somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination.... and the homework.....
and the incessant forwards.....and jobs....and the friendships..... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes!!......Somewhere b e t w e e n the phone calls to old friends.....And the "I miss you's", the "I love you's"....... And the "What are we doing tonight's?"..... And somewhere b e t w ee n all of the changing,growing... Somewhere b e t w e e n the classes........ And the skipping classes...... And the studying for tests.......And the pretending to study for tests....... And the downright NOT studying for tests... I   f o r g o t ..... I forgot what life is all about.... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy........... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart ............ I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future...... I forgot that you can't control falling in love........... And that you can't make yourself fall in love........... I learned that I can love......... I learned that it's okay to mess up......... And it's okay to ask for help......... And it's okay to feel like crap......... I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you want mostyou just can't have. I learned that the greatest things in life are not the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the hook-ups... It's the friendships, which means t a k i n g  c h a n c e s......I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.......... I learned that letters from friends are the most important things.And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends........ Both o l d and new......... Are the most important people to me in the world. AND.......without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.....

And it's times like these that I really hate myself.