*memories*

wow such a long time since i have updated....so i get this message from the one love of my entire life today....i cant get him out of my head....i know that i have screwed things up big time and that i will never be able to have him once again because hes fell in love with someone else and thats good for him but sucks for him..i cant get him out of my mind because he will always be there from going to church to gether eto being in the hospital sick for a week, we've been through alot and its never goin to change the way i feel about him...i've tried so many things to get him out of my head and nothikng works i just hope that he forgives me and talks to me again...i miss him sooo much...no one could ever replace his smile or the way that he made me feel when everyone was putting me down telling me im useless....theres just one thing..how can i love someone else when i gave someone my heart a long time ago and i haven't gotten it back?? i can't..i guess i just have to live with it....well im goin to bed because i have to work tommorrow to finish my eight days in a row...but ill update again later,

*theresa*

wow this last week is goin by so fast its not even funny! lots of memories have happened this week...like me jumpin and screamin because i saw a SHARK on tv, then laughin about it moments later....amazing...

signin yearbooks...laughin at stupid jokes that i get from George....packin for the past week and a half....takin finals...im gonna miss all of this so much...no more mongolian food with liz, no more late night tv shows with my roomie....no more stayin up until i pass out...wait i can still do that..lol...

goin to dads tomarrow and im goin to moms on friday morning.....im startin my life all over without the drama that ive had for the past month because of buddy and everyone else...robin and i are gonna live together and its gonna be amazing i can't wait....

well ive gotta go im hungry...

*theresa*

DRAMA!!!!!

I HATE DRAMA!! Like this weekend when I went home alot of shit happened and alot of NOT SO NICE words were said...But honestly I didn't care about what trouble I was in because I don't live there and they can't do shit to me...but my sister on the other hand is who I'm worried about....I love her to death and my parents suck monkey balls...they are so controling that its not even funny...Then when I got to school on Sunday my stepma called me and said that I was never allowed at home anymore....I flipped out....o did I flip out....I called my dad and told him what was goin on and he said that he will handle it....Which he did....

Then on myspace there is this one girl who wants to kill me because of Buddy....I don't care....She don't kno me and I frankly don't have anything to say to that.......PERSON!.....

Yeasturday was an awesome day, I got to hang out with Robin....We haven hung out in I don't kno how long...but it was good...first we went tattoo shopping...I didn like anything I saw....then we decided to get our nails done..YAY!!...then we went to the mall to shop.....YAY!! Then we went out to Joliet to see Buddy.....fun times....hung out on jefferson cuz thats all that we ever do...FUN FUN!!..then we proceded to head back to school after that....GAYNESS..

Today I hung out with Robin again...YAY!!...we went to go get boxes so I can finish packing because I'm movin to my mums next week or so....we went and got subway...YAY!! Then came back to school....

So the beginning of the week was shitty....and now its getting better because I have two classes and chapel tomarrow and then on friday I am free.....YAY!! Friday is also Buddy's birthday so we're goin out with his cousin I think and then on Saturday I'm hangin out with Robin...YAY!! But enough of this gibber gabber......

LOVE, PEACE, AND CHICKEN GREASE!

*T*

OH My Gosh!!!!

Wow, I can't believe that my freshmen year in college will be over in less then 14 days. That is amazing and it sucks...I'm gonna miss the sweet faces here on the floor....Listening to ERIC CLAPTIN play guitar at 1:30 AM.......Waiting for showers in the morning with bed head........Going to bed at 1:30 AM because of term papers, and being woke up at 3:00 AM because someone set the fire alarm off....Cooking ramon in the microwave for 10 minutes with no water...who does that???..Watching Dog the Bounty Hunter until you and your roommate pass out.....Watching Cold Case Files and American Justice on A&E before morning classes.....Goin to the tiger den for lunch everyday....geting the same thing everyday....

I have learned so much this year that its not even funny......I've made friendships and I've lost friendships.......I've been out partying when I shouldn't have and got busted for it....I believe that this year being my freshmen year in college has made me who I am today....With fighting with my dad and debi, to breaking up with the one person that I truely loved.....Now there is no doubt in my mind that I don't still love him because I do and I always will....I just came to the realization that I could never be happy.....if I could be happy with Robert then yes I would still be with him....This is just something that I felt God showing me before I got into it to deep...But since I came back to the dorm this semester, I have got to kno so many amazing people and each one has helped become who I am now.....I realize that I still have alot of work to do with God, but God is with me evey step of the way...I just ask for his guidence throughout this summer and next year....I'm gonna miss my friends here at school and all the people at home....I'm goin off to live my life the way that I think I should live it...Instead of the way that other people want me to live it....The one person I'm gonna miss the most is goin to be my roommate...she's been here for me the whole time and has encouraged me whenever I needed encouragement....I will miss her dearly...I hope that she has a wonderful life and that she grows in her relationship with God.....

Off of the love and sappy part of this post.......I'm movin to my mom's and I believe its for the best...I get to spend time with George and my sisters that I hardly ever get to see.....Plus my grandma is sick so I want to be there to take care of her like she did me when I was sick...YEP!!.....But I think that the hard part about movin is leavin my step sister....I love her so much and she has become ONE of my best friends.....I don't know what I am gonna do without her....I think I'm gonna have to come home and visit her alot.....Cuz, I can't stand to be without her....The other hard part is movin all of my stuff to my moms cuz I don't think that my dad will help me because hes's a jerk face...But anyways, I'm done with the gibber gabber...So I'm outta here....

.........love, peace, and chicken grease,...........

....................*Theresa*...............................

wow

so my week has been ok i guess...alot of drama...grr....but other than that its ok....easter was good...i got a card from my bestest buddy in the whole wide world.....it was so beautiful.....it meant alot to me.....right now im just tryin to figure things out with my life and with god....im so lost....i only have like 15 or 16 days of school left and then im off to move back in with my mom...and i get to see george! thats goin to be awesome!!! but movin back is a big drama in itself...grr...my dad...grr....but ya so im off to bed ill update again later.

love, peace, and chicken grease,

*Theresa*