fuck 20 questions. 500 question survey baby

001. What is your name: Jeremy
002. Spell your name backwards: Ymerej
003. Date of birth: oct. 4, 86
004. Male or female: ALL MALE
005. Astrological sign: Libra
006. Nicknames: Jerm, Jay, Stitches
007. Occupation: unfortunately student
008. Height: 6'0
009. Weight: 160
010. Hair color: Black
011. Eye color: brown
012. Where did you last live: Florida (fort lauderdale)
013. Where do you reside now: Bronx
014. Age: 17
015. Screen names: deadinside103
017. What does your screen name stand for: my fav. chimaira song and i feel related to that
018. What is your xanga name: dead_insde
019. What does your xanga name stand for: same bullshit as above
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake: no candles
022. Piercings: had 6 now 3 (two eyebrow one nose one tongue and two ears)
023. Tattoo's: SOON BABY SOON
024. Shoe size: 12
025. Righty or lefty: Righty
026. Wearing: Blue Jeans, white wifebeater
027. Hearing: Jack Off Jill- strawberry gashes
028. Feeling: pissed the fuck off at my girl about this whole ex thing once again
029. Eating/drinking: rasin brain and kool aid

~Friends Stuff~
(Which one of your friends is the...)

030. Craziest: Angel
031. Loudest: Adrian
032. Nicest: BILLY
033. Bitchiest: NICOLE!!!!
034. Life of the party: Jaime and SKULLY!!!
035. Jock: None
036. Prep: NONE
037. Rebel: Adrian
038. Cutest: NO MO johnaton fucking pretty boy
039. Best friend of the same sex: Jaime
040. Best friend of the opposite sex:  Sandra i love that bitch to death knows my inner secrets
042. Rudest: SKULLY
043. Most shy: Ja
044. Dumbest: T.J
045. Smartest: billy and thomas but i'm kinda smart
046. Weirdest: some black kid in evander
047. Has the best hair: Christian
048. Best personality: i think me
049. Most talented: Angel computer wiz man
050. Most ghetto: THOMAS
051. Most spoiled: ANGEL
052. Drama KING: NICOLE
053. Pain in the ass: CHEWY
054. Funniest: SKULLY
055. Best advice giver: BILLY
056. Druggie: KENNY
057. Most likely to join a cult: ANGEL
058. Have you lost touch with a good friend recently: YEA KRYSTAL love that bitch named my bass after her i could have seen myself soo happy with her
059. Person you've been friends with the longest: Jaime and we still tight
060. How many people do you have on your buddy list: 40-50

~Guys/Girls/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~

061. Have you ever been in love: kinda of
062. How many people have you told "I love you": 1
063. How many people have you been in love with: 1
064. How many people have you kissed: too many
065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex: yea cousin just playing around
066. How many people have you dated: 5
067. What do you look for in a guy/girl: attraction/ personality i'm too picky
068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: Physical Appeirence
069. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for: humble girls
070. Do you have a bf/gf: GF she's too fucking much
071. If so where did you meet them: Skool
072. What do you like most about your bf/gf: she's smart and cool
073. Do you have a crush right now: Yea
074. If so who is it: ROSEY
075. Do you believe in love at first sight: nope but i want to be proven wrong
076. Do you remember your first relationship: Yes and i would love to forget it
077. Who is the first person you kissed: kristen
078. Do you believe in fate: nope
079. Do you believe in soul mates: sometimes
080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours: hopefully but i'm still looking

~Family Stuff~

104. How many siblings do you have: 1
105. What are your parents names: Sylvia and Eddie
106. What are your siblings names: Dawn
107. How many siblings does your mother have: 18 i think or more
108. How many siblings does your father have: 7
109. Where are your parents from: mom is from puerto rico and dad is italian
110. Is your family close: me and my sister are so fucking close but everybody else isn't that close
111. Does your family get together for holidays: no
112. Do you have a drunken uncle: no had a drunked mom
113. Any medical problems run through your family: alcoholism runs through but i'm not one
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee: lol, Not that I know of
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews: risah and christopher
116. Are your parents divorced: yea they are
117. Do you have step parents: my step dad
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family: no
119. If so for what: ...
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country: yea Puerto Rico and spain

~Music Stuff~

121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life: pearl jam- jeremy and there's more
122. What's the most embarrassing CD you own: R.E.M- losing my religion
123. What's the best CD you own: A whole bunch but i have to say right now hatebreed and lamb of god
124. What song do you absolutely hate: anything thats 50 cent and rap
125. Do you sing in the shower: all the time
126. What song reminds you of that special someone: "No Trivia" -From Autumn to Ashes and stabbing westward "so far away" and smashing pumpkins "luna"

~Favourites~

152. Color: purple
153. Food: itailian
154. Song: at the drive-in "quarantine" and from autumn to ashes "autumns monologue
155. Show: south park
156. School subject: history
157. Band/singer: Band? hatebreed,poison the well, at the drive-in, lamb of god. singer/ at the drive-in lead singer
158. Animal: monkeys
159. Outfit: anything that looks good
160. Radio station: some rock station in florida it was fucking great
161. Movie: vanilla sky, frality, time machine, frankenstain
162. Pair of shoes: dc's
163. Cartoon: spongebob,cartman,ickus (ahhh real monster), invader zim,futurama, family guy and simpsons
164. Actor: adam sandler
165. Actress: any hot bitch
166. Potato chip: sun chips french onion
167. Drink: Pepsi and brisk
168. Alcoholic drink:pina colada
169. Holiday: Halloweeeeen!
170. Perfume/cologne: romance
171. Pizza topping: pineapple
173. Lunch meat: ham
174. Board game: risk
175. Video game: silent hill and tony hawks all of the parts
176. Website: theprp.com
177. Book: the notebook "nicholas sparks" reminds me of krystal she told me to read it
178. Computer game: none
179. Favorite Number: 61
180. Cereal: lucky charms
181. Comedian: John Leguezamo and adam sandler
182. Dessert: strawberry french cheesecake
183. Disney character: e.t
184. Clothing store: hot topic
185. Past time: none
186. Teacher: mr.reid and patch my GED teacher
187. Childhood toy: i broke them all
188. Carnival game/ride: the zipper was cool
189. Candy bar: 3 musketeers
190. Magazine: metal edge and guitar world
191. Salad dressing: Italian
192. Thing to do on the weekend: hang out and go out
193. Hot drink: hot chocolate
194. Season: Autumn and spring
195. Sport to watch: Skateboarding, wrestling
196. Person to talk to online: rosey

~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~

197. What color are your sheets: colorfull
198. What color are your bedroom walls: white
199. Do you have posters on your walls: yea too many
200. If so of what: bands shit like that
201. Do you have a TV in your bedroom: Yep
202. How many pillows are on your bed: 5
203. What do you normally sleep in: Shorts and nothing
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: none
205. What size bed do you have: queen
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunk bed/daybed: regular
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom: yea
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep: sometimes
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: don't remember
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: No
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed: 3
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions: Always
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling: no
214. Do you snore: No
215. How about drool: No
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room: Yes
217. What color is the carpet in your room: no carpet
218. What's under your bed: DUST BUNNY"S

~This or that~

219. Coke/Pepsi: Pepsi
220. Doughnuts/bagels: Doughnuts
221. Day/night: Night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: Wicked witch of the west
223. Heaven/hell: Hell
224. Make love/have sex: Both
225. Coffee/tea: Coffee
226. Hamburgers/hotdogs: HAMBURGERS
227. Rap/rock: I WANNA ROCK!
228. Britney/Christina: BRITNEY!!!!!
229. Swiss cheese/American cheese: American
230. Real World/Road Rules: ROAD RULES
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: NSYNC
232. Silver/gold: Silver
233. Nike/Adidas: A.D.I.D.A.S
234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: McDonalds
235. Sweet/sour: Sweet
236. Punk/emo: EMO
237. Hot/cold: HOT
238. Winter/summer: SUMMER
239. Spring/fall: Fall
240. Operas/plays: PLAYS
241. Read/watch TV: TV!
242. Cd's/tapes: Cd's!
243. DVD’s/vhs: DVD's!
244. Old/new: new
245. Shorts/skirts: SHORTS
246. Pink/red: red
247. Colored pictures/black and white photos: both
248. Meat/vegetables: MEAT
249. Mexican food/Chinese food: chinese
250. Commercials/infomercials: Neither
251. Scary movies/comedies: Scary movies
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: tennis shoes
254. Dogs/cats: dogs
255. Unicorns/fairies: Fairies
256. Water/land: Land
257. Sugar/spice: and everything nice. sugar
258. Black/white: both
259. Ribbons/bows: Ugh who cares
260. Chicken/beef: chicken
261. Colored Christmas lights/regular white Christmas lights: White
262. Cars/trucks: Cars
263. Austin Powers/James Bond: Austin Powers
264. Popcorn/pretzels: Popcorn
266. Passionate kiss/peck: Passionate kiss
267. WWE wrestling/ real wrestling: WWE!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO
268. Back rub/foot massage: Back rub
269. Picture frames/photo albums: It don't matter
270. Pens/pencils: WHO CARES!

~What Is Your Opinion Of The Following~

271. Eminem: another famous white rapper
272. Virgins: brand new car
273. God: WHO???
274. The Osbournes: my family is more interesting
275. Reality TV: ok
276. J.Lo: another bitch i wanna fuck
277. Religion: something so u won't be afraid when u die
278. Emo music: alright
279. Valentine's Day:  ugh never had a real valentines
280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: put my cock in her mouth
281. Heterosexuals: who cares
282. Abortion: IS GREAT
283. Interracial relationships: EWWWWWWWWWWWWW
284. Murder: Horrible
285. Death: nothing new
286. Obesity: Funny yet sad
287. Pre-marital sex: test the goods before u buy it
288. Terrorism: nothing new
289. Pornography: THANK GOD FOR IT!!! thats what taught me what to do
290. Fortune tellers: a little sketchy about them
291. Threesomes: GREAT
292. Prostitution: EARN THAT MONEY i''m about to join them
293. Politics: nothing new
294. Country music: if it's not lynyrd skynyrd i don't care for it
295. George W. Bush: not the best president we had
296. Cloning: sucks
297. Britney's boobs: what to fuck them
298. Gas prices in America: I don't drive, fuck, who cares?

~Have You Ever....~

331. Mooned anyone: OHHHHH YEA!!!!!
332. Been on a diet: no
333. Been to a foreign country: yea
334. Broken a bone: no
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling: No
336. Swear at a teacher: yea
337. Talked to an xanga member via e-mails or instant messages: no
338. Got in a fight: yea
339. Dated a teacher: wish
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants: no
341. Thought about killing your enemy: HELL YEA
342. Gone skinny dipping: No
343. Met another xanga member in the flesh: No
344. Told a little white lie: Yea
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell: yea
346. Stolen anything: of course
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid: yea
348. Been on TV: yea
349. Been on the radio: No
350. Been in a mosh pit: HELL YEA
351. Been to a concert: HELL YEA
352. Dated one of your best friends: Yes
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry: no
354. Deceived somebody close to you: nah
355. Broken the law: no
356. Been to a rodeo: no
357. Been on a talk show:no
358. Been on a game show: no
359. Been on an airplane: yea
360. Got to ride on a firetruck: No
361. Came close to dying: no
362. Cheated on a bf/gf: once
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride: yea
364. Terrorized a babysitter: no
365. Made a mud pie: nope
366. Had a dream that you're falling off a cliff: nope
367. Snuck out of the house at night: nope
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name: nope
369. Had an eating disorder: last thing i would have
370. Felt like you didn't belong: alot
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel: too many times
372. Smoked: yea but i stopped
373. Done drugs: smoked weed thats it
374. Been arrested: nope
375. Had your tonsils removed: nope
376. Gone to camp: hell no
377. Won a bet: yea who hasn't
378. Written a love letter: ohhh yea years ago but i never mailed it i still got it
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love: yea
380. Written a love poem: nope
381. Kissed in the rain: yea it was cool
382. Slow danced with someone you love: No
383. Participated in cyber sex: yea it sucked
385. Stolen a kiss: nope i would be to scared
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice: of course
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf: something like that but i was trying to go out with her
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love: nope
389. Gotten a speeding ticket: nope
390. Done jail time: No!
391. Had to wear a uniform to work: yea
392. Won a trophy: nope
393. Thrown up in public: never
395. Failed/got held back: TOO MANY TIMES
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school: HA never
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds: nope
398. Taken ballet lessons: yea and i regret it
399. Attempted suicide: once
400. Cut yourself: yea

~Childhood Stuff~

401. Did you play with Barbies: nope
402. Did you own Treasure Trolls: had a few
403. Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210: yea
404. Did you play Simon says: Yea
405. Did you watch Fraggle Rock: nope
406. Did you wet the bed: yea USE TOO!
407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed: No
408. Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them: No
409. Were you shy: Hell yea
410. Were you spoiled: kind of
411. Were you abused: not really
412. Did you go to the circus: yea
413. Did you go to the zoo: yea
414. Were you in a car accident: nope
415. Did you build snowmen: oh yea that was funny
416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee: ohh yea
417. Were your older cousins mean to you: sometimes
418. Did you think slinkies were cool: piece of shit
419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer: No
420. Were you afraid of the dark: Yes
421. Did you have slumber parties: never
422. Did you have New Kids on the Block sheets, curtains, sleeping bags, dolls and pajamas: No
423. Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany: No
424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy: of course

~Randomness~

425. Do you believe in aliens: there real i tell ya
426. Name 3 things that are next to your computer: wrist band, cds and hat
427. Do you have any hidden talents: i wish
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos: mtv sucks
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be: Porn BABY
430. What would your movie star name be: Conan
431. Do you play any sports: a bunch
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen: amityville horror
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently: anger management
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen: lord of the rings
435. Do you drive: nope
436. What is your dream car: anything that can move
437. Do you think your good looking: sometimes
438. Do others think you are good looking: no
439. Would you ever sky dive: HELL NO!
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot: nope
441. How many rooms do you have in your house: 2
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters: Hell yea
443. Do you believe in God: nope
444. Do you believe in Satan: nope
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? nope
446. Do you believe there is a hell? nope
447. Do you own a pool table: I wish
448. Do you have a pool: I wish
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen: nope
450. Do you like chocolate: hell yea
451. Who/what is on your 2003 calendar: chinese bitches
452. How many U.S. states have you been to: too many
453. Ever wished on a shooting star: ohh yea in puerto rico
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore: me
455. Do you carry any weapons on you: a knife that i left in my friends house by mistake
456. What is your weakness: spiders
457. Name something you can't get enough of: SEX, MONEY AND ROCK N ROLL!!!!
458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: um no
459. How many kids do you want to have: none at the moment but 2
460. Future daughter's names: haven't thought of it yet
461. Future son's names: don't know
462. What is your ideal way to die: sleep
463. How do you release stress: bottom them inside
464. Are you a trendy person: nope
465. Are you an artistic person: yea
466. Are you a realistic person: yea
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off: nope
468. Are you a strong person: kind of
469. Are you a strong willed person: doubt it
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you: dawn
471. Who is the last person to IM you: rosey
472. Do you hate chain e-mails: fuck yea
473. Are you a deep sleeper: OH YEA
474. Are you a good story teller: umm yea
475. What do you believe is your best quality: kindness
476. What is your greatest accomplishment: none i'm a loser
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense: whatever
478. Do you do yoga: Hell no
479. Do you have your own credit card: nope
480. Let's say you win the lotto. What do you do with all that money: move out and get my band started then shop like a motherfucker
481. Do you have a check book: no
482. Do you like your driver's license picture: Nope
483. Do you tan easily: yea i think don't really pay attention to things like that
484. What color is your hair naturally: dark brown
485. How many fillings do you have: don't know
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit: don't know
487. Worst feeling in the world: when u like a bitch and she doesn't like u back but she leads you on
488. Best feeling in the world: playing with my band
489. Is the glass half empty or half full: hlaf empty
490. Last thing you downloaded: matchbox 20- push (acoustic) very very nice
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life: um no
492. What do you think people think of you: i've been told good hearted,sweet,kind shit like that
493. Are you a likable person: yea
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance: nope
496. What's the best way to be proposed to: wouldn't know
497. What kind of movie would you star in: porn, comedian
498. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, what would they call it: FED UP
499. When do you plan on moving: soon
500. What's your favorite quote: "spread your legs for your addiction"! superjoint ritual and "spin the bottle kiss only the bottle" lamb of god

Hey journal! how u doing well me i'm not doing to great. yes this is going to be long but you got to hear this. well me and nicole was gonna go to this party. Me i wasn't going to go but nicole convinced me that we can spend more time together if i do go fine so i was like i'm going to go but only to spend time with u. fine there's people in the party i don't like for example maria were not best of friends but i don't care about maria i only care about nicole and thats who i was going to be with the whole entire night. our plans was friday she was going to my school i had a half of day so we'll meet up there at the school see each other go our seperate ways then she'll come to my house when she's all ready for the party. then we'll leave from my house and go to the party and have fun. does that sound so bad but NOOOO!!!

Nicole meet up with her friends after 5th period and i after 6th. she couldn't wait for me fine no harm in that. so i went home and waited for her call. thanks to karina she gave me maria's number so i finally call and she was getting her hair done or whatever so i told them for her to call me back and the bitch never called me instead she went to the party by herself and completely forgot about me. NOW do i have a reason to be fucking mad. on top of that she left the party went to JUANs house mind a friend of her's with a bunch of other guys and she's drunk out of her ass and you got maria making out with some random guy she just meet. and my girl drunk and flirting with people there. how am i suppose to feel. like that shit was cute or something. i was seriously worried and pissed. i stood home all fucking day while she was doing whatever the fuck she was doing. and maria doesn't like me so she's going to encourage her to do whatever. yesterday i felt so bad like if she didn't want me or she doesn't want me around like if she's ashame of me. i don't know i just felt hurt all around. the thing that gets me mad is that if it was mario she would have brought him and been all on top of him and shit. thats what really hurts me she says she's love's me but then again she still misses him and wants to go to concerts to meet up with him. i'm not saying she is but come on lets be serious why all of a sudden he wants to meet up with her and catch up! i don't know but i went through this whole mario thing once before and i'm no gonna go through it again. when i said i love you i meant it and the only person that fills up the space in my heart is nicole. but in nicoles case there's two of us me and him. she maybe with me and telling me she loves me but the fact is she still thinks of him and i hate it i fucking hate it. i wonder how she would feel if it was vice versa. if i still had feelings for someone else and she's trying to ignore it cause she really cares about me. thats how i feel. and if it's in her pass then why is it still coming up now. i don't know anymore. it's been 2 weeks i haven't seen nicole and the chance she had to see me she wasted on going to that party she could have gone with me but she decided to go alone. now i got to wait another week just so i can see her. thats if she's able to. i'm weak for her and there's nothing i can do. my heart can't take all this. i just pray that the story she told me was all that happened nothing more. cause i can't take all this. so i don't know i guess i'm going to have to swallow this whole thing cause i love her to much to let her go.....

"Life, is floating fast away.
But I look, your head is turned away.

From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.

You and me are like one heart-beat.

So slice open my veins.
And let, the romance bleed away.

Back into I thought I knew, these words inside me, tell me what to do.
My heart held, in the palm of your hand.
(Forget my name)Now I know, the way to go, this place inside my demented mind.
(Forget my name)You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor.
(Forget my name)This time in silence, this time I win."

senses fail- bloody romance

Hello once again people i'm cools it's been a long time and so much has happened over a short period of time. well my birthday i got drunk and high. i couldn't take the beers but the weed i can take besides that my sister went to puerto rico cause her boyfriend was cheating on her for a year they've been together for 5 years. it's ridiculous how man do stupid shit i'm a guy but god damn us man are sooo stupid. so besides that my girlfriend is a little late i'm not worried about it. i know her period will come through for me at least i hope it does well people i see you later

Hi Journal! I'm in such a happy mood. today nicole came over and my sister too ugh. my family is such a pain they are such assholes but nicole kept me company wow all i have is great memories with nicole and this one will be added to the list. she's great in every way. today when i saw her and we was just making out i felt a little skeptic about where this was leading cause i didn't want to hurt her again. but showed me that she really wanted me and she that she was comfortable about the situation. I felt good about myself but my sister's kids kept slamming doors and shit so i felt like they was going to come in and catch us. The hell i care if they catch me cause i just felt at the moment we were one that the world was simply passing us by or the world revolved around us. it was crazy. Nicole is the only girl i didn't really use a condom on cause i felt secure about her. it was great. yesterday was crazy i went to washington heights thats where all the dominican's hang out. I don't know why i was there but we was there and a bunch of our friends got into some trouble and they was gonna fight another block so we had to join in the fight no lie there was like 40-60 people just hundling in a circle while these two guys fight one on one i was just laughing my friends wanted to see some girls but instead we had to see these two guys feeling each other up. but today is the greatest day of them all! lol smashing pumpkins can't get them out of my head well later journal.

"You might be just what I need
No I would not change a thing
Been dreaming of this so long
But we only exist in this song
The thing is, I'm not worth the sorrow
And if you come and meet me tomorrow
I will hold you down, fold you in
Deep, deep, deep in the fiction we live
I break in two over you
I break in two
And if a piece of you dies
Autumn, I will bring you back to life
Of course I see you
I do." From Autumn To Ashes- The Fiction We Live

Hi! journal don't worry i didn't forget about u.... so i've been ok in the bronx oh god just counting the seconds away until i see nicole... yesterday i wrote in nicole's journal i just wrote the most heart warming thing i stood up to 2 in the morning writing it. the words i wrote felt soo right like it was supose to be written. yup. she says she'll see me monday i can't wait till then. i was chillin with my friends today it was cool well i see u sunday my love.

"The hour of wreckoning draws near
Judgment day is here and gone
Sweetly she draws me into her arms
A liquid embrace to chase the day way.
Sedate Numb Deaf and Dumb
Stumbling into solitude" Lamb Of God- 11th Hour

sorry for the violent mood i been listening to hardcore music all day.