| | U wer 2 tink dat a guy kan hurt me real bad so i kindof gav up on dem in a way doe i lean more towards guys and everytin i fell in love wit marinel she was my everything my world my heart everything that i am...and yet she hurt me soo bad my heart has been ripped out cut up into peices and shredded and then recarnated and burnt into ashes...i thought i meant more to her then anybody any guy anything she made me feel soo lifted and happy like i loved her uncondtionally and gave her my all and everything i got.....i would hardly let my walls down for anybody hardly i mean after josh i was soo hurt and upset but yet i gave love a second chance with her thinking i could turn everything differently thinking maybe i missed something after my cuzin went out wit her maybe everything my cuzin said bout her wasnt true and dat he was jus over seeing things bout her...and everybody told me dat she was just going to end up hurting me because shell never love me the same way i lover her and at that time i didnt want to believe it but now i know for sure shell never love me the same way as i love her i gave her everything i wouldve even gave up guys for her but i guess it could never be like that anymore....i even gave up gang banging for her because she said she cared and didnt want me hurt came back to vegas for her because she said she wanted me home and dat she needed me there and everything.....and it turns out that she loves a guy more than she could ever love me im sorry i wasnt born with a dick and everything maybe if i was it would be different but now it hurts to noe dat i wasted my time loving someone who can never love me the same way back...she says she loves me but differently which i dont get how i put up wit so much for her and gave up soo much for her and everythin and yet she can just tel me dat she loves me differently the way i see it she loves him more than me and i cant take it...imma try my best to be close to her and hold my heart back and build dat wall once again to the sky....and nobody this time wil ever get to it until i mend from dis broken heart |
| | Posted 11/4/2005 9:24 PM - 1 view - 0 comments
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