Hey everyone...
Tongihts going to be awesome.
I get to spend alot of time with Caitlin and catch up on alot of stuff...
I'm excited!
well, time for a few more poems... these are all older ones.. although you may not have seen the first one before.. its one i never posted untill now... i dedicate all of these poems to somone from my past, my present, and hopefully of my future... Enjoy!
TO YOU
Though you don't live next door,
though you're forty-five minutes away,
You're still here in my thoughts
every week, every day.
When events of the day
cause this soul to despair,
just the sound of your voice
makes them easy to bear.
When I don't have the luxury
of feeling your soft touch
or taking in your scent,
which I appreciate so much,
I need only look back
at the times we have had
to wonder if I've
any right to be sad.
You're truly a blessing.
I want you to know
that I care for you deeply,
wherever I go.
DREAM
As I lay there… my eyes pierced by yours…
Seemingly important that I whisper these words
So long they've begged me… pleaded at me to speak them aloud
They nag at me… poisoning me with their toxic silence
These words will never come from my mouth….
A fear rises inside of me always keeping them back.
Its not what I behold… not what I lack…
Simply a feeling about to implode within me…
I must relinquish my feelings…
I must scream out.
I notice that no longer do I look into your eyes…
But I now long to taste your lips…
So red… like a crimson blood…
This attracts me more than should be
From your lips my glance moves to your heart
Surrounded by a shield…
A shield easily penetrated by man
… Flesh… Ever so useless
Gazing at your sun-scarred skin…
How beautiful you are…
If only…. If only you were pallid… as the moon…
Slowly a mist wrapped you…
a blanket of white intoxicate fumes enveloping you
You gag, and choke down the reality of our situation…
Unable to speak you utter in silence…
Mouthing the words…"I love you"
My eyes grow wide as I mentally remember this moment…
Without a single hesitation I exhale the words I've so longed to whisper into your ears.
"I love you as well" I scream… but you don’t hear me
I reach out my hand to touch with yours, but you're too far…
Out of reach… willing my fingers to stretch I reach out of my mist and into yours…
My fingers gently rub your neck and you dissipate to the touch…
I awake to see you standing above me… your eyes full of love…
"I dreamt I had lost you" I articulate…you only smile as if to say…"Never"
KILL ME NOW
Kill me now
Put me to rest
Take this broken heart out of my chest
Grind it and burn it to hell
Release my pain so my soul can sail
My eternal hell is loving you
Knowing I can never possess love come true
Hurting so much to just want to hold you as mine
Hating myself for messing up
For never being enough
Kill me now make my tears stop
Slit the vain that I will spill every drop
Count down the moments of every last breath
-Just a second before I die-
Tilt my head to look at you
So that I may see an angel
A receptical of light
This is you
Burn my heart so that it may never love again
So I can truly say you’re my love for life
The only one in my heart
-Burn it to hell so that we may never part
NINE FINGERS FOR SEVEN ROSE PETALS
As you slip the noose around your neck
I gently nudge you off the edge of reality
Spread your wings and fly, my angel.
Nine fingers of the hand of spite
Grip my leash, and pull me into a calm void
I couldn't fall much farther now.
Am I still the same
Only I know and all I know is what I know
Its not what I want anymore.
The sparrows have tormented me
Driving me mad with discontent
They will pay, the feathery bastards.
How much longer can I scrape at the bone
Before it turns to ash and disolves
Like everything else
Everything but me.
You are red with the petals torn from your rose
That same sweet smile maintained
Seven rose petals, a sweet scent of affection
I enjoy observing this.
UNTITLED
Just a moment ago it seems
We were walking beneath the trees
Your hand in mine, and our hearts beating as one
Our fingers intertwined, and our blood rushing to steady rhythmic tones
Your hair matching with mine in a race that the winds control
Our lips quivering, craving another taste
If you lay with me
On the concrete floor
Count the stars with me
Until we can count no-more
Hold hands with me
Until we’re old and poor
We’ll grow old together
Just like you wanted
Eighty years young… live and kickin’ it!
But, back to reality
What a dread
Merely holding hands
With a single tear shed
Was it your eye?
Or mine?
Crystalline void of aquatic emotion
Slide gently down my cheek
So as to remember you
For it wont be long…
And you’ll come again
But this time out of joy
Just a moment ago it seems
We were walking beneath the trees
Your hand in mine, and our hearts beating as one
Our fingers intertwined, and our blood rushing to steady rhythmic tones
Your hair matching with mine in a race that the winds control
Our lips quivering, craving another taste
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