| Wow, times flies by when you don't have time to keep track of it. Can't believe it's already August. Life just keeps going by with each passing day....
Anyways, since my last post, I've had a few good interviews, and got hired to work at this spring manufacturer (think F=kx) in Brooklyn. It's ok work, although the past few weeks have been a little slow, since it seems that many manufacturing plants take it easy over the summer. Work is somewhat starting to pick up again, but very gradually, so I guess I should be glad for the downtime.
Although I'm getting used to the daily grind, I feel like sometimes I've been dulled by the monotony and repetition. My schedule is just wake up, go to work, work, come home from work, eat dinner, sleep, lather, rinse, repeat... For some reason, there doesn't seem to be that much to look forward to anymore. So much time is spent at work that what little time is left is needed to recuperate and relax. I used to spend a lot of time browsing gadgets in anticipation of buying something new and nifty, but by now I already have most of what I want, and plus anything else I want to get is both frivolous and expensive (i.e. PSP). I don't need any computer upgrades, since I don't even want to look at a computer when I get home after spending an entire day sitting in front of my work computer. I don't play video games much either, because that'd involve sitting in front of a screen of some sort. I can't even bring myself to spare the time to watch a movie or dvd on tv because I don't feel like wasting 2 straight hours staring at yet another screen (plus usually it's a movie that I've already seen). The extent to which I watch movies is in the theater, when it has just come out and I go catch it with friends.
Pretty much all I have left right now to look forward to is sports activity like playing ball or biking, hanging out with friends, and planning out my future car purchase in the near indeterminable future. I get the feeling that I'm in need of social contact, mostly because I feel like I'm in a better mood after I've interacted with other people. It's like there's not much that can bring me joy anymore, especially after reading the following article, I probably won't want to go outside anymore: http://www.newsday.com/news/printedition/health/ny-hscanc104377742aug10,0,1904215,print.story?coll=ny-health-print
And even though I'm earning money now, for some reason I feel like I don't have enough money... Perhaps it's because when I was earning little or no money, the things that I wanted were just slightly out of my reach, like an mp3 player or a gadget of some sort.... And now that I'm earning bigger bucks, I want bigger toys and gadgets. Maybe it's also due to the fact that I hadn't had any significant income for the 2 years since I graduated, and now that I am working, I feel like I need to make up the lost income for those 2 years... somehow. Even though my current job is paying way below what I should be earning. And I still have all those loans to pay off.
I find comfort in listening to music where someone is lost or in need of guidance, or on the way to finding a solution. It's like someone is sharing the pain or problems that we go through in life, and that we can all find the solution someday.  - Nickelback - Someday |
