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Original: 7/16/2004 1:04 PM
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Friday, July 16, 2004
 

Saying goodbye is never easy...

I have been Dap since day one of my travels via the internet.  I started out as DaProwler on aol and I was instantly coined "Dap", of course cuz it was much shorter to type, but it stuck with me through all these years.  I have had many joyous times being Dap and the people I have encountered...well 80% of them, have been priceless to me; however, I feel the time has come to let it end.

Over the past 6+ months I have been feeling stifled.  I'm stuck in a world of words that just simply won't come out.  I hate it!!  My posts have been mediocre at best and my mood because of it has been even worse.

Having been enhanced with the mouth of a sailor, I now find myself not being able to let anything freeflow.  It seems as though I'm surrounded by eyes that would burn at the mere "shock and awe" of my choice in vocabulary.  This is unacceptable because I am not one to keep a watchful eye over those blasted P's + Q's.

There's a strange phenomonon of online life.  It's so easy to allow those that we "don't know" into our world, our hopes, joys, quirks, and even failures...but to have those that you "do know" let in to such a sanctuary of emotion is difficult at best.  It's not that you are attempting to portray yourself as something your not. it's because somewhere between the eye and the brain, all your words will be taken out of context, misinterpreted, and used against you for no other reason than someone wanting to get their jollies.

So you see while many may consider it letting them win.  I look at it more as an opportunity to move on.  A name is a name, it doesn't hamper one's ability to communicate with those they "don't know" (unless of course your name is "Harry Dick Johnson Jr", cuz I don't quite think I could keep a straight face...lol).  There are 2,175,824 possible combinations of names out there (btw...I made that number up...if you think I'm gonna do the math for that, you're crazier than I am), but my point is that if I change my name, it doesn't change me.  I will always be Dap, just not to the naked eye.

Cyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas 

 Posted 7/16/2004 1:04 PM - 35 comments

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Visit ItsOnlyC's Xanga Site!

Gah, I know just whatcha mean - hence why I am here instead of still over there---->

Anywho, I am too lazy to do the math but if that site ever shows up I'm subbing

Hugs you big

Posted 7/16/2004 1:09 PM by ItsOnlyC - reply

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You are right of course.  There are things I don't think twice to say on here which I would hesitate say in real life (granted, not many, but there are some).  The only person in real life and here I know will understand enough to be trusted what I mean, is Ed.  I don't like friends or family to know where my Xanga site is or what I write on there.  It's a sounding board, this place.   Those that don't have such a sounding board don't "get it."  For me, it's always been easiest to keep those in my life I'm "stuck with" (lol) off my venting place.  I too don't want to have to censor myself, and I've more than once let Ed "have it" for giving out my Xanga address to some persons in real life.  (Ed didn't quite "get it" for some time though I think he does now.)

Don't go away without leaving a trace of yourself to those of us that do "get it,"  tho, or I shall have to cry lonely teardrops.

((J))

 

Posted 7/16/2004 1:13 PM by ShyeWolf - reply

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Yes, leave a trace, as shyewolf says, so we know where you are, 'kay?

Have a great weekend, chickadee.  This is not the end, just a new beginning.

Posted 7/16/2004 1:15 PM by lili Xanga True Member Xanga Lifetime Member - reply

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I understand... don't forget to leave a trace.....
Posted 7/16/2004 1:16 PM by Luckky_Charms - reply

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This sucks ass ~ but I totally understand your reasoning.
I'll miss DaP . . . as I know you will . . . but a name is only a name, and you'll always be DaP to me.
And ya know what?
I am so fuckin' glad that you explained where DaP came from ... b/c I've ALWAYS wondered.    But I didn't want to look stupid and ask.  ROFL!  So, better yet, I wait 'til you explain it, and then I admit to not knowing   hehe

I hope, that if you stick around these here parts, you'll contact me
Posted 7/16/2004 1:19 PM by writermom25 Xanga Lifetime Member - reply

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I'm not even gonna pretend to be polite...ya better let me know where you are or I'll kick your butt! LOL

Love ya girl, and believe me *I* get it...but I'm too stubborn to change names now. But if I knew then what I know now...this would be written from another name...

Posted 7/16/2004 5:34 PM by moniet Xanga True Member Xanga Premium Member - reply

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NO!!  You can't do away with Dap! Of course, if you send me your new addy and pen name, then you can change Dap!
Posted 7/16/2004 9:57 PM by Kindred_Spirit - reply

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its a sad sad day in xangaland
Posted 7/16/2004 10:45 PM by jasmat - reply

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Ya gotta do what ya gotta do
Posted 7/16/2004 11:08 PM by light_and_fluffy Xanga True Member Xanga Premium Member - reply

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don't lose me in the move..you were the first person I subbed to..
Posted 7/17/2004 12:12 AM by poetinme - reply

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Lol i like the name :P lol makes me laugh .. i see you found out bout what happened .. I am soo embarrassed =( .. I dont kno what to do .. and we'll right now ma and i are waiting for doug to come home at 3 am .. i hope he didnt do anything stupid ... but yea i have to go now much love ! /hugs

Anna :)

Posted 7/17/2004 2:47 AM by Cutiepi69 - reply

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I understand, but I will miss you. If you decide to make an appearance under another name please stop by and say hi! DaP will always be missed, but it's only a name, you will always be you! Take care, and thanks for all of the sweet and supportive comments!
Posted 7/18/2004 10:58 PM by bethc37 - reply

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I can totally understand your needing to move on, please DO leave some sort of trace if you decide to continue your writings. Or atleast stop by my blog and say "hi" so I can find you. *wink*

Best wishes and hugs~

Kim

Posted 7/19/2004 3:21 AM by wildchild68 - reply

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HEY!!  You are so right!  That is why we all love Xanga.  Who could ever imagine saying what we say, ranting on and on about the people and situations in our daily lives?  After all THEY are the ones we are probably ranting about so how on earth could we sound off to THEM.  Although, truth be told, that's exactly what SHOULD  happen.  Heehee!! 

Xanga is a faceless community.  The readers of our  "work"  are not close to us in any way, shape or form and are therefore  "safe".  It's crazy to sit down and think of it.  Total strangers giving other total strangers advice on life.  Sometimes it's total bullshit and other times,  because they are strangers and because they are subjective and because they are so far away and "safe"  they give advice or comment that is absolutely spot on.  100% fab.  I think that is the beauty of it.  It's a release for both the reader and the writer.  And hey, why the hell not?  Anything that helps in this mad thing we call life - it's ok by me.

Listen.  You were one of the first Xangans to catch my eye on here.  I love the fact that you shoot from the hip and tell it exactly how it is.  You are blunt with your delivery and sharp with your humour, I think alot like me.  Hahahahaha!!  Ooooh, watch my big head!!  Hee!  I will miss you and your rantings and your  "sock it to 'em"  approach.  I will miss hearing about your ups and downs because I relate to it alot.  The balancing act - studying, working, raising family, dealing with the realstionship, keeping it all going at home, then somehow managing to find time to live, breath, eat and sleep in all of that. 

If and when Dap disappears please let me have a forwarding ID for your Xanga.

Take care.  It's been fun.   Shorts.

Posted 7/19/2004 5:10 AM by shorts72 - reply

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Urm..... relationship.  That's the word.  Yep.  R.E.L.A.T.I.O.N.S.H.I.P.  Correct spelling....unlike the one above.  WTF??  (LOL)

Shorts

Posted 7/19/2004 5:14 AM by shorts72 - reply

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:(  But we need you! Please leave a trail for us to sniff you out, or a simple email with updated information would help. (hugs)
Posted 7/19/2004 10:37 AM by take_it_or_leave_it - reply

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Isn't that ironic? Are we sharing one brain? Let's keep in touch Dap, even after we have found our new "home"....

*kiss*

Posted 7/21/2004 7:04 AM by ADevilsAngel - reply

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Oh my gosh, you must email me - I need you to vent about 8 month old baby sh*t!! Spuds and D would be great baby friends if we lived closer together!

We've done this whole mommy thing again at the same time, you can't vanish without a trace! I love reading your blog and DaP will be missed!

Posted 7/21/2004 8:17 AM by Singlemom - reply

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Correction:

Oops - make that Spud, not Spuds! My fingers get to typing too fast....! LOL

Posted 7/21/2004 8:18 AM by Singlemom - reply

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I know what you are feeling. As you have been reading me over the years, you have seen me go and return many times. I only hope that you will share with those you feel comfortable with (I hope that's me) your new place and face to reside. I will miss you more than I want to guilt trip you into knowing. Be well sweet sister.

Love and Hugs

Posted 7/22/2004 1:13 PM by Lady_Roxy Xanga Lifetime Member - reply

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AhhhhhHA! *snicker*
Posted 7/22/2004 4:17 PM by BrightEyeZ - reply

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What ever happened to admiring life before it sailed by? Take some time and sort things out. Even life has to dock at some point...
Posted 7/22/2004 6:02 PM by LonelyLittleChic - reply

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Very clever blog. 

The point of online/real life people is that we are real on here until we get oppressed by (the feelings of) what is essentially an audience.  We aren't 'real' in that way offline because we have to consider other people's feelings and expectations of us to a much greater degree. Oil and water.

Posted 7/24/2004 8:50 PM by SavonDuJour Xanga True Member - reply

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hey you, just as i come back you leave??? Hope all is well and how is Tater? be good!!
Posted 7/25/2004 11:51 PM by Raynijul Xanga Premium Member - reply

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ciao
Posted 7/26/2004 1:34 PM by benevolentMitch Xanga Lifetime Member - reply

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