| I have been reading some of my blog subscriptions and do realize that some people do update often. I also realized that most of the updating is kind of in a way venting about life... I realize how caught up in life I get about the bad things and want to write them down somewhere that I don't always mention the good things or the people who are constantly there for me. I don't mention the fact that I am lucky to have a job, but complain about it sometimes. I need to be more positive in life! |
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| Does anyone still do this?Yea, so this is going to be the ranting and ravings of me, so reader beware. I am just so stressed right now. I have no money for school, and since I pay for everything myself, I have my last three school loans out under just my name plus my car payments so they won't approve me for my final year of school for a loan and my parents don't have strong enough credit to cosign for me. Yea, I might not be going to Olivet for my final year of school. I might not finish college. Yea, the thought of that kinda sucks. I am stressed about everything. From school to boys to work to friends. I don't want to be at home. My mom is pregnant so that is damn stressful. My family always stresses me out in general. I wake up daily wondering why I want to wake up and seriously why can't I just runaway? I want to runaway and just start over. No one to know where I am going. I think that one day soon I will do just this. I need to. I mean yes I have friends that are here for me. People that love me. But I am going through too many personal things to be able to concentrate on anything else. I can talk and talk to everyone about what is going on but still it will never end it seems. I want to be able to just step out of my life for a few days. I want to just curl up in a ball or something. Sad. I just don't know what to do. Life is getting to me. |
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| EhhI have been so stressed recently. Work has been getting to me, switching apartments has been getting to me (I can't find any of my stuff because it is still packed away including my retainer that I am praying I didn't lose because it isn't in the place that I know i put it...) Work has been stretching me out soo much it's not even funny. I am doing my job plus the job of a ton of departments because everyone is new (well, except me of course) and they think that if they don't know it, that I will...um that is not exactly how it always works. I hate venting. I love my job so much. I just can't wait for everyone to be trained. I just wish I had more time in life too. I am always on the go. I never stop to do anything. I never know what I am doing anymore. That's just with work. School starts soon. I wonder how my hours at work will look then? I just need prayers... |
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