Best week in a lonnnnng time.

I'm finally really really happy.

Only things that could make this week better:
A.  Getting a job.
B.  Getting into Maryland.

Supposedly Maryland sends decisions out tomorrow, so I should know by Tuesday.

As for a Job...?  HIRE ME!!!!!

Edit Friday: MEEP! I got into Maryland!
Now...if only someone would hire me...

<33 Car

Looking through old entries, so much has changed in the past year.

Found this one...

Have you ever been constantly surrounded by people, but still felt so alone?  So you surround yourself with more people, try to fill the void, but it doesn't help.  You grow more confused, so you try to distance yourself from everyone, but you feel more alone than ever.  You don't know what to do, who to choose...you just want your prince charming to come and rescue you like a beautiful fairy tale. My window is perfect for one of those movie scenes. Someone should totally come to my house in the middle of the night, throw pebbles at my bedroom window to wake me up, sing or recite poetry to me, wrap a blanket around me when I come outside with them, lay with me underneath the stars, tell me the sweet things I'm longing to hear, and kiss me like they mean it...and mean it.  I want to fall hard. Car

Wow...that seems so long ago, but not so long ago at the same time.  My wish came true, I  found my prince charming...and, although he hasn't yet thrown pebbles at my window, he has taken me out at night to see the stars, brought me back to the place where we had our first kiss, and wrapped a blanket around me to keep me warm, and kissed me like I was the most important thing in the world...because according to him, I am.  He hasn't recited poetry to me, but he has sung...in his adorably off-key voice, and hes been everything I could have ever wished for and more.  Its funny how much can change in a year.  Last year I didn't believe it was possible to fall in love this young...I guess I proved myself wrong.

If there is one thing that I could bring back from last year though, I would bring back the closeness I had with my best friends.  We're still best friends, but I can't help but feel like we're not as close as we used to be.  I know that its probably mostly my fault because I've gotten wrapped up with my boyfriend; something I always swore I would never do.  I do make a concious effort to bring things back to the way they used to be, but we've all changed.  I still love them the same, and things are getting better, but I just miss the way we used to be carefree little retards who didn't give a shit about what anyone thought.  We had eachother, and that was all that mattered.  I hope we are still best friends when we're old, and have kids of our own who sneak out and get drunk together, just like we used to plan.  I love you more than anything.

Also, I miss my friendships with alot of the guys from other towns.  Its wierd that our friendship only went along with the benefits.  Alot of them were really nice kids...and I would have liked to stay friends with them, but I guess that would have been kind of wierd for all of us , whatever though...I still keep in touch with the ones that matter enough I guess...

I can't even begin to imagine how different things are going to be when another year has gone by.  We'll all have gone in our different directions to college and whatever else the next year has in store for us, but hopefully I'll stay close with the people who really matter.

Currently Playing Thicker Than Water By Jack Johnson see related

- Dark Water and Stars

Halloween sooooooon

meep. meep. meep. meep.

Currently Playing Rockin the Suburbs By Ben Folds see related

- Still Fighting It -

cough cough...I think I caught  the woop.