Yay! I am going out with my cuz today. We are heading to see The Amityville Horror! I am so excited. This weekend has been great so far. Yesterday my dad and auntie had a house warming party and we  got to hang around for a while. Then we headed home and watched Donnie Darko! I love that movie. Frank is awsome! Oh and on the way home we met up with Jon and Jamie they had just been at my house and were comeing to see me! I was estatic that they even thought of me. But anyways the only depressing thing is that I have to spend the week at my dad's house. It sucks, they don't even trust me to take care of myself. My gram is only going away for 5 days, one working week, and my 26 year old cuzin is going to be home most the time not to mention that I won't really be at home because of school. So why the hell can't I stay home! I can take care of myself, god dammit. Lol wow know I have gone and gotten myself worked up about it. Hehe oh well. Gotta head out know. Later

Yay, I finally got out of the damn house yesterday! Hehehe I headed over to Jon's house and hung out with him and his freind Jamie for a while. It was good to be out of the house but it kinda sucked because I felt like the third wheel most of the time. I was there from like 6:39 till 11:00, we watched Jamie play Fable ( it looked pretty cool ), then I watched Jamie and Jon fuck around for a while ( they are really close freinds? or more? not sure ), then we watched Jamie play around on Jon's computer, then they fooled around some more and I wachted ( tons of fun really ) and then we had milkshakes and I left. I am not saying anything against Jamie cuz she is awsome. Has the same problems with her familly as I have with mine. They won't let her out of the house at all without a bodygaurd or the damn navy watching out for her. But I have to say that I am really jealouse about Jamie's and Jon's relationship, they seem so close all the time and I just felt kinda....well left out I suppose. I was up at 5 this morning and was feeling like crap. Not sick crap but beating myself up kinda crap, yah so I did that for a long time. Untill around 8 ( I also finished off my book cuz I needed a distraction from thinking to get to sleep again ) then I went back to sleep untill noon. Still kinda tired but feeling better then I was befor. My cuzin has been out alot with her freinds and stuff so I no longer have someone to hang out with all the time. I am glad for her but it kinda feels like she is drifting away from me, we used to be such good freinds and tell each othereverything and go out every weekend and do shit. Now she just feels like one of the adults living in this house and not really giving a shit about what I do. I am glad for her no doubt cuz when she is home all my grandmother does is bitch at her and make her cry. I hate it when she feels bad and wish I could protect her from my grandmother, I wish there was some way to get my grandmother to unload all her bitching on me so that my cuzin wouldn't have to face her everyday. It will be a little more bearable around here after my dad moves out today. He and my auntie Arrine bought a house a while ago and are moving into it today. So my cuzin will move upstairs and my grandpa will have the downstairs again. He is only in for some of the time like a week or two out of three or four months which is awsome for me cuz now I will have the house to myself most of the time. Actually come to think of it, I won't really have the house to myself at all now. I will always be with my grandma. I only got the house to myself on weekdays because my grandmother picks up my dad at his office. So I get the house untill 6 alone. Making dinner for my useless familly but alone none the less. Oh I suppose I should write this in here, I will be telling my freinds at school soon that my grandmother is thinking about cutting off the internet and cable and everything so that I can't play on the computer or the T.V. all summer. So yah, if I suddenly am not on for a long period of time, like all summer you will know that it is because I no longer have computer. Hehe I don't think anybody even nows that my dad is moving out. I havn't told an anybody at all. No one knows, that is a funny thought you would think that I would  be happy that my dad is moving out but all I can think about is how crappy it is going to be living at his house every other weekend. He will expect no talking back and not computer time so I suppose I will not be on every other weekend either. Oh well, sounds like my computer time is going to  be seriously cut down. My grandmother says that I have addictive behavour for the computer. Not to my face, heaven forbbid she tell me that to my face, she would rather talk behind my back and hope that nobody tells me what she has been telling her freinds all the time. I can hear them talking from my room and sometimes if I am lucky Chriss will come up and talk to me and tell me what she has been sasying about me. Chriss can only stay a little while all the time though because of work, freinds and doing other stuff. Well I am off my dad wants me to back him a cake for the new house. See yah. Luve you all .