DaMn iTs bEEN a MiN LoL

wussup every1 who still goes on xanga lolz well yeah its been a while but yea well im soo lost and bored right now so yeah ima right in here its been hard lately and yeah ive been so lost in this marinel and mine situation its so hard whether to think if she does or doesnt you know wut i mean and its hard to koz i feel so alone on everything.... i mean should i have taken that relationship so seriously or should i have just played games or what i dont know maybe at times i look at it as my fault for falling so hard yeah my family and friends say damn you could have better girls who would treat you better and treat you as you want to be treated and shyt they're right but theres somethin that always makes me love her could it be that she was the first girl that i was with that understood everything or made it seem that way or was it the fact that she showed me things that i never seen like how to go out and have fun for the first time in my life ive always have been the responsible and dedicated person when it came to life and shit you know but when i started going out with her i experienced actually exploring and meeting ppl and shyt i mean i used to think life was bout gang banging fucking smoking weed and working and what not like i always kept my lives seperate like when it came down to work and school it was bout work and school out of that life style was A WHOLE different me and it was hard to believe meeting her changed all that... it was more said to be who you are not to be somone else you know and stop being fake basically and it showed me a lot so maybe it was that that made me fall so hard for her that i cant get myself together with out her that its sooo hard to think i can move on without her i dont know ppl let me know wut you think....

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Hey evey1 well everything is goin good for me im actually gettin my life together...Im goin to start to go to Job Corps. pretty soon and yeah goin der i kan earn my high school diploma plus i can earn an associates degree within a year.. I miss my girl though lyke crazy i cant believe its almost been a month since i left and yeah its hard for me koz im used to havin her der every second of the day...i can actually admit dat im in love wit her and i do hope she feels da same but yeah i dont noe wut to do n e more i need to get myself together koz the sayin is u cant make someone happy unless u make urself happy jus lyke the sayin goes u cant do for ppl if you can do for urself and for the first time i feel as though im acomplishing something in my life its lyke her and my future husband give me the strengh to do the things im doin not a second goes by where i dont think of them and there always on my mind... its lyke im soo happy to noe dat i have such a wonderful relationship with them with my future husband i can talk to him about everything and he always understands its lyke the movie a walk to remember says wut love is Love is not jelousy nor boastful love is understanding caring its not selfish nor is it greedy and dats how i noe im in love with the both of them koz yeah it is true u kan love two ppl just lyke u can have two bestfriends and i kan honestly say i love them both equally though i may not show them how i feel or they mite think im showin one more attention then the other my feelins will stay inside of me koz i am honestly afraid to get hurt...but i let them noe this i do love them with all my heart and that wil never change