I like school.
I am going to go to college.
I am addicted to AIM.
I watch Amazing Race.
My room is yellow.
I have a sister(s).
I have a brother(s).
I wanna go to Antarctica.
I love penguins.
My favorite color is pink.
I like skirts better than shorts.
I am in middle school.
I am in high school.
I have my own car.
I have my learners permit.
I love talking on the phone.
I like the name Melvin.
I don't like Ashlee Simpson.
I like Ashlee Simpson.
I like roses.
I get bored easily.
I love watching TV.
I like nail polish.
I like playing Sims.
I like to work out.
I own binoculars.
My room looks like a tornado hit it.
When I was little I used to collect beanie babies.
When I was little I used to collect acorns.
I like the song "Hey Ya."
I don’t believe in chain letters.
I like to rake leaves in the fall.
I am a winter baby.
I wish I was older then I am now.
I eat squid.
I have a boyfriend/girlfriend.

somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination.... and the homework.....
and the incessant forwards.....and jobs....and the friendships..... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes!!......Somewhere b e t w e e n the phone calls to old friends.....And the "I miss you's", the "I love you's"....... And the "What are we doing tonight's?"..... And somewhere b e t w ee n all of the changing,growing... Somewhere b e t w e e n the classes........ And the skipping classes...... And the studying for tests.......And the pretending to study for tests....... And the downright NOT studying for tests... I   f o r g o t ..... I forgot what life is all about.... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy........... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart ............ I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future...... I forgot that you can't control falling in love........... And that you can't make yourself fall in love........... I learned that I can love......... I learned that it's okay to mess up......... And it's okay to ask for help......... And it's okay to feel like crap......... I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you want mostyou just can't have. I learned that the greatest things in life are not the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the hook-ups... It's the friendships, which means t a k i n g  c h a n c e s......I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.......... I learned that letters from friends are the most important things.And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends........ Both o l d and new......... Are the most important people to me in the world. AND.......without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.....

And it's times like these that I really hate myself.

I really thought I had given up on this.  But today I was told that I haven't updated (which I knew) and given a scornful look.  I didn't really care, but now I'm bored, and there are mice in my house.  Yes.  Mice.  One was caught in my room, because they seem to like me.  I named another one Mickey.  I don't want them to die.  Anyway, this survey looked like it would distract me for a little while...

f i r s t s

First best friend: Paige                      
First real kiss: August 28th, 2004.

First break-up: October 4th... 7th grade.
First screen name: Jerzygrl89                                    
First self purchased album: I'm too spoiled to remember.
First funeral: Last December.
First pets: My parents had a dog and/or a cat when I was little, but my first pets were two parakeets.

First piercing/tattoo: My ears when I was three months old.
First credit card: Not yet.

First true love: I don't know exactly when it happened, but I still love him.
First enemy: Brianna.
First big trip: FRANCE!
First music: I remember my 'Chelsea Tape' and the 'Ocean Tape' and two songs specifically.  Brown Eyed Girl and American Pie.

l a s t s
Last cigarette: Never.
Last car ride: This morning, from school.
Last kiss: This morning.
Last good cry: Saturday night/ Sunday morning.

Last book: Sloppy Firsts.

Last movie seen: A League Of Their Own.
Last beverage: Water.
Last food consumed:  A few pretzels.
Last crush: I don't know how to answer that. Alex?
Last phone call: Alex.

Last time showered: Yesterday afternoon.
Last shoes worn: Brown ones.
Last item bought: Two shirts.
Last annoyance: It was only kind of annoying, but more frightening when I found a half dead mouse in my room caught in one of those sticky traps.  It is so disgusting. 

Last time wanting to die: Never?
Last time scolded: Ten seconds ago. I wanted to keep a mouse my dad just caught, but he said no and preceeded to take it outside to let it freeze to death.  I hope it finds a way back into the house. Ha.

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
01. who are your best friends? Jess, Carlee, Mo, Alex.
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Alex.

f a s h i o n
01. where is your favorite place to shop? Target for everything. Old Navy for clothes.
02. any tattoos or piercings? Two piercings in each ear.

s p e c i f i c s
01. do you do drugs? Nope.
02. what kind of shampoo do you use? Bed Head or that Brunette stuff.
03. what are you most scared of? Being hurt.
04. what are you listening to right now? Angel, Jimi Hendrix.
05. where do you want to get married? I don't know.  Maybe a castle?
6. how many buddies are online right now? Thirty-nine.

7. what would you change about yourself? Self-confidence, fear of people, and maybe my stomach.

f a v o u r i t e s

01. color: Right now? Green and pink?

02. food: New England Clam Chowder.
03. boys' names: Chase, Reese, Jayden.
04. girls' names: Michela, Jynelle, Genivieve.
05. subjects in school: English, Psychology.

06. animals: Puppies, ducks, and because of late, mice.
07. sports: Softball.
08. perfume: I like my vanilla. 
09. cologne: Whatever Alex wears.

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. given anyone a bath? My neice.
02. smoked? Nope.
03. bungee jumped? Nope.
04. made yourself throw up? No.
05. skinny dipped? Hahaha. No.
06: been in love? Yes. : )
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? Not that I can remember.

08. pictured your crush naked? Of course not.
09. actually seen your crush naked? I really want to say no.
10. cried when someone died? Yup.
11. lied? Yes.
12. fallen for your best friend? Kind of?

13. been rejected? Mmhmm.
14. rejected someone? I don't think so... 
15. used someone? Hahaha, not really.

16. done something you regret? Probably, yes.

c u r r e n t
clothes:  Abington sweatpants, GAP hoodie, and a tee shirt.
music: Here By Me, 3 Doors Down.
make-up: None.
smell: Alex and laundry detergent.
favorite artist: I can't answer.

desktop picture: A full moon overlooking a mountain top.
in cd in player: I don't use it much anymore...

dvd in player: John Mayer in concert? How to Deal?

color of toenails: Brown.

l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: My sister just steered me into the computer room because I was upset about the mouse. Oh, Mickey.

hugged: Alex.
you imed: Corey?
you kissed: Alexxx.

a r e | y o u
understanding: Usually.

open-minded: Uh huh.
arrogant: Jokingly.
insecure: Sometimes.
interesting: If I was someone else, I would find me interesting.

hungry: A little.
smart: I don't think so, but other people do.
moody: Hahahaha. Me? Never.
hardworking: Not lately.
organized: Noooooo.
healthy: Physically, yes. 
shy: Almost all the time.
attractive: Eh?
bored easily: No.
responsible: Uh huh.
obsessed: I never obsess. Over anything.
angry: Not right now.

sad : Yes. Mice don't deserve to freeze to death. I'm sorry.
disappointed: Yeah, I wanted to keep them.
happy : A little.
hyper: Only with caffeine or lack of sleep. And stress.
trusting: Yeah.
talkative: Always.
legal: ?

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: No one.
slap: Eh. Still no one.
look like: No one in particular?
talk to offline: Alexxx.
talk to online: Anyone. 

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: I don't care.
flowers or candy: Flowers.
tall or short: Shorter is cooler.

r a n d o m
in the morning i am: The person everyone wants to be around. Ha.
all i need is: People who love me, a pen, and a notebook.
love is:
what do you notice first: Personality, characterisitcs, and body language. 

who makes you laugh the most: Um. Mo?
who makes you smile: Everyone can, it isn't hard.
who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: Alex.

who do you have a crush on: Hmmm...
who has a crush on you: I wouldn't know.

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: No.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: Not at all.

wish you were younger: Sometimes...

n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: Once?
of hearts i have broken: I have no idea. Probably not many.
of guys i've kissed: Technically, two.
of continents i have lived in: One.
of tight friends: Four?
of cds i own: A whole lot.
of scars on body: Too many to count.

Layyyylaaa, got me on my kneeess, Layylaa.  Beggin' darlin' please, Layyylaaa.

So, are you happy now? And you better comment now.

bittersweet and strange, finding you can change, learning you were wrong...
chelsea

come January we're frozen inside, making new resolutions a hundred times...

I don't think I really have one yet.  Suggestions?

are you in the mood to be subdued?
chelsea.