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Tuesday, October 23, 2007

  • Ok, so my intake so far was quite a lot actually, not necessarily the amount of food just the calorific content of it, considering that it was only breakfast. But oh well, here it is

    B: one bowl of muesli (oatmeal, 5 raw almonds, about 10 raisins, an apple, a handful of oat puffs and some wheatbran and a tablespoon of flaxseed) calories? i don´t really know, my guess about 300? everything filled out about 3/4 of my cereal bowl

    L: pickles 14cals
    D:tba

    Exercise:
    walked the dog for about 40 minutes -109cals

    Total so far: 203 cals

    Todays thinspo is gonna be.....

    SKINNY LEGS!! YAY





    sienna miller






    winehouse




    and as always it ends with good old kate moss

    I´ll try to put up more later

    Stay strong <3 much love and support

Monday, October 22, 2007

  • Heya everyone! I´m BACK!!

    I´ve been gone for aaageees but I just read through all your xangas and I really miss u guys so much!!
    Oh god but I defenitely need some changing around here... I´m probably gonna change my layout tomorrow, I´m not really in the mood to search for a new one right now...

    I have been sooo terrible lately. I´ve gotten sooo fat again!!

    I lost a lot of weight due to some drug problems but now that I´ve kinda had a little rehab thingy going on (not really voluntary I just got cut off because everyone kinda moved away and I don´t get anymore money from my parents and quit my job...)I´ve gained sooo much weight. I look so disgusting! It´s awful. I used to be quite thin some months ago but physically and mentally I was in a quite terrible stage but now that my life has gotten a little healthier my thighs have become fatter...
    I hate myself...

    But I´m defenitely going to change again!! For sure. I feel like fat Nicole Richie after rehab It´s terrible. Don´t want to go back to drugs though because my stomach and nose are already messed up enough. I don´t think I could take that anymore... But I can´t take being fat any longer!! Seems like  Ana is the only one who can help me right now.

    Love you guys!!
    Stay strong <3 Much love and support

Sunday, May 07, 2006


  • Hello girlies,

    I´m a bit wasted (AGAIN!!!!!!!!!) Well, my best friend and I were so so bored so we got a little wasted and took some painkillers. Whatever... I lost another pound. That´s so cool because I did eat some stuff yesterday. Not much but a little bit. I ate like 4 bites of cheese, 4 grapes, a small meatball and one slice of mozarella and a 1/8 tomato. I guess it was pretty much ok because I almost didn´t eat all day. I drank alcohol though. But whatever, that´s one thing I don´t really wanna give up and I lost one pound so I guess it was ok.

    Well, I went to that birthday party and it was just SO boring that some of my friends and I left like after 1 1/2 hours and went to a club were Fatman Scoop perfomed that night. It was pretty fun. We danced a lot and it was cool.  Pretty crowded though.
    But Fatman Scoop pulled me on stage as he performed which was pretty funny since my foot got stuck at the side of the stage and he like totally had to tear me up there so that I could get up there and dance. But he´s a big guy...

    Anyways, so my intake today wasn´t THAT great but it wasn´t terrible either.

    B: nothing
    L: one sucker (70cals)
    D: half a bag of low fat chips I shared with my friend (I don´t know, like 300cals maybe?)

    So I hope this weight loss thing will keep on going because that´d be great!!
    Oh my gosh I so want a cigarette right now but I don´t have any left and I spent all my money so I´m kinda broke on cash. Dammed................

    P.S.

    I was wondering, do you guys have MySpace? I´d love to add you to mine !!!

Saturday, May 06, 2006


  • Hello beautifuls,

    sorry I haven´t had time to update in a while!!

    My body is REALLY weird! I don´t get it. I hardly ate anything last week and GAINED weight. So this week I did ok, not good but not like terrible either. I had about a 400-600 cals intake everyday. Yesterday I even had 5 slices of pizza and went clubbing and drank a lot of booze. So today I weighed myself and I lost weight!!! I´m like 158 right now. I was 165 after my binge last time. It is really weird!!! But whatever, I´m happy about every lost pound, right??
    I think it might be because I smoked A LOT of cigarettes lately. Maybe that´s why I lost weight, who knows....

    So my intake today was pretty good I guess. Here it is:

    B: nothing
    L: vitamine water (100cals)
    S: latte (200 cals), about 4 bites of a fruit cake my mom made (50cals)
    D: probably lots of booze since I´m going to a party tonight

    So ok, I need your opinion. There is this guy. He used to be a barkeeper at a club I go to but now he just hangs out there. I think he is so cute but he like doesn´t even notice me that much. And I don´t know anyone who is like friends with him. My friends all think he isn´t that good looking and I guess he is not really handsome in a classic way but I just think he is cute. Whatever, but he always hangs out with this girl who is like REALLY ugly which kinda drives me crazy. She really isn´t hot! But I don´t know what to do because maybe if I would talk to him and he wouldn´t want me to I would have to see him there every week because he always goes there the same days we go and that would be SO embarassing, right? He´d be like, yeah that´s the ugly bitch who has a crush on me and all his friends would be like, yeah, she´s a loser!! You know what I mean? That´d be hell!!! I don´t know what to do.... Gah, this sucks!!

    Ok now some thinspo, this time it´s kinda Lindsay Lohanish:



    And as always let´s end it with the beautiful Kate Moss <3





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