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Name: Alex
Gender: Female
Interests: Listening to music, chillin' w/friends, cruising in mai ride, shopping, talkin' on da fone, eating
Expertise: Being ME ;-)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
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Member Since:
6/22/2004
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| a new earthhi. so i was watching oprah's episode on a new earth. and then there was some short clip of it on youtube that a watched a moment ago. I was reading all the comments, and was like "wooah!" a lot of comments appeared negative towards Oprah and this new book. calling it the anti-christ and how there are so many oprah followers. All this did was bring me back to lil moments i had with my bible study mentors. i remember one of my mentors calling Oprah the Devil. And another mentor jus totally against the radio talkshow host Delilah that comes on in the evenings on 93.9. And to me, everything ive been hearing is just opinions that people have every right to say, jus like what im about to say. I dont believe there is anything wrong with Oprah. From what i saw clips of, she stated that she does believe in Jesus, but that does not mean she is going to disregard that other people have their own beliefs. I dont believe Oprah should be blamed for her million or so followers. The followers are a group of their own, who knows, maybe the dont have a strong head on their shoulders or maybe they need a good kick from Oprah to get their life back on the road. Everyone is different! But Oprah went through her own stuggles even though she was born and raised a Christian. That still didnt prevent her from being raped or molested. But she does state that her God helped her through that all. Sometimes people go through living in hell here on earth (by this i mean severly tragic events) before they find God and feel peace with him. In my mind, i wonder who am I to judge, who are we? Until we walked a mile in someone else's shoes, will we ever know. i give props to Oprah and Delilah for talking and promoting God in such a media frenzied time where religion is so sensitive to talk about. When i left a retreat a while back, they told us that we are going back into the REAL world with whatever knowledge we grasped. I knew some people who i felt would have it easy, they'd go back to college where they have a bible study group, and other chistians who are jus like them, maybe there is love and support in that circle. I was really sad abt leaving that retreat because i knew that when i go back, the problems id be able to escape for 5 days would still be there...its a place which involves being tied down with responsibilites and the living situation at home...where eventually those problems tear u down bit by bit leaving you to wonder, where is God and why is this happening to me? for an understanding person - they may see that one can glorify God through this and pull closer. But if u're the weaker of the two, u jus feel confused. So sometimes i see what Oprah means cuz i can relate, the fact that sometimes people can keep coming back to God after w/e it is that they've been through. maybe God brought that book into certain peoples lives. if u ever heard of Maslow's Heirarchy, u may know that self-actualization is at the tip of this pyramid. Maybe some people could use this as a stepping stone and be well on their way to forming a relationship with God. a lot of things i believe have to do with self-reflection (it may not come out in sooo many words, but im still human, growing, learning changing)...like did i remove the speck in my eye before im going to help some one else remove the one in their eye? | | |
| Partiesso today, after sooo long, we had our first party at the house. It was spose to be a dinner for my uncle and aunt before they head back. But i call it a party when there are 2+ families show up. my cousins and i were playin poker...and all of this brought back a lot of memories from childhood. i remember at least 2 parties (yup, even some at our house) each month back when i was a kid. but now, it seems so hard to get the family together. the last time we has a bunch of parties (usually kids bday/Easter/Christmas) was back in 05, before one of us got married and moved to another state. prior and post 05, we went thru this drought. eventually, wen the parties started up slowly, it felt akward. we all kept saying to eachother "man, we havent had one of these in a long". while i was cleaning up and sanitizing everything (ive become quite the germ-o-phobe, and its driving me nuts!), i had this quick memory of a half truth. Back in seventh grade, there was a seventh grade dance and i really wanted to go. i knew if i told my parents the actually truth, they wouldnt have let me gone. So, i thought id tell them that there was going to be some type of 7th grade election and it was mandatory that i be there to vote (i just didnt say wen the actual election was). My brothers also believed this.well... one of my brother's friend also had a younger sister that was in the same grade as me. i guess she told her family the truth, that this was a dance. When i got home, it was kinda funny hearing my brother recap the conversation he had.... My brother: "my sister had to go for some speech election thing tnite" His friend: "u serious, thats weird, my sister said there was some school dance" yea...as u can see, im still alive. | | |
| The Strength that Lies in Eyesill admit it, the first thing i notice in a guy are his eyes. i really hope that whomever i spent the rest of my life with does have really nice eyes. at first, i didnt believe that a man's eyes are really the window into his soul, it just sounded cheezy. but eyes are definitely a good lie detector. if a man can lie looking you straight in the eye, he is a really good actor. in my culture,eyes have a deep meaning. not only for the evil eye thing, but its instantly considered some type of physical interaction if it turns into a gaze. or else u're just in some guys way =P...i don know why i thought of that...oh yea, cuz of OPRAH. i was reading feb. issue of O. a divorced, widower in her 50s was having trouble meeting a man she wud want to spent the rest of her life with. so she went to some lady called a clairvoyant. and this is what the clairvoyant suggested: "what is it that you truly want for your life...write down a 100 qualities you would like this person to have..down to the color of the socks...put (it) away for safe keeping ..what you are doing is making clear for yourself exactly the person who will be right for you...you will be directing the request into the universe to send that person to you". for me, the universe would be God. but since he knows everything i want, he gives me what i need. despite knowing this, i thought it would be niceif i made a list for myself, of things i want out of life, or to do in life. and then ill make a fun list of 100 qualities about someone id want to share my life with. ..for instance, ive always wanted to try yoga. and i did that last summer. i feel yoga is somethin every1 shud try. the magic in yoga is the focus it provides. and the act of focusing your mind on one thing, in itself is peaceful. i was trying to focus on trying to do the yoga stance... all this wanting out of life made me think about the two female PRs i met at BNN. and the whole encouragement of HOW TO go after your dream. on another issue, i realized i am a list-maker ( i tried to make that sound like risk-taker, which i am also)...i love making lists of everything. it just helps w/ the whole organization thing. | | |
| Post Bridal Partywell, im back. u know- it actually didnt go that bad. The times i sat by myself, i made sure no one was around. n the times i sat by myself when people were around- i made sure to face a direction towards a circle of girls to make it look like i wasnt by myself. this way- no one wud feel obligated to come and talk to me. it was pretty nice, a lot of food. And a lot of little things to keep us busy. Brenda was there. and u know wat? she actually came and talked to me. she jus conversed the general "hi, how are u?" which is a lot better than her "ignoring" me game. i dont want to get too excited that she talked to me. maybe its jus a one time thing. ne wayz, jus reporting on the after party. | | |
| The Men I didnt Marry...well, i finally finished reading this book. a book shud be somethin u want to read, not somethin u force urself too (w/ exception to school books). This one caught my eye off the shelf, if it wasnt for my laziness, i wuda finished it sooner. what i liked abt this book is, that the narrater was relatable. Her jokes and thoughts and its relation to present day made her character relatable. It was abt a woman whose husband left her for a fitness trainer. And after two weeks of moping, she begin flipping thru her blackbook of old bfs. And this is where it started getting a little unrealistic: all the bf's happened to be single and with some awesome career, and they still wanted her like they were still in a relationship with her. For instance, one of them was on FORBES magazine, or another was a scuba diver instructor living in paradise hired by movie stars (and this is where Anjelina Jolie made an appearance-also another unrealistic), or another one was a gay guru. but it bothered me that they were still fawning over her... then i realized that thats the nice part of this book. sometimes we may look back at our ol bfs n wonder wat happened if we were still with them. wonder how our life wud be different. realistically, i think they'd be married after 20 yrs with kids. But this book got imaginitve and wondered wat would happend if they were rich, handsome and single and still wanted us- and we were in great shape after 20 yrs. its nice=) on another note, im writing my pre bridal party attendance fears. imma abt to attend a bridal party. ill admit im a lil scared. the bride-to -be has been a good long time friend. And im solely going for her ( and no, food's not the excuse this time). it sux when u dont know ne one. or the people u do know decide to be immature and unkind by ignoring you. im slowly trying to get used to the idea that "its ok" to be sitting by urself on some old brown leather seated chair, eating, and trying to pretend that ur occupied with ur own thoughts and appear that ur spaced out or appear that ur "ok" that no one is talking to u. but its hard to ever get used to that. i cud try to strike up a few convos. but w/e i say usually gets shut down, someone says somethin over me, n i feel the need to wipe the salt off my shoulder b/c the person next to me heard some of the words that spilled out. "brenda" is going to probably there too. and she scares me. Brenda is the code name for the girl who i always admired growing up. Shes an 11/10 on the beauty scale, pretty much every1 i know always is fawning over her.i admired her b/c i thought she was nice and she was able to relate to me. But lately the way that she has been treating me, im rating her 2/10 on personality. Its another "have u ever been there" situation that im going to have to ask every1. Have you ever been treated rudely by the one person that everyone is kissing ... to? the fact that she chose me of all people to be treating this way is beyond my understand. And out of the maturity- i thought she once had, i wish she wud pull me aside one day and explain why... well ill be responding POST bridal party when i get back. i cant wait to see the bride-to-be!!! | | |
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