today, I babysat the twin boys that I have regularly babysit for, for quite some time now. they make me smile in their simplistic happiness everytime I see them. I only wish I had that ability.
I get many eskimo kisses and hugs everytime I'm there, which I guess doesn't seem like much. but it means alot to me.
and today, as I left, I asked one of them to come up to the deck from the back yard and say good bye to me. He did as he was told, and with him he brought me "a pretty flower for Miss jenn" how cute?
who does that anymore?
only my little ian. :)
how did he know that was one of my requests for a good man, that he brings me a single flower, picked himself.
that kept me smiling ...even at the lobster.

my goal=

simplicity.

love-

Jenn

I seriously dont get it.
why
why are you a freaking idiot.
newsflash...
I smile at you, and speak to you not because I truly care about how your day is, or because i give a shit in general about you, or because I think you are hot stuff...but because I HAVE TO. it just so happens to be my shitty ass job to be nice to you.
DONT hit on me.
I dont like you.
I dont want you to touch me.
I dont want to give you my number.
and I especially dont want to tell you when I get off work. you crazy ass freak.
GODDAMNINT!
I dont want to be there to begin with, dont make it harder.
thats just akward.
smiling and nodding didnt even work. damn.
sad thing, ths happened more than once, today alone.
Do I look like a hooters girl?
Do I look in any way inviting?
Negative.
Hooters is down the road sir...have fun.

I officially hate people.

However.
I will finally be training to be a waitress next week...
maybe I won't quit after all.
and maybe I'll flirt back with these assholes if they tip me. lol.
oh, im a bitch.
meh

other than that...

Spent the weekend smiling.

good times indeed.

fri night saw alot of old friends...it ended up not being akward and actually made up with *crazy* old roomate. who I had not spoken to since the huge fight/cops/akward move out. I really love everyone I spent time with, it was a spectacular night of cheap bowing, shoe stealing and video games/ cheesey fries. Lots o laughs. I need more of these nights. I missed those kids. the ones who I ignored because they were straight edge, but now that means the world to me. that means they cant say they did something horible because they were fucked up. because they arent. if they do anything, which is rare, they simply appoligize and sing me a song.I knew I was missing something.

I spent the whole weekend with my family starting sat, we went on the boat on alatoona. I missed it. It was around 4 when we settled down in a cove and I sat uptop to read, in a skirt and takntop. not thinking the suns that strong. oh man was I wrong, I have the most burnt legs and whats worse is the most absolute horrible tanlines. litteraly half my leg is red and the other white...its fantastic.

that night I spent with my super old time friend amanda who was leaving the next morning for New york again...damn. growing up. sucks man. everyone lives so far away. we ended up seeing a few more old friends and meeting up with them for a barbeque at the new bachelor pad. we sat around talking and laughing all night, trying not to burn things down and avoid the bugs...lol. all of our cheecks hurt...and that meant we lived that night. Its sad to know that It probably wont happen for a while again. we all get so busy and lose touch so easy. damn.

and today, easter. my family is not exactly traditional. however we are an episcopalian-italian family. so there will always be an early big meal, and a long ass prayer. heh. although, our topics of conversation include starship, gay marraige, mental problems, which family members in jail this month, drugs, alcohol, and stds...all the while mettalica playing in the backround. we really know how to mix it up. lol.

PS-I love my family. my daddy waxed my car and my mommy ironed my work shirt. I felt spoiled. lol.

then...work. damn.

even that wasnt so much of a mood kill.
despite the idiots.

all in all a thumbs up weekend.

ps-mmm...peeps.

love you-
Jenn