I guess its funny.. well not reali funny but "interesting" that when u meet up with some "old" friends and try to get reconnected u often heard something like "umm... soo anyone special in ure life right now? ¤H¥Íªº²Ä¤G¥b?"
For some ppl that are not ME.. u can have these typical responses
1. nope.. still looking (Want to introduce me to any Good looking ppl?)
2. "hahahahaha h" cant stop laughing.. cuz u obviously know why they've been ignoring you...
3. "......(silence) you?" <--- at this point u know u should shut up..and change topic
If u ask me last month.. my response would be
that it would be most ideal....and University.. u never know who you'll meet..etc etc
If u ask me last week.. My response would be:
GF? wutever la.. if i even lucky enough for any girl to actually like me..i hope she is not very very "STICKY" cuz that would be less time for my friends and myself...but mostly.. i m soo tired in my life... i dont even dare to tink about it....
If u ask me today... I'll say: "is it realli that important?"
The reality is.. maybe there is a lot more to be concerned about over URe precious Love Life. And NO.. i dont mean HW, lab reports, papers.. finals... Yes, they are very important for us, as students. We didnt pay 5G for failure and slacking off. ITs our responsibility to study, its our duty.. But i know ITs not my Purpose of LIFE... if u look at it in a broader context... Marks, grades are very trivial as ure LOVE life.
Who's gonna ask if u get 98% or 85 or 66% in Phy 101 when ure 50 year old with kids and career?
As i struggle to get to skool. past monday.. i have to say.. i felt pretty spiritually bankrupted. overwhelmed by lots of stuff in skool.. Bugged by the majority of shallow friendship in School.. just soo stressed out
As a Christian.. i have personal relationship with God.. i read the Bible, and i pray to God... and no.. i m no talkin to thin air.. or reading off the blank text to feel better about my life. There is much more to it. When i pray, i talk to God, ask for forgiveness, share my burden, and reflect upon myself. When i read the Bible, i try to understand what is the lesson that God wants me to learn to grow more "Spiritually Mature" and to become a more loving person that JEsus Christ has called us to be.
It is the spriitual side of every human being. Is there a gap in our hearts taht u feel taht someone or something needs to fill it to be complete?
Some say its Dignity, respect, money, wealth, status, forming a family will satisfy you and make u complete. Yet, howcome soo many ppl are struggling to be content about their status and lifestyle when they are already "RICH" compare to the majority?
Some say Love conqures all? but howcome i see soo many heart breaks..injured X-lovers...ppl who appeared to have found true love filed for divorce after a few years?
Apparently.. maybe thats not something that will make my life complete..
I feel that.. for the past 18 going to 19 years of my life.. and Yes without a GF...that does not drive me to the point of desperation or insainty. i am still fine, alive breathing..ok.. maybe i feel that no GIRL is particularly interested in me but.. soo wut? i m still doing wut i m doing..
However, wut i realize is.. without a week of being with God... it is as if i m on my death bed.. waiting.. waiting for nothing.. living for nothing... this past summer is the same.. when i feel the seperation with God.. i feel my attitude has gone wrong.. the lil balance within me is falling apart as i try to control my own life.. directing it to a palce of destruction or uncertainty...
I'll not be a hypocrite by saying i do not want anything to do with a girl.. in fact it would be very great to have someone who u can share various exciting experiences with.. but now that i know that even without a Love Life (GF) my life will still operate on a regular bases.. but without a spirit filled life.. my life is empty.. i know wut is more imporant and require more concern.
............wut u focus is wut u desire... wut u desire could either make you or destory you........ | 
