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Currently Watching House, M.D. - Season One By Hugh Laurie, Lisa Edelstein, Omar Epps, Robert Sean Leonard, Jennifer Morrison (II), Jesse Spencer see related

Thoughts...

Three simple thoughts, not to downplay the entry below, but since few read this thing anyway...

1. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I am a recent convert to the "House MD" trend. I couldn't understand it at first, but the spiteful, sarcastic, and caustic Dr. House is actually quite appealing. Makes me wanna go out there and do the same thing. But I wouldn't be so good at it, so I guess I won't. He does remind me of someone though, because even though he's antisocial on the inside, if you look at every episode, there's a caring, gentle, human side of him that comes out. The cynicism is only a front for the humanity that lies within. :) Hope you find out who you are.

2. Two weddings on the same day. Who could ever have imagined? But then again, people don't do weddings on weekdays, even though it's summer break. So to Esther and Scott and to Kelly and Tim, a hearty congratulations--I envy the four of you immensely, but I know that my time will eventually (hopefully) come to join you in the circle of the married-moving-on-with-life people.  May your marriage always glorify Him and serve as a paradigm of the perfect selfless union that God had ordained in the beginning.

3. Xanga stalking again! What else could I possibly have to do with school so very far away?  I know, I'm not nice. But I've decided to join the masses in posting my class schedule up like everyone else:

- English 4

- Biotechnology and Society GE Cluster

- Air Pollution with Lab

That's it! Still hard though, I'm sure. College is nice. This state of limbo is even nicer, where I'm looking forward to going into school, but I don't have to worry about being there. It's basically having the good with very little of the bad. But it's coming, and I'm sure it'll hit me hard. :)

Yeah, college is nice. But seriously, since only high schoolers read this thing anyway, enjoy high school life for what it's all about. It doesn't get easier--it's just a shift in environments and cultures, but you still have the same choice—learn or sell yourself to the system. I hope to always choose the former.

-danimalcheung

peace.  love.  Jesus.

Love

Journal,

How strange it is to look over past entries to see the naiveté in my voice, but more surprising still to see that I haven’t grown out of it!  Reading through past emotions makes them, in retrospect, seem almost blasphemous.  But I had a similar thought today, for which I jumped out of bed, eagerly wanting to write it out:

“God, do you know how it feels to obsess—where all other thoughts fade; where all else seems pointless and mundane to the beauty and charm of the one; where your words slowly melt because they can’t catch up with the quickening beat of your heart?  Do you know how it feels to know of rejection even as you sit in that mania, watching them slowly turn away, making all that you poured out for them seem insufficient and meaningless?”

And God answered:  “I do know how it feels—as I hung on that cross, all else faded away, and all of the pain, scorn, and rejection amounted to nothing as I saw your face, your life, and even your rejection of the love that I openly gave.”

Awestruck that He who created all things can feel that same head-rush whenever He hears my name.  Stunned that He who is all-powerful would bend so low and forfeit all of His powers to ask me gently to love Him.  Amazed that His love will never fade, never die, and never fail; even in my greatest failure to accept and to love Him.  I am weak, He is strong, and though I am certain that I will fail to even greater depths, I will always push to godliness because His love endures forever.

If anyone knows love, it’s Christ.  If anyone knows marriage as it was intended to be, it is the creator who designated and conjoined man and woman.  If I want to know the fullness of the love that God had intended for marriage, I must first know His love and then seek marriage to glorify Him.  I will wait.  If it takes five years, let it be.  If it takes fifty, still, let it be.  If it takes a lifetime to attain the fullness of the marriage that God had intended for my life, I will wait until my final breaths to marry in the way that He had planned out for me.  The first description of love is that it is “patient,” and so I will wait until the time is right.

Will I ever know?  Will I ever realize what it means to be selflessly in love?  It is my prayer that I will get a least a glimpse of it before I move to heaven for eternal love and glory, because I know that He who inspired the thirteenth chapter of the first epistle to the Corinthians must have grasped exactly what love is, has been, and always will be about:

The Greatest Gift

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

(title taken from NKJV, passage taken from NIV;  1 Corinthians 13)

I really don’t know what the future holds for me, but through it all, I am confident that His will is greater and that His plan is more satisfying than anything else that I can formulate.  Not my will, Lord, but yours be done.

peace.  love.  Jesus.

-danimalcheung