| - Ok..so..this is going to be one of my "Im bored and feeling depressed" kinda entrys lol...
well...alot has been goin on lately...sara and I had a fight that i never thought it would ever extend to..but it helped alot...all the tension is gone between us..well..on my side it is..i dont know how she feels..and i can be my self around her again..ive been feeling restricted and like what ever i said would piss her off..which happend alot...but now everythins different..then guess what...we cant go over to her house anymore because of certain people..they know who they are..i mean i can but i prefer not to for a while..ill lay low for a bit then start goin over there... which is gonna suck because id live there if i had a chance...what am i saying..i practically do...but oh well i guess i have to hang out here and play with my corvet and mustang..lol jk!..kinda..ok in all seriousness...i mean i dunno if her mom is mad at me so much that she dosnt want me over because i didnt actually "do" it..but i was kinda apart of it..ugh!..oh well..anyways..dont worry all this shit dosnt mean anything ill prolly be over there in a couple days...but i dont know what is gonna happen..hopefully her mom forgives the suspects ...and josh and sarah are prolly royally pissed at me..because now they cant hang out upstairs or anything but im sure kathys rules will be gone soon..hopefully ...
this is to a certain boy..who probably isnt goin to read this..but i like you so much..more then i ever have..and i dont even know why..at first you seemed to like me to but now its gone...i dont even think you like being around me anymore..It breaks my heart every time i look at you...there is no possiable way that we could be together but i just want to let you know how much i like you now..ugh! i hate this! but please dont ask who it is...because i know you are sara...because there is no way that im goin to tell anybody...nobody knows and nobody will...the guy im talkin prolly dosnt even realize its him..i just needed to get it out.. 
I keep listening to all my life by kc and jo jo...please somebody stop me! ugh! no more of this black music!
well i drove to walmart yesterday! yayayayyayyya i almost wrecked a couple times..its all good! ...sometimes i forget im driving and just kinda space out and go in the other lane..lmao! it sucks! its like when i make out for a long time i forget im making out and stop..lol while the other person is still goin..they prolly think im the worse kisser ever..lmao!
ive been feeling better lately..im not down all the time..but ever since last night ive had a bad feeling..like saras moms gonna find out the truth and that she will hate us all!..ugh i know i would be one of the ones not in much trouble but still...she will forget about it tho..hopefully..and im sorry everybody when i over think things to much lol..like when i always think people hate me..i get annoyed by it and im sure everybody else does..
dude..zach called me a dildo today..and he asked if i was on meds..lol not cool!
ahhhh i have to go before i start writing more stuff that i regret! later my loves
*Mwah*
Allie! |