DaMiJa4HiM's Xanga

Friday, June 10, 2005

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 10:35:03 GMT

HEY I MADE A NEW XANGA!! THA SITE IS http:///www.xanga.com/gOiNcRaZii05

HOLLA!!!

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 21:28:39 GMT

So...I thought things were gonna go downhill and start to suck again...But things worked out....Im still with my babi...God I hope we never fall apart...I tried not to cry and I managed not to...But I dont ever wanna hafta cry over him unless they are tears of happiness! Haha...So yea I'm kinda bummed tho...This is my last weekend to do ne thing cuz I got surgery on Monday....Yay....This will be my fifth and sixth....So ima chill at Nicoles all weekend.....Away from my family cuz ima be puttin up with them for tha next 3 weeks...STRAIGHT........But okay Im outie im beat....And I only got 1 and 1/2 more days to go to *HeLL*....

LOVE YU DERECK!!

~BrEeZy~

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 19:32:50 GMT

Wats good?! So yea today was actually fukin awsome!! Jus some things that were said to me and stuff I found out and tha future I have to look forward to!!! Aw Im excited...But ive been studyin' my arse off so thats wat ima head back to doin'....And straightening my hair...Jus wanted to write a bit.....Holla!!

LOVE YU DERECK ROBISON!!

~BrEeZy~

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Tue, 31 May 2005 19:24:08 GMT

Hey hey hey!! Finally I got things straight between Jeremy and I.......Seems like Paige did lie about all that shyt....Which doesnt surprise me! But w/e...So yea nothin much to talk about....Except hopefully friday im gettin my industrial done...But iight im outie I got finals to study for!

I LOVE YU DERECK!!

~BrEeZy~

Monday, May 30, 2005

Mon, 30 May 2005 18:07:11 GMT

Hey!! Whats goin' on errbody!? So yea my weekend was actually iight....I went up home with my mom and Brian...And we stayed at my uncle Harrs...And umm I ran into my BEST FRIEND from kindergarden....I was so happy...I missed him...Lolz...So me and Sean(tha one from KG) were chillin' all weekend but I could not stop thinkin about my papi lolz....So I called him and I found out that he wrecked his car...And that Paige was tryin to get wit him and that Paige said that Jeremy told Dereck and Paige that I asked him out which is NOT true....I love Dereck more than I can explain...I dunno therre is jus something about him that made me come back.....So jus to make it OFFICIAL I dont lyke Jeremy....He dont lyke me....I dont lyke Robert...Tho he does lyke me....So yea I'm out cuz ima run to tha store and get my pictures....

I LOVE YU DERECK ROBINSON!!

~BrEeZy~

Friday, May 27, 2005

Fri, 27 May 2005 18:23:54 GMT

If yur love would ever go away,
I don't think I could be.
Cause lyfe wouldn't be worth living,
If yu aren't living it with me.
No one could compare
The feelings I have for yu.
Never could their love
Ever be as true........

-Brandy AE

I was bored again today...And obviously yu know who that was for....
But yea my moms is home and she is still bein' a bitch...I officially HATE her...I'm done even tryin' to be her fukin' kid yo...She is dumb and I hope she dies soon lolz....But yea I'm jus now gettin' to talk to Dereck..So ima go talk to him....

*Love yu babi!!*

~BrEeZy~

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Thu, 26 May 2005 17:21:12 GMT

One more kiss could be the best thing
one more lie could be the worst
all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
this seems real to me
You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know who I am
So let me go
Let me go
I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
when i know what I'm goin through
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
this seems real to me
You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you dont know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go
And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows
You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

Cant get that song outta my head.......

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Thu, 26 May 2005 17:01:20 GMT

*SiGh* Everything is so gay...Why can't I jus see Dereck.....And Paige...I really miss them guys*Louis and Jeremy too*...I fukin' hate bein' grounded......Ive been thinkin'....And I wanna move out...Get emancipated...I jus don't wanna be stopped from seein' tha pplz that mean the most to me....It sucks.....And I HATE my mom....All capital letters too!!.......I dunno tho....Today was iight......And my moms and them aren't home from Altoona yet so I'm chillin'....Im talkin to my *BaBi*(Dereck) lolz.......OMGOSH and today at lunch was fukin' hilarious....Makin' that slut cry is the greatest!! She fucked with tha wrong persons brother and best friends.....She'll hafta learn her lesson...Lolz....Im so freakin' mean!! So tomorrow is Friday...Its tha first Friday ina month that I wont be goin' to Louis's.....This shyt sucks ass....Ill get over it and sleep all day and night till I get ungrounded and Im back to bein able to go out therre.....But iight Im out...Jus felt lyke I needed to write today...Get some shyt off my mind...Including *him*......Certain pplz will kno who im talkin' bout.....

I LoVe Yu DeReCk RoBiNsOn!!
5*20*05

Member....Yur jus tha jump off...Im HiS ~BrEeZy~

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Tue, 24 May 2005 20:23:13 GMT

Two of the *SoRtA* poems I wrote today...

I'm torn into pieces..
Can't deny it..
Can't pretend..

Sunshine
Yu brighten my life
Sunshine
Yu make me feel alright
Sunshine
Yu turn the darkness to light
And yu brighten up the corners of my mind..

Gay huh??

Lemme know wat yu think...

~BrEeZy~

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Tue, 24 May 2005 20:13:45 GMT

So...Im home from school now...And when my stepfather picked me up..We had a talk...He isnt mad at me for what I did the other night...He is upset but not mad....So I'm happy about that...And tomorrow....He is gonna get me outta school at 1030 or so...And were gonna go do sumin' for my B*Day since he wasnt herre on my birthday...So thats cool.....I still hate my moms tho...She fukin is so ignorant....I dont even wanna talk bout her....Or to her...We havent spoke since Sunday nyte....But I miss Paige...And Dereck..Louis...Jeremy...All them MoFo'S lolz...I jus wish me and Jeremy coulda been together longer....But shyt happens for a reason...So I'll get over it....I'll get over him...Almost therre.....ITS SO CONFRUSTRATING.....But okay I'm outie....Ima go talk to Jeremy and A.J......

*MiSsIn' yU sTyLL*

~BrEeZy~