So its been a while.

None of my family likes my boyfriend for me. They ask what I see in him, I honestly can't say. He may not be the best person, but he makes me smile. All the time at that. He helps me through hard times. He's someone I can play with. You know. Thumb war, slaps, and battle. We have stupid fights and then we kiss. We make up stupid signs language things that only we understand. A lot of people actually say we're cute together. lol I guess what it is, is that he's not serious all the time. He's someone I can go to with anything and he's real.

Other than that issue things are great. I'm just upset they don't like him, but its ok. I'll prove to them that he won't altar my behavior this time! I have hope and faith in myself. I'm gettin my grades up and gettin my social life back. I've gone through rough waters already, and I know there's still more to come. This November it will mark 3 years. I don't think any of the family is ready, but when is anyone ever ready for something like that? We'll all get through it with flying colors.

That's life in a nutshell right now.

-- xo0x --

& they ask me what i see in him. take
a step in my shoes look into my
point of view. and spend a day with him
i bet you would fall too.

--  x0ox  --

ok im so updating this sucker because sam asked me why i wasnt!

so i got back from camp wednesday and i had so much fun. i met so many wonderful people that i am blessed to have had walked into my life. God does amazing wonderful things in some of the hardest times of your life.

things have been looking up for me and im glad im getting back in touch with God. i needed to so bad, but i guess i was just refusing to admit it. now that i have things are incredible again!

GOD YOU ARE AMAZING!!!! AND I AM SO BLESSED AND UNWORTHY OF BEING CALLED YOUR DAUGHTER, BUT AT THE SAME TIME I AM SO GREATFUL. I LOVE YOU LORD. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER PUT ME THROUGH, BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING YOU PUT ME THROUGH, YOU BROUGHT ME RIGHT BACK OUT. THERE IS NO GREATER LOVE THAN WHAT YOU HAVE FOR YOUR CHILDREN. THE LOVE AND COMPASION YOU HAVE FOR YOUR KIDDOS IS MORE THAN I COULD EVER WRAP MY MIND AROUND! I LOVE YOU!