Xanga told me that if I didn't post something, they would pull my site, and because I love reading Vance's volumnous updates, here is my post XANGA! suck it.  In other news: I love being a teacher = 2 months to do whatever. Speaking of teachers, dating this one (Brooke) for the past 4.3 months has been pretty stinkin awesome.

As young as I may feel and as good looking as I may be, I have never felt older than I feel right now. 

First up, I want to say I had a blast with all my old college buds and gals, it was refreshing to see everyone again.  The day at the beach with perfect weather and my swim suit being stripped from my body by 5 guys.  Watching karate kid with 20 people in luthor's tiny living room.  Playing ultimate till my leggs went numb.  And witnesssesing my friend tie the knot with the most perfect woman God made for him and him for her, while we sweat through our clothes and get a nice tan.  good times.  had by all.

Why do I feel old?

The fact hat I have been out of college now almost as long as I was in it.  Most of my close friends are married, not to mention my little sister.  The detatchment I felt hanging out with people I was closest to 3 years ago.  Seeing how many of us have moved on, and made lives for ourselves elsewhere.  Observing characteristics in friends that have not changed, but my perspective has.  How most of us have changed, but we will never let each other.  My encrouching baldness that became even more apparent after my shorter-than-usual haircut.  Finding out my blood preassure is too high and realising that although I am in shape, my diet is shit.  I eat crap all day long.  Hanging out with teenagers who make fun of me for being old.  Working a real job with real responsibilities and expectations that I am anxious about fulfilling.  I am anxious.  I feel jadded. 

Before I make anybody else moderately depressed and pensive,  you can see pics from the week on myspace.com/logicalleapdesign

It's the many easy desicions made that eventually make up who we are, but it is the hard desicions that define us right now. 

Life has been full of desicions and new happenings in my life.  I have been coaching varsity VB now for a month and I freakin love it, though it now makes my work day 11 hours long!  I have found a garage apartment with a family connected with the school that is willing to rent it out to me for $350 (util includ.) a month.  Do I save a alot of money and find myself isolated, far away from work, and my independence stiffled?  what is the price for the few comforts I allow myself?  I want to be more involved with my church, but how much can I pour into people when I pour my life into kids 11 hours a day? 

I recently had to make a very hard desicion concerning my significant other.  I won't go into the details, but with her best interests in mind, I ended the relationship.  I was afraid of being single again, and having to own up to another failed relationship, but I thank God for wise parents and friends. 

feel free to watch my low-budget video blogg on my myspace I make for the highschool kids here: the McGinty memo

also a weird ramen comercial I made in complete bordom: logical leap design

the videos are right there in the profile, enjoy!