So much, all at once, different feelings all together.
The show on saturday sucked, due to technical problems with our system, nobody really paying attention to us, and our "good buddies" from up-beat synogouge being gigantic dicks.
Then, today i find out a good friend of mine is engaged.
A little bit later, i find out that my best friend Jay's dad has been given no more than a month to live. I'd known he's been fighting with cancer, but i don't think anybody knew that it would come this soon.
Saddness, happienss, suprise, anger, frustration, all mixed together form one big clump of depression.
It's a pill too large for me to swallow, so they're forcing it up my ass.
And the only advice i've gotten so far is "Life is like this, so you have to get used to it." Gee, thanks for that nugget of joy.
Were i one to drink, i'd go out and get hammered to forget the past few days. But i'm not, so i'm stuck in the sober reality.
Were i less of a pussy, i'd think about killing myself. But i'm not, so i'm stuck in reality.
Happy fucking holidays. | 
