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Friday, July 15, 2005

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 12:00:46 GMT

BOLD what's true...
I have been to Canada.
I have seen Gothika.
I am wearing Nail Polish
I was born in March.
I hate school.
I am gemini.
I like black.
I share a room with someone.
I have a cell phone.
I play basketball. (used to)
I love to dance.
I like to sing.
My hairbrush is purple.
I love Ashton Kutcher.
I love chocolate.
I like popcorn.
I am a good singer.
I have braces.
I love to go to the movies.
I believe in love at first sight.
I used to like Britney Spears.
I like to shop.
I love lipgloss.
I love Dory from Finding Nemo.
I love my life.
I have a boyfriend.
I have a crush.
I am in love.
I love summer.
I graduate in the year 2007.
I love cookies N cream ice cream.
I love cupcakes.
I go to a camp every summer.
I named my cell phone. (still thinking.)
I love make-up.
I love eyeliner.
My hair is its natural color.
I love going to the beach.
I am a book worm.

I like school.
I am going to go to college.
I am addicted to AIM.
I watch Amazing Race.
My room is yellow.
I have a sister(s).
I have a brother(s).
I wanna go to Antarctica.
I love penguins.
My favorite color is pink.
I like skirts better than shorts.
I am in middle school.
I am in high school.
I have my own car.
I have my learners permit.
I love talking on the phone.
I like the name Melvin.
I don't like Ashlee Simpson.
I like Ashlee Simpson.
I like roses.
I get bored easily.
I love watching TV.
I like nail polish.
I like playing Sims.
I like to work out.
I own binoculars.
My room looks like a tornado hit it.
When I was little I used to collect beanie babies.
When I was little I used to collect acorns.
I like the song "Hey Ya."
I don’t believe in chain letters.
I like to rake leaves in the fall.
I am a winter baby.
I wish I was older then I am now.
I eat squid.
I have a boyfriend/girlfriend.

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 11:16:58 GMT

somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination.... and the homework.....
and the incessant forwards.....and jobs....and the friendships..... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes!!......Somewhere b e t w e e n the phone calls to old friends.....And the "I miss you's", the "I love you's"....... And the "What are we doing tonight's?"..... And somewhere b e t w ee n all of the changing,growing... Somewhere b e t w e e n the classes........ And the skipping classes...... And the studying for tests.......And the pretending to study for tests....... And the downright NOT studying for tests... I f o r g o t ..... I forgot what life is all about.... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy........... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart ............ I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future...... I forgot that you can't control falling in love........... And that you can't make yourself fall in love........... I learned that I can love......... I learned that it's okay to mess up......... And it's okay to ask for help......... And it's okay to feel like crap......... I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you want mostyou just can't have. I learned that the greatest things in life are not the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the hook-ups... It's the friendships, which means t a k i n g c h a n c e s......I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.......... I learned that letters from friends are the most important things.And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends........ Both o l d and new......... Are the most important people to me in the world. AND.......without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.....

And it's times like these that I really hate myself.

Monday, February 28, 2005

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 16:50:22 GMT

I really thought I had given up on this. But today I was told that I haven't updated (which I knew) and given a scornful look. I didn't really care, but now I'm bored, and there are mice in my house. Yes. Mice. One was caught in my room, because they seem to like me. I named another one Mickey. I don't want them to die. Anyway, this survey looked like it would distract me for a little while...

f i r s t s

First best friend: Paige
First real kiss: August 28th, 2004.

First break-up: October 4th... 7th grade.
First screen name: Jerzygrl89
First self purchased album: I'm too spoiled to remember.
First funeral: Last December.
First pets: My parents had a dog and/or a cat when I was little, but my first pets were two parakeets.

First piercing/tattoo: My ears when I was three months old.
First credit card: Not yet.

First true love: I don't know exactly when it happened, but I still love him.
First enemy: Brianna.
First big trip: FRANCE!
First music: I remember my 'Chelsea Tape' and the 'Ocean Tape' and two songs specifically. Brown Eyed Girl and American Pie.

l a s t s
Last cigarette: Never.
Last car ride: This morning, from school.
Last kiss: This morning.
Last good cry: Saturday night/ Sunday morning.

Last book: Sloppy Firsts.

Last movie seen: A League Of Their Own.
Last beverage: Water.
Last food consumed: A few pretzels.
Last crush: I don't know how to answer that. Alex?
Last phone call: Alex.

Last time showered: Yesterday afternoon.
Last shoes worn: Brown ones.
Last item bought: Two shirts.
Last annoyance: It was only kind of annoying, but more frightening when I found a half dead mouse in my room caught in one of those sticky traps. It is so disgusting.

Last time wanting to die: Never?
Last time scolded: Ten seconds ago. I wanted to keep a mouse my dad just caught, but he said no and preceeded to take it outside to let it freeze to death. I hope it finds a way back into the house. Ha.

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
01. who are your best friends? Jess, Carlee, Mo, Alex.
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Alex.

f a s h i o n
01. where is your favorite place to shop? Target for everything. Old Navy for clothes.
02. any tattoos or piercings? Two piercings in each ear.

s p e c i f i c s
01. do you do drugs? Nope.
02. what kind of shampoo do you use? Bed Head or that Brunette stuff.
03. what are you most scared of? Being hurt.
04. what are you listening to right now? Angel, Jimi Hendrix.
05. where do you want to get married? I don't know. Maybe a castle?
6. how many buddies are online right now? Thirty-nine.

7. what would you change about yourself? Self-confidence, fear of people, and maybe my stomach.

f a v o u r i t e s

01. color: Right now? Green and pink?

02. food: New England Clam Chowder.
03. boys' names: Chase, Reese, Jayden.
04. girls' names: Michela, Jynelle, Genivieve.
05. subjects in school: English, Psychology.

06. animals: Puppies, ducks, and because of late, mice.
07. sports: Softball.
08. perfume: I like my vanilla.
09. cologne: Whatever Alex wears.

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. given anyone a bath? My neice.
02. smoked? Nope.
03. bungee jumped? Nope.
04. made yourself throw up? No.
05. skinny dipped? Hahaha. No.
06: been in love? Yes. : )
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? Not that I can remember.

08. pictured your crush naked? Of course not.
09. actually seen your crush naked? I really want to say no.
10. cried when someone died? Yup.
11. lied? Yes.
12. fallen for your best friend? Kind of?

13. been rejected? Mmhmm.
14. rejected someone? I don't think so...
15. used someone? Hahaha, not really.

16. done something you regret? Probably, yes.

c u r r e n t
clothes: Abington sweatpants, GAP hoodie, and a tee shirt.
music: Here By Me, 3 Doors Down.
make-up: None.
smell: Alex and laundry detergent.
favorite artist: I can't answer.

desktop picture: A full moon overlooking a mountain top.
in cd in player: I don't use it much anymore...

dvd in player: John Mayer in concert? How to Deal?

color of toenails: Brown.

l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: My sister just steered me into the computer room because I was upset about the mouse. Oh, Mickey.

hugged: Alex.
you imed: Corey?
you kissed: Alexxx.

a r e | y o u
understanding: Usually.

open-minded: Uh huh.
arrogant: Jokingly.
insecure: Sometimes.
interesting: If I was someone else, I would find me interesting.

hungry: A little.
smart: I don't think so, but other people do.
moody: Hahahaha. Me? Never.
hardworking: Not lately.
organized: Noooooo.
healthy: Physically, yes.
shy: Almost all the time.
attractive: Eh?
bored easily: No.
responsible: Uh huh.
obsessed: I never obsess. Over anything.
angry: Not right now.

sad : Yes. Mice don't deserve to freeze to death. I'm sorry.
disappointed: Yeah, I wanted to keep them.
happy : A little.
hyper: Only with caffeine or lack of sleep. And stress.
trusting: Yeah.
talkative: Always.
legal: ?

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: No one.
slap: Eh. Still no one.
look like: No one in particular?
talk to offline: Alexxx.
talk to online: Anyone.

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: I don't care.
flowers or candy: Flowers.
tall or short: Shorter is cooler.

r a n d o m
in the morning i am: The person everyone wants to be around. Ha.
all i need is: People who love me, a pen, and a notebook.
love is:
what do you notice first: Personality, characterisitcs, and body language.

who makes you laugh the most: Um. Mo?
who makes you smile: Everyone can, it isn't hard.
who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: Alex.

who do you have a crush on: Hmmm...
who has a crush on you: I wouldn't know.

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: No.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: Not at all.

wish you were younger: Sometimes...

n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: Once?
of hearts i have broken: I have no idea. Probably not many.
of guys i've kissed: Technically, two.
of continents i have lived in: One.
of tight friends: Four?
of cds i own: A whole lot.
of scars on body: Too many to count.

Layyyylaaa, got me on my kneeess, Layylaa. Beggin' darlin' please, Layyylaaa.

So, are you happy now? And you better comment now.

bittersweet and strange, finding you can change, learning you were wrong...
chelsea

Saturday, January 01, 2005

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 19:21:14 GMT

come January we're frozen inside, making new resolutions a hundred times...

I don't think I really have one yet. Suggestions?

are you in the mood to be subdued?
chelsea.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 19:13:49 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARLEE!

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 21:10:09 GMT

The rest of my weekend turned out to be boring. I spent too much time on the phone, too much time on the computer, and a whole lot more time doing nothing, and wishing I'd have done something. Talk about regrets.

Walk on the oceannnn, step on the stonesssss...

On Saturday though, I wrote a poem, As The Wind Cries. And I thought it was okay, and I got a lot of positive feedback on it. So I figure, I'll ask my creative writing teacher what he thinks, and maybe I'll enter it in one of those writing competitions. Ahhhh. Too many adverbs, some things unclear, no punctuation. A lot to fix. But in the end, I think it might be worth it. I absolutely love writing.

And it is for that very same reason that I find it puzzling that I can't keep a journal for more than a month consistently. I really want to. I mean, from what I have written, I love to look back and read it. It's amazing, it really is. Things that I used to find so important and necessary, I now find petty and immature. Oh the ways we've all changed.

And I can see by the look in her eyes...

Maybe I'll make it a New Year's Resolution. I've tried that before, but I suddenly have the urge to actually do this. I just need a good journal and my favorite pen. And maybe, just a little patience.

She said I might not be seeing him soon, I 've got a few things I've been waiting to do...

I have a French test tomorrow, that I made my sister help me study for. Things got out of hand. Wayyyy out of hand. And these were just French verbs. Let's just say I got a little over excited. But I know every single one. I swear.

If melody is my destiny, then what's left of me, I'll give to you...

could i ever break away... ?
chelsea.

p.s. I wrote this story to Carlee, and Corey put it on his lj. So I'm stealing it and pasting it here. Enjoyyyy!

Chelsee(8:10:44 PM): once upon a time, a long, long time ago, mind you, there lived you.
Chelsee(8:10:59 PM): you were the second fairest maiden in alllll that there was.
Chelsee(8:11:10 PM): of course, second only to yours truely.
Chelsee(8:11:35 PM): and, together, we set upon a loooooong, time consuming, and possibly annoying quest.
Chelsee(8:11:59 PM): there were dragons that were fought, and elves that were befriended, and best of all, other uglier maidens to laugh at.
Chelsee(8:12:12 PM): oh, but wait!
Chelsee(8:12:28 PM): there was a purpose to this quest, as there is to all quests that are questly.
Chelsee(8:13:01 PM): the quest was to find the pair that were to be paired with us.
Chelsee(8:13:18 PM): and they were the two most handsome princes in alll that there was.
Chelsee(8:13:35 PM): so, this quest took a really freaking long time.
Chelsee(8:13:57 PM): because, of course, they werent in plain sight to be tortured by those ugly maidens.
Chelsee(8:14:27 PM): they were hidden far, far away, underneath layer upon layer, in a snake filled yucky tunnelish cave thing.
Chelsee(8:14:58 PM): but these maidens, certain of their destiny, trudged confidently forward.
Carlee(8:15:41 PM): yes we did
Carlee(8:15:46 PM): through mud and blood and snakes
Chelsee(8:15:56 PM): and, throughout this questly quest, they became hungry, and starved a little, and even became a tad bit dirty, for all of their brawls and fights had been messy.
Chelsee(8:16:21 PM): but eventually, after who knows how many days, cause the narrarator forgot to count, they made it to that cave.
Chelsee(8:16:45 PM): and then they all fell in love, got married, and had wayyyyy too many children to count.
Carlee(8:16:50 PM): YAYYY
Carlee(8:16:51 PM): THE END.
Chelsee(8:16:53 PM): you'd swear they were freaking rabbits.
Chelsee(8:17:01 PM): but, they lived happily ever just the same.

Saturday, November 06, 2004

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 15:33:23 GMT

It's been awhile. Ah well.

I don't even remember my last entry. I guess I'll start with a Happy November, seeing as my last update was in October. To sum up what I've been up to: spending Friday nights at Carlee's, going to a play with Carlee and Jess, seeing a lot of Corey and Alex, starting weight training ( ow ), and doing some serious thinking.

I was going to spend this entry trying to catch myself up on what I've been doing, but I don't really feel like that now. It doesn't seem that important anymore.

It's interesting to see how people change from how they live their lives, and the decisions that they make. And, no, this is not going to be an entry saying how I hate everyone because they have changed. That's not right of me to say, and it isn't true either. Becuase I know, just how everyone else has changed, I have too. It just interesting to see how a few decisions can completely change a person. It can make them new friends, it can lose them old friends, or it can allow them to see people in an entirely new perspective. It's intriguing to read old letters, or see old photographs, and see how things were, compared to how they are now, and how they could end up being. It wasn't my intention in writing this to make anyone upset, or imply that, "Hey, you've changed, and I don't like that. You should unchange yourself." That's not what I'm saying at all. I was once told that to be a good writer, you have to be a good oberserver. And that's what I'm doing. Observing. And the way that people change, and react to different situations just makes me curious. It seems that every single person that I meet changes me in some way. Even if I don't know them very well, they change me, they make me think differently, or see things in a new perspective. And I love that. I love to look, and see how things were, and to remember them. And sometimes, it's hard to remind yourself how nice things were, and how much they suck now. How, if you could just go back to that one minute, everything now might be so much better. I guess what I'm saying is that it's hard not to have any regrets. There are things that I regret doing or not doing, saying or not saying, or just in general. But I think that happens with everyone. It has to.

And even right now, there are things I regret doing. Things that I regret saying. Things that I wish I could take back. But I can't. And I didn't intend for this entry to be an apology either, but it looks like it's headed in that direction. Am I sorry? Did I do something wrong? Maybe. But, like I said, it's not like I can take it back. And, most likely, it's probably not entirely my fault.

I feel like I want to end on a happy note. But I just don't know what that would be. Not much seems to be very smile worthy. Yesterday, my World Civ teacher died. Death is never something that is expected, so I don't want to call it unexpected. It seems redundant.

Alright. So, that happy note. Yesterday, I took Carlee's bus home from school, and then Corey and Alex came over. We talked and listened to music. It was really fun. And then, Carlee and I were up til after two in the morning. Talking about anything and everything. We slept til one, woke up, and ate grilled cheese. I think that makes me happy.

some things never do change.
chelsea.

Friday, October 22, 2004

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 17:16:03 GMT

So, I don't know that I really did anything this week, but I'm bored, I haven't updated in a while, and I really don't want to clean the bathroom. Like really.

Today is finally Friday... I've been looking forward to the weekend all week. I'm going over Carlee's tonight, so I don't know if I'll ever update. Hah, I know I won't. Hmmm...

I really didn't do anything until last night. My dog, Dutch, had been sick for two days, not eating anything, throwing up, and because of that, he was dehydrated, lethargic, and he never took his heart or arthritis medication. So after my sister's honor society induction, my dad decides to take him to the vet. He then has to go to an emergency clinic, and to make a long story short, I didn't get home till 12:30. So tired.

Alright, so that's it, cause I have to go. Yessss. : )

there's no perfect endings
chelsea

Monday, October 18, 2004

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 18:26:38 GMT

Hmmm...

So, throughout the week, I got progressively sicker, until I woke up all healthy Thursday. Or was that Friday? Oh well, the point is, I'm not sick.

Wednesday softball was cancelled, and that was a good thing, seeing as how I was sick. Thursday we had an early dismissal, so I went out to lunch with Alex, Jess and Mike. We, as in Jess and I, are so amazing, and they could never amount to us. Ever. Hah.

Friday was so exciting. It was finally time to meet 'Corey.' It's so different talking to someone online and meeting them. After Carlee, Corey, and I spent about an hour while I tried to pick out two cd's, we found Alex. By the way, I got Snow Patrol and Straylight Run, both of which are really good. From there we spent most of our time in Starbucks.. very fun.

Saturday I went shopping and such, and then went to Alex's that night. We watched A Field Of Dreams. It was, uh, good. Mmhmm....

Sunday, or rather, yesterday, was the AIDS walk. Eight miles is a lot to walk. It really really is. It took me about three and a half hours. Mmmmm... I got a little burned, and my lips are so chapped it's annoying. But yesterday was three months, and I think that deserves a smile. : ). Maybe even two. : ).

Today... let's see. I finally finished my story for creative writing, and I haven't done anything else today. I am so boring.

i could do most anything to you
chelsea

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 22:03:39 GMT

I really don't want to fall behind again, so I'm updating again. Yay : ) .

Saturday I ended up at the mall with Alex, Jess, and Mike. Hah. Jess and I tried on dresses... that was fun. And, we had cinnamin buns too. Yummmm.

Sunday me and Jess were the best girlfriends ever. We sat in the cold for two and a half hours watching Alex and Mike play baseball. It was so cold. Really. We did maps, and it was just fun... something about the Czechs eating Turkey after Roming?

That might explain why I'm sick.

Today sucked. I felt horrible. Ahhhhhh...

sometimes she sees the world from upside down
chelsea