Interests:Music; The Arts - reading, writing, 'art', theatre, music; computers, design, creativity. Theres much more but meh. I dont feel like being judged on my specific interests. ^_^ Expertise:Singing. Occupation:Maid
I'm in love... With a precious little girl who has the voice of an angel. Last year I watched a youtube video from "Britain's Got Talent" in which a six year old brought one of the judges to tears and reduced Simon Cowell to publicly displaying Awe. Later, in the finals (where she lost out by one call in vote) Simon Cowell actually cried for a moment, when listening to her sing "Somewhere Over The Rainbow" She also sang "Ben", the week before.
Right now I am listening to her sing "I will Always Love you", and I am amazed. This child has an amazing voice (not an amazing voice for her age - her voice is amazing, period), and you can tell that singing is her love in life. So I'm going to torture you all by posting up the video Im watching. It is fan made but good, nonetheless.
Here's another of her singing "Ben". It is a recording of her singing (and a short interview beforehand) love at GMTV album launch to launch ehr first album. Please watch it! ^_^ and then go buy her CD, lmao.
If you wanna know more about her, or buy her cd, her site is http://www.connietalbot.com/ Yeah, I know it isnt a real entry but I still have the chills, so shush. :) and don't worry I wont do this that often, lmao. ^_^
Ive been trying to think of a topic to write about for a while, and while I was looking up a recipe for shrimp alfredo earlier (Yuuummmmm. *drools*), I stumbled upon this awesome site. Oh yes- it made me laugh. Oh yes- it is my new favorite site EVAR (excluding xanga and the forums I go to).. And please, before you double-take - listen.
If you have already been to the site you will either immediately realize it is a parody - or you will think it is ridiculous. Either way, they are trying to prove a point. If people are going to say that gay marriage is against the old testament, then why don't they follow ALL the rules? On one hand they say that the bible is flawed (to support going to church on sunday instead of saturday which is the original sabbath, to support divorce, and to support numerous other 'immoral' things) and on the other hand they say that it is absoulte, and completely perfect.
What tha fuck, christianity? W.T.F.?
Now, I really could be lazy and jsut copy text from their about page, but I don't want to do it. Although they have such better wording, and go into more detail - I kinda wanna put this into my point of view.
As most of my readers know, I am bisexual. Growing up I was a lesbian - I dated guys to make sure I stayed 'in the closet' after the trauma my dad put me through when he found out about my first girlfriend at the age of eleven or so... but I hated it. (wow that was a wordy sentence!) Now, I have my 'guy', but I still am much more attracted to women than any man (except him, hehehe) and I still have relationships with women.
I grew up not eating shrimp. Or pork, lobster, catfish, or any other 'non-kosher' or 'dirty' food. No- I wasn't jewish, just christian. And no, I do not consider myself a christian anymore - but that is besides the point.
The point is people are fighting back (in creative ways, no less). You have no idea how glad that is making me. And not just "non-believers", Christians are doing it as well.
If you want to fight for something that was written in a book centuries ago, fight for ALL of it, not just bits and pieces.
In the new testament, Jesus created the New Covenant, and Paul had a very detailed vision (three times!), both with basically shattered all of the old testament laws of "uncleanliness". It rendered them INVALID. Invalid - no longer valid, no longer having any cogency, no legal standing, no legal force. Ive read all of the bible and read it all more than once, and whilemy memory of thinsg is slightly sketchy sometimes - I do not ever remember seeing Jesus saying ANYTHING against homosexuality. (And after looking it up I still cant find anything other than hearsay - Paul said that jesus talked about it, once or twice, but it isn't actually recorded as him having said it.)
So - the almighty savior of the world, Jesus - never mentions homosexuality (or shrimp, for that matter) but he explicitly mentions the sins of divorce... And nobody says anything against divorce anymore, its as common as people cheating on each other or having fights with each other.
I think some people are twisted, wrong, and stupid. I also believe that everyone has their right to believe what they wish - If you thing homosexuality (and therefore, gay marriage) is wrong, go for it. But you should think before you say where you obtained the basis for the morality of your fight. Because contradiction and hypocrisy will never get you anywhere. If you are gonna use a book to rule your life, then use all of it, not just the parts you like.
In conclusion... go to the site and look around. THere isnt much there but its entertaining. JOIN THE FIGHT AGAINST SHRIMP! And especially read their about page. It might just make you see things in a new light. (plus the fact that is is much better presented, has more points to argue, and more research than my humble lil entry)
Thanks for listening to my lil rant. Oh and for those of you who care - things are okay between us. I have to prove (to myself and everyone else) that I can be obedient and that I can go without freaking out. But things are okay.
K gaiz, my internet isnt working right, Im on a borrowed connection right now and its about to cut out on meh too, it really sucks... so I'll have a proper post up (hah fuckin finally, eh?) as soon as it is fixed, PROMISE. <3
So.... Ive been having a bad time, jsut started my freakin period, which explains me blowing up at Ari (Chase). I dont usually get pms before my cycle, I get those stupid symptoms ON my cycle, so it makes sense. Wonderful Isa made me feel less insecure and I knwo that everything will be alright. I dont know if I will be going back any time soon, I think I need to give him some time away from me. I know he only sees me every other week, but still.. *sighs* Iunno. if he doesnt ask for it I won;t say anything. It isnt my place to question him.
gr.. Titan (husky dog) is all tryin to snuggle up on me. He always does when I get depressed, but for some reason.... while being loved on is comforting, it only makes me miss Chase more...
Blahblah. so this should be the last angsty post, I dont like worrying my friends and I do it all the time, its just guh.
I know, twice in a row but I promise no more after this.. Except for me possibly informing you of his decision, no more private entries. Ive already posted in my private blog... and I dont want him to let me stay jsut because I want it, it has to be because he wants it, so I cant post this there.. though I probably will and jsut end up privatizing it...
I dont know what to do. my head is killing me.... I cant even fucking sleep I'm so.... scared. Fuck, I am scared to fucking death. I dont knwo what I am gonna do if he tells me I cant come over anymore. if he really ends this all for good... Ive been horrible and a horrible pet and I dont deserve him but I dont know what to do if he leaves me all alone... It isnt a matter of living its a matter of being able to feel. before him I was almost emotionless. I dont want to be alone again. He's the only constant I have ever had and I messed it all up.. I feel so... worthless, useless, unloved - rather unlove-able. I know he doesnt love me, but he has always still cared....
I cant beleive I fucking said that! and then when I apologized... I had the gall to do it online.. (Well Im not really supposed to call him.. so I didnt have much choice) but regardless....
I dont knwo what to do... all I wanna do is fall asleep and stop how much this hurts, how bad I am freaking out, how scared and alone and pathetic I feel. I feel like everything is falling apart around me and all I Can do is watch it. I know I am alone, completely and utterly alone. Ive always been that way.. btu before I still had his company, even when I Was alone. and now...
.... i'm just a pathetic little girl, crying because she is afraid to lose her best friend and the only person she will ever truly love.
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