| okay i have a problem that you probably wouldn't care about but the guy i like has a girlfriend and he doen't even like her and i want to tell i like him because i know he still likes me but i don't know how and how he might react when i tell. i guess what i'm really saying is that i fear rejection and i'm sure alot of people feel that but it quite unusual that i feel this way about some one because i usually don't give a rats ass. oh well....................um.................if any suggestions please help................................if not then go ahead laugh your ass off. |
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| okay now i'm at home but now i got my cousins to worry about. they are so annoying they won't leave me alone at all. i have no privacy whatso ever. have you ever felt that way? please write me and tell me i'm not the only one that feels this way!!!!!! |
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| i'm unfortunately in school right noe and i want to escape this stupid place. the only one who keeps me from leaving is my friend kelly. she is so halarious. she always jokes around when things turn to shit. the guy like is still not in my reach and i think i'll just give up on liking people and just stick to what i do best....being alone. spring break is coming up and don't know if i should be happy or just don'y want to. well i better get going before my english teacher bits my haed off for doing something none related to class work |
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| hello world, my life is still pathetic and hasn't changed a bit. the guy i like is being a prick and inside my walls are crumbling into ashes. i can't stand most of the people at my school feel sick everytime i look at them or pretend to be nice to them. my smiles are slowly turning into frowns |
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| - WHY MUST I LIVE THIS WAY, LIVING MY LIFE AFRAID EVERYDAY. WHY HAVE I STAYED ALIVE THIS LONG, WHEN I HAVE NOTHING TO HOLD ON TO. WHY DO I ALWAYS TRY TO HIDE WHENI KNOW THERES SOMETHING WRONG. WHY DON'T I HAVE ANYONE WHEN I DESPERATELY DON'T WANT TOO BE ALONE. WHY DO I FEEL MOST COMFORTABLE, WHEN I HAVE THE MOST HORRID DREAMS. WHY DO I EVEN SMILE WHEN I'M JUST HOLDING BACK THESE CONSTANT SCREAMS. WHY AM I TREATED LIKE AN OUTCAST, WHEN I'M SO NICE TO EVERYBODY I MEET. WHY DO I ALWAYS END UP ON THE GROUND GETTING MADLY KICKED BY PEOPLES FEET. WHY WON'T I RUN AWAY TO NEVER SEE MY PAST AGAIN. WHY WON'T I KILLMYSELF AND PUT ALL THIS MISERY TO AN END. WHY DO I FEEL DEAD INSIDE WHEN I JUST WANT TO FEEL ALIVE AGAIN. WHY DO I SAY I'M PERFECTLY FINE, WHEN I KNOW IT'S ALL JUST PRETEND. |
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