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Name: Tom
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Metro: Morristown
Birthday: 6/7/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: Hugs, WSOU, Music, Warcraft 3 (DoTA), Starcraft (Playing & Watching Pro), You Probably.
Expertise: Being a loser, DoTA
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  ReiXTLF
MSN: NA
ICQ:  NA
Jabber: wtf is jabber?
Member Since:
1/30/2004
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| "Wasting Away"
And so I sit in my room,
With nothing to do
Stare at a blank screen and think about you
I’m so useless to…
Everyone
And everything
I can’t see direction other than you
I don’t know what…
I’m doing here or what I need to be
It all seems just hopeless without you and me
I can’t be who I was, I can barely be me
It’s like without you all the life’s taken from me
Days passing by like the rain falls outside
Millions of seconds turn to minutes by and by
I once had a plan, life had a purpose for me
But now that you’re gone I’m just wasting away
So I twiddle my thumbs
That’s excitement for me
As bright and loud images flash up on TV
I can’t bare to see…
What the mirrors reflect
A shell of former me
It all looks the same to everyone around me
But there’s nothing…
Inside of me left or will to move on
I don’t know why it had to end you and me
It’s like a bad fairy tale, with no hope in the end
The kind where all the characters die in the end
Days passing by like the rain falls outside
Millions of seconds turn to minutes by and by
I once had a plan, life had a purpose for me
But now that you’re gone I’m just wasting away
And so I sit in my room,
With nothing to do,
Memories flood into me from pictures of you
But I know you’re gone…
Days passing by like the rain falls outside
Millions of seconds turn to minutes by and by
I once had a plan, life had a purpose for me
But now that you’re gone I’m just wasting away
Days passing by like the rain falls outside
Millions of seconds turn to minutes by and by
I once had a plan, life had a purpose for me
But now that you’re gone I’m just wasting away
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| This SucksYou know what my problem is?
I like helping other people, I get satisfaction out of it. Hell, I LOVE taking responsibility for other people's actions. Be it a total stranger, I would love to help them out. Maybe that's the reason why I want to be a teacher. Unfortunately for me, over the past few weeks it's been exploited and taken advantage of, and now I don't want to help anyone. Well, I don't want to, but I always wind up doing so anyway.
However, that isn't the problem.
The problem is I HATE talking about my own problems.
And on that note, what is the point of a Xanga?
Peace.
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| Atleast I can write again...bHeres a new song I wrote in the shower...I call it for now, DotA
We started out at home
Yeah we felt so safe
Had our hopes and dreams
Bottled water just in case
Packed up our cash and gear
Headed out to the lane
But after we got here
Things would never be the same
There were people everywhere even from our own town
Everyone was moving here left right and up and down
I knew I had to hang on tight I knew I had to play support
At first I knew that we were safe and you were my pwnage
cohort
But it seemed to go downhill after our bond hit level three
You went off out on your own and when you got hurt you
blamed me
I never thought you’d go without me I thought you’d stay in
our own lane
But before the ultimate hit you changed and never were the
same…
Felt like my heart was ganked
From the top and the bottom
All my love was shanked
Backstabbed and forgotten
My friends M.I.A.
And they had nothing to say…
Hey, hey, love’s a crazy game.
I didn’t know what hit me
I was totally stunned
I can’t believe you left me
I never wanted to be shunned
My reactions seemed slow
You left me high and dry
I don’t want to start all over
I can’t believe you’d make me cry
Now I’m stuck here waiting for time just to pass me by
I never thought that you could do this or that we could ever
die
We had a great push into life we had it’s back on the wall
It’s like every obstacle we faced would surely fall
Now I’m waiting in a tavern drowning all my sorrow and woe
You played me for a fool you were my ally not a foe
Now I’ve learned from my mistakes I’ve got a new recipe
My heart shall make me stronger, give me the strength to be
free!
Felt like my heart was ganked
From the top and the bottom
All my love was shanked
Backstabbed and forgotten
My friends M.I.A.
And they had nothing to say…
Felt like my heart was ganked
From the top and the bottom
All my love was shanked
Backstabbed and forgotten
My friends M.I.A.
And they had nothing to say…
Hey, hey, love’s a crazy game.
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| So much crapBasically describes my current life situation. There's just so much crap that was flying around left and right.
My mom an dI weren't on the best terms, probably still not. I'm such a horrible son, according to her, but she wants me to tell her where I am and be around the house more and be "like I was in high school"
Yeah, too bad being in college basically is breaking away from that. Sorry mom, I didn't go to county. I may commute, but I'm still grown up. She doesn't seem to think I am, too irresponsible, too immature, too reckless. If only she knew about my "nice" friends.
Friends...well, having a lot of people back over break was awesome. Max had to jet mad early, fuck his trimesters. I've hung out with a few people I didn't think I'd be seeing a lot during college. I've been hanging with Dane my fellow commuter, as well as Kyle and Joe the guy who makes ridiculous amounts of money despite not going to college, and surprisingly talking a lot with Leah. That's pretty sock rocking right there Glad to have another familiar face back in Jersey, commuting as well. Oh yeah, and M. Sake J superstar too. We plan on being a pro SC 2v2 team. Wish us luck, haha.
Adrienne...oh, she's a lovely girl, and I do love her very much. Everything was awesome, then suddenly it wasn't. Sometimes life can just really, really suck, like it has been recently. I love her to death, and she loves me, she's told me, but shit is just ridiculous. I don't really like being single, but I like being in love. It's a double edged sword.
However, being single, I'm just saying thank God for commuters :)
I'm off to pay more attention to Psych class. Haha, yeah right, I mean my texts.
- Tom
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| So Two Years Later...I post in Xanga again. I'm in Adolescent Psych class, half paying attention to how Disney channel can be a bad influence. That and calculators.
In the meantime, there is a lot going on in my life right now, but I'm EXTREMELY too lazy to post about it now, so instead I'll post song lyrics I wrote - lots of dem.
Kids In Love - Tom Searfoss (Once Again, Found Them In My Closet)
Sitting 'round
In my room
TV's on
Blasting VH1 and Nickelodeon
On my couch
Arm in arm
Picture perfect
How could life get better?
Living life with you's the only way I see it
The way your eyes see me makes me believe it
Hurry quick, we're on a trip
Gonna travel my life with you
But the plane's not leaving yet
'Cuz now we're still kids in love
Now in my car
Driving around
Music's off
Just to hear you breathing
Hit the brake
Put it in park
Lock the doors
'Cuz we're not going anywhere
Living life with you's the only way I see it
The way your eyes see me makes me believe it
Hurry quick, we're on a trip
Gonna travel my life with you
But the plane's not leaving yet
'Cuz now we're still kids in love
We might not live
In the same place yet
Still got no bills to pay
But we're still in debt
Someday it'll be that way
But for now...
Living life with you's the only way I see it
The way your eyes see me makes me believe it
Hurry quick, we're on a trip
Gonna travel my life with you
But the plane's not leaving yet
'Cuz now we're still kids in love
Fight Song - Tom Searfoss (Found It In My Closet, Might Use Them)
Ain't gonna stop me now
I'm hot on the trail toward something new
Can't stop me 'til I'm there
Kiss me goodnight but not goodbye
Ain't gonna stop me now
Life moves on and I'm on the prowl
People passing me by
But the close ones stay close and near
Just 'cuz things are different
Doesn't mean they have to change
I'm still who I was before
I swear I'll write, don't be afraid
In the heart, we're never too far away
Ain't gonna stop me now
I haven't even gotten my feet wet
So much to do, so little time
Signatures I have still on my mind
Ain't gonna stop me now
I've come too far to turn and quit
Please don't cry, it's not the end
And nothing's begun, we're just continuing on
Just 'cuz things are different
Doesn't mean they have to change
I'm still who I was before
I swear I'll write, don't be afraid
In the heart, we're never too far away
Threads Of Fate - Tom Searfoss (Old Potential As It Ignites Lyrics)
Feeling life spinning out of control
It's getting father away, I can't grab a hold
Everything around me s just happening way too fast
Everyday I live sometimes I hope it i smy last
My
Life
Not
Mine
My
Life
Not
Fine
With my vision impaired I can't see straight
Im barely holding on to the threads of fate
Cuz everything around me I can't change, i goes too fast
Everyday I live dear God why can't it be my last?
Day in and day out things just never go my way
I can feel my mortality slowly fading away
I don't need this, I can't stop this, someone rescue me
I can't even find salvation deep inside my dreams
My
Life
Not
Mine
My
Life
Not
Fine
My
Life
Not
Mine
My
Life
Not
Fine
I can't believe I'm here but I'm losing the fight
Someone stop me now and just end my plight
Once a good life now gone wrong I live my days in pain
Fire coarsing through me spreading deat inside my veins
Day in and day out things just never go my way
I can feel my mortality slowly fading away
I don't need this, I can't stop this, someone rescue me
I can't even find salvation deep inside my dreams
My
Life
Not
Mine
My
Life
Not
Fine
When Break Views Up Collide
Respect!
It goes around because it came 'round before...right through the door
Neglect!
A touch refined, ignorance is bliss...you aren't missed
Detatch!
Your sentiment is lost here, and you have lost...
Everything!
When the time comes to move on in life!
It should be easy to say goodbye!
But your feelings are making you blind!
Oh...
Impact!
The force it hits without any delay...to shock and awe
Distract!
Your eyes your thoughts your hands can't forget...feeling mutual
Forget!
Lasting headaches after late nights, and you have lost...
Everything!
When the time comes to move on in life!
It should be easy to say goodbye!
But your feelings are making you blind!
Oh!!
What Now
I stumble in!
To a place that is so big and bright
I know Im afraid that I might
Get lost!
Predicament I'm in is new
I really don't know what to do
I'll try!
To go along, follow and feel
This place seems like it's the real deal
So many things to do
So many places to go
But what do I do now?
It's time to start this show
Now this is my own life
I better get it off right
But how to kick it off?
Well Matbe, I don't know...
We all just live!
For moments at a time
We can't!
See down our timelines
We won't!
Know where we'll be in years
And that!
Is my real big fear
Generation
Never wanted a war to go on
Or People toelect morons
We never wanted to go die
On land so far from home
Nor did we ever ask to go and fight
Decissions were made overnight
We never had our business there
So why are we still here
No we never asked for this
Instead we now raise our fists (Hey! Hey! Hey!)
We'd better make a change
Or our world will never be the same
No we never asked for this
Instead we now raise our fists (Hey! Hey! Hey!)
We'd better make a change
Or our world will never be the same
Now we never asked for gas so high
An economic suicide
We never wanted crisises
Now we have more than them
We just wanted to live with our rights
(... Guess I tore the rest out of the book...shit)
No we never asked for this
Instead we now raise our fists (Hey! Hey! Hey!)
We'd better make a change
Or our world will never be the same
No we never asked for this
Instead we now raise our fists (Hey! Hey! Hey!)
We'd better make a change
Or our world will never be the same
Untitled
Now you kids just play…nice
You act like you care but you don't know what true love is
They say, they say, they say to…us
You're too young, you're naïve you just can't understand
A lecture on deaf…ears
But our beating hearts speak louder than their words (words)!
So don't waste your time dear
It's impossible, impossible
For them to hear (for them to hear)
If we can just be true
There's nothing else, nothing else
That we can't do (we can't do)
Just one look your eyes
I know that we can pull…through
It's all just so… (It's all just so…) drab
The experience is ours and it's not theirs to dictate
They talk, and they talk, and they talk to…us
A twiddling thumb and a blinking blank stare
No we don't…care
But our beating hearts speak louder than their words (words)!
So don't waste your time dear
It's impossible, impossible
For them to hear (for them to hear)
If we can just be true
There's nothing else, nothing else
That we can't do (we can't do)
Just one look your eyes
I know that we can pull…
They can say what they want,
And preach what they know,
The chemistry I feel,
I know is right
The physicists say,
Molecules reflect,
That we never touch,
But your kiss feels real to me!
So don't waste your time dear
It's impossible, impossible
For them to hear (for them to hear)
If we can just be true
There's nothing else, nothing else
That we can't do (we can't do)
Just one look your eyes
I know that we can pull…through! (through!)
Like I said, I wrote them all....enjoy
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