| nobody uses xanga anymore these days. i dun think nobody gonna read my xanga. anyways, i m gonna write down my feelin so that i will feel betta. i dun think ppl will listen to my stupid love story. it has been almost 1 year. i keep trying to get all ur love. but i failed. most of the time u dun even care about me. i sometimes think that u r selfish. i dunno. maybe bcuz i m a boring person. i do admit that if someone stays with me for long, she will get bored. but u shouldn't turn to another guy before our relationshp ends. the summer went great. the great summer that i have ever had. now the school has just started for 3 days. and u r doin this to me again. u even ignore me. i thought i would have time to spend with u on friday's night. i thought u will give me all ur time but ur frds are more important to u. hahahha i m just stupid. i hope u will understand me. i luv ya more than u luv me. i want ur luv. what does love mean to u? sigh |
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| It has been a long time since i dont update my xanga. I think I dun update my xanga because i have nothin much to say. It was going great until last week. I m feeling so sad lately. I noe that ppl change but I dont want you to change. I want you to be mine forever but I dunno if that will happen or not. Since last week, I start feeling the coldness from you. The hardest thing for me to face is ur neglect toward me. I used to not saying anything because I thought that it was temporary. I kept hoping that one day, u will turn to me and ignore other people. I noe that 2 months relation can't compare to ur 1 year relationship with ur frds. I tried my very best to get every attention from you but it failed. You act like i m nothing when there is something that can keep ur attention. Where is the love? I used to believe in true luv. Is there really a true luv? i can never know. I m gettin hurt so badlie. I m an rotten apple now, but i dun want to be thrown on the streets and let other ppl step on me. I m also trying not to be in the trash can. I dun want to become the trash that u throw away. No matter what it takes, i will cover all the black dots on our luvly paper with a white ink from my heart. I don't want any black dots remain on my paper even tho nothin can be perfect. I dun disagree with it. i m sure that my paper can be so perfect if i take good caer of it.
"Luv is like the puzzle pieces. When you have luv, you have a very beautiful pic filled with all the puzzle pieces. Your life is so meaningful as no puzzle pieces is missing. Once you get hurt from luv, you start losing you puzzle pieces. You are comin to the end of the heaven when all the puzzle pieces are gone. It will take time for u to find all the pieces together and start a whole new life. Time moves on..." |
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| finally i m 18. ppl say i m old and i have to be mature. lol. i was about to go universal studio but didn't go. i miss my sweetie so much. so i went out with her instead. wat do u expect of life with no cars in LA? so yea it wasn't that fun but i m so happy becuz i can spend my time together with her. we took the pics. funny i didn't noe how to do the poses. then, she and her frd went to eat ice slush? i was hungry. i didn't eat any lunch. then wondering around. After that, i told my uncle to pick me up. He is a nicest uncle i ever have. When i got home, i went over to Annie's house. She is a very nice frd. she cooked for me for my bday. damn it tastes reallie good. i ate all of her rice. lol. now i m home and trying to do my hw and study for my sat.
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|  lalalalala.. since francis iz bein a lazybutttttt n nvr updatez his xanga 'nemore... i'm updatin! :] hay pplzzzz.. howz life treatin ya? lol.. i reallie dont kno wat 2 say XP n u kno wat? i'm outta here. juss wait until THANKSGIVIN n then francis WILL b updatin
love alwayzzzz <3
SunnY :] |
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| I found out one thing. It might not be true for ones but it is true for me. No matter how nice one is to someone, he/she will never return u the same favor. |
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