're given. Which is what I am doing. My life has recently been consisted of art. Thats absolutely it. My portfolio is due this friday and I still have 8 pieces to do to complete it. I don't sleep anymore, lol, but that's okay. After Friday I will literally be stress free. I am ready to just do nothing on the weekends...it's crazy how much I actually miss that. Graduation and Falls Creek is coming up really soon, Time really flies. I am going to TU in the fall, I am nervous and excited at the same time. I just want my roomate to like me lol. We'll see how that goes. Atleast I'm right down the street from my sister.

Kenny came to town at the beginning of the month. I love that kid. We had so much fun while he was here.  He hasn't changed one bit. He is also looking at TU as one of his college choices, that would be too much fun!

I have really been learning a lot about who my true friends are lately, as is everyone else I think. God is amazing, and He always provides. Prom was fun this year under certain circumstances. AJ and I had a blast, and the limo was awesome. AJ has been a real encourager lately throughout all of this stress of the many things I have been dealing with. It's nice to have him as not only a boyfriend but as a friend as well. Not much I can really say right now about life, because it's a rollercoaster for me. But I am learning to accept it how it is, it's a lot funner that way. I shall update again soon.<3

It's been a bit since I last updated. But pretty much nothing has changed. I still do not have a college decision, I will visit TU on thursday and the hopefully God will show me where I am supposed to go. I am really busy just doing art lately. that's all I will be doing from now until the AP test which is at the end of april.

I am learning a lot lately about relationships. Not just from being in one, but watching others. I see the do's and don'ts about a relationship. Some couples are too clingy, or one is too clingy of the other which destroys the relationship. Some have absolutely too much space between them (communication wise) which creates suspicion of cheating. It's interesting to see how you can tell a persons priorities by how they treat their boyfriend or girlfriend.

Anyways. I absolutely love being in touch with Kenny Kent again. I love that kid so much. He's just the same, cept oh so grown up which makes me upset. He will be coming to Tulsa for Spring Break, I am super excited to see him. Thankful that God put him in my life.

I graduate in less than three months, its a scary thought. Scary to think that I will only stay in touch with a handful of them after college. I have contemplated getting a myspace after high school, to stay in touch with people like Macarthur or Kenny and people I don't see on a weekly basis, and then I laugh at myself because Myspace will probably be outdated just like xanga by then, but thats ME-don't like to follow trends. 

AJ and I are doing great. Over 2 years dating and still going strong. I love that boy.

I will update soon enough if anything exciting happens.<3

The word to describe my life lately is-stressful. Who woulda known that senior year was so incredibly tough. The movies definitely make it seem like a breeze. I did get straight A's on my report card for first semester though. I am pretty excited about that because this semester was very challenging. I am hoping that is enough to receive the title of Valedictorian. But I have already commited that goal to God and I will be thankful no matter what happens because I know the right person won.  Still no college decisions, will hopefully know the decision by mid-february.
Friends are doing good. Still don't get to spend as much time with them as I'd like but it's going alright. Meagan is in Colorado right now, skiing it up. Not fair, I wish I could get away. I definitely miss her at school tho. Audrey is doing great, we have too much in common lol. But out schedules just collide so it's hard to find time to hang out with her.
Family is good. I have been spending more time with them lately. I love stephanie to death and we often have late night moments. Great times.
AJ and I are also doing well. We grow closer everyday. We talked on Sunday, and just told each other about things in the past and it just really helped us understand why we react to some of the things the way we do sometimes. Love that boy.
I am in a time in my life right now where I am learning about myself. I am learning about things that I don't agree with and how I have to deal with them every day. I am learning how to control my timing so that I am not so overwhelmed. I was thankful, so so thankful, the other day because I got a call from a friend who I thought I'd lost touch with for forever. Kenny Kent called me. He is still the same, but yet so grown up. It breaks my heart that I have missed him grow up. He is like a huge star in Florida at his high school for basketball. And it sucks that I haven't gotten to see him play. But instead of being sad I should be excited. He talks to me like we never lost touch. I miss that kid. And I can't wait til he comes and visits<3

It doesn't matter what they say. Just turn up the volume & tune them out. Let them know what you're really about. Live for the moment & reach for your goals. You never know what the future holds. Don't have any regrets & don't waste time. If they want to talk that's fine.

Life is crazy right now, I think it's crazy for any senior who is trying to make a future for themselves. Throughout all of the applications and decisions, comes a lot of realization about myself. I really have learned a lot about myself lately, and its pretty weird. A lot of it is things I would like to change, and its hard when I don't have many girls to talk to. No one really asks me to hang out, no one really has time for me. I am not trying to have a pity party for myself because trust me, I have two amazing best friends. Meagan and Audrey, the most beautiful girls anyone could ever see. I just don't really get to hang out with them much, they both have jobs, I have homework every night, we all have boyfriends(not that they come first), we have family lives. Its just hard, I feel like I have so much to say but no one to listen to me say it.

College decisions are left opened right now, the three I am looking at are OBU, OC, and TU. It's pretty scary, until I visit all three, I will not be able to make a decision. I hope to make this decision before february.

It's finally christmas, I hope that I get to hang out with my girls a lot, because of our busy lives during school its a lot harder...I have about 4 art projects to complete, an english report to do, and a multicultural studies report to do. I hope to get my reports done by this weekend, thats a stretch, but It'll relieve a lot of stress. I am just a busy girl all the time, so rescue me if you haven't seen me in a while.<33