Liking Tyler was a mistake, and i know that, and ive excepted it, and now thats over.
I want a good Christian boyfriend. Seriously. One that loves God more than me. [:
Someone like Andrew. [: I mean... i dont need a boyfriend by all means, I guess its just because everyone around me has one, i feel sort of left out. /= I think ill just leave boys alone for a while, and just focus on God, because my relationship with him, is sort of drifting.

Today, Josh and then had thier bible study thing, and I went, and ACTUALLY, its pretty AMAZING. And its going to have to be the thing that keeps me going, because i cant go to Church on Wednesdays. It already got me pumped. [:

Also, today the lunch lady gave me a free cookie, and uh.. it was amazingly superly good!!! It was like.... Oatmeal and Raisin I think? WEll anyways. It tasted totally homemade, and it was DELICIOUS! [: [:

And i found the most AMAZING radio station, its a really good Christian one, but its like Rock, Rap, and stuff like that... i pretty much LOVE it. [:

AHH I got TONS of compliments today!!! [: It made me pretty happy. I bet it seemed like I just blew them off, cause they were like "OH MY GOODNESS MEGAN, YOU LOOK GORGEOUS TODAY, I LOVE YOUR HAIR, AND MAKEUP OH MY GOSH YOU LOOK SOO GOOD!!!" And im like... "Oh, thanks. [:" And then i turned back around, and kept talking to whoever i was talking to. lol.

Okay, ill go.
[:
Love to all my best friends.
And if im not on before then,
HAPPY EARLY EASTER!!
Have a good Easter Break everybody.

In Christ,
Megan

Im just being really dumb about this. Sorry.
I didnt mean for it to turn into such a big deal.
Its not that big of a deal.
I promise im not usually this stupid about boys,
I only get dumb when it comes to boys I really like.

I mean.. i dont even need him.
GRRR.
Imm sooo mmaaaddd at myself. /= /=

Tyler leaves at the end of the school year.
He doesnt even have a clue about even HALF of my feelings.
Tell him, and risk losing our friendship, but have hopes of something more?
Dont tell him, keep our friendship, but let him leave without knowing how i feel?

Advice?

I held his hand. :sigh: [:

Well.
I had an AMAZING time with Chelsea, and Lauren last night,
&& I love them to death. Im not kidding. And they are probably thee
BEST people ive met since ive been in Oklahoma, and are seriously
2 of my best friends.

We went to see Benchwarmers last night, and since they both had their
boyfriends, they wanted to know if i wanted to invite someone else
since I would be the only one without someone to hang out with.
So it was Chelsea's idea to invite Tyler, and him and me were sort of
okay friends, so i was like yea, sure. [Ohh btw, hes the guy that flirts with me
everyday at school, when i pretend not to like it.] So then i find out on my
way to Chelsea's house to get ready, that they told him they had a hot date for him.
So im like.. GREAT.. Hes gonna be disapointed. /= And him being mad at me
is like the last thing I want. I mean i sit with him at lunch, and during 2nd hour. And
I mean.. since he already knows what i look like, i didnt really dress up any at all.
So then I finally told them that i REALLY like him, and to call him back to let him
know that it was just me, and a not so hot date. And then I started getting REALLY nervous, and i completely redid my makeup, and had them do my hair. And
Im not much of a bragger, but i looked stinkin hot, and if he didnt think so, then
hes not worth waisting a gallon of hairspray, and 30 dollars of makeup on anyways. [but i know he did... you could just tell. [: ] We got in the theater, and Lauren, the doll that she is told him to hold my hand. And he actually was like "okay. [:" And then when Chelsea found out, she asked him what he was doing, and he like added all this stuff, plus what Lauren said to do. I was like Omgsh you guys, dont tell him to do that... but actually, they both know that I seriously LOVE them for it. [= And so this movie.. its like the grossest movie ive EVER seen, but I was PRAYING that it wouldnt end, cause i really like this kid. I really dont wanna get too attached, cause for one, hes flirty with everyone, and for two, hes moving at the end of the year.. and three, i just dont wanna be heartbroken.
Its so lame. So anyways... we leave the theater, and were about to go, and Chelsea
gave him the death look, so he gave me a hug, and a kiss on my cheek. [= It was cute.
And now i like him more than I did before, and i KNOW that he has to like me at least a little bit... because seriously, if he didnt like me at all, he wouldnt do that. I mean... i wouldnt... haha be all like "hey, i dont like you at all, but since your best friends suggested that i hold your hand, im going to be willing, and not let go during the whole movie, while occasionally rubbing it." Ohh and btw, this wasnt just a regular hand holding.. this was like fingers crossed with mine, ever so often rubbing his thumb against my hand kind of thing. OWW OWW. I wish i could live that momment forever and ever and ever. SERIOUSLY.

It was almost... no, it was perfect. :sigh: I just hope hes not dumb about it tomorrow.
I lied.. id rather go out with him the rest of the year, and get my heart broken by him leaving, then to have not gone out with him at all, and be heart broken for not having the chance.

The rest of the night was amazing, and i seriously LOVE LAUREN AND CHELSEA. [= Im not even kidding.
Thanks you guys, for making it like the best day ever, you both are SUPER amaaazziinngggg!!

Godbless,
Megan.

Okay.
Updates.

So first off, theres this guy at school who flirts with me everyday, and its wierd.
I mean... hes SO cute, but everybody likes him, and he flirts with a lot of girls.
(not as much as he flirts with me apparently) but i dont want to go out with somebody like that.

Second of all, ive FINALLY found, some really amazing people at my school, who are REALLY good Christians, and im SO glad that i met them all! I sit with them everyday at lunch, except for Mondays, because of crazy stuff my teacher does, and everyone in that class has 1st lunch instead of second. Im really good friends with 3 of them though, and i wanna eventually be amamammzizizinnggg super friends by the end of this year! [:

Last night, I went to my Chruch to see Team Impact!! AHh i love them!! I saw them like a year or two ago at Shoreline, and they are super amazing!! If you guys ever have the chance to see them, I think you should, because its an awesome expierience, and you will never forget about it.

Tonight, i think that im gonna go to the movies with Chelsea, Lauren, and some other people, and then im probably gonna stay the night at Chelsea's house. [: It just depends though, because plans have changed and abundance of times, so im not even quite sure what's gonna happen. First of all, i wanted her to stay the night tonight, and go see a movie with her later, and then tomorrow morning take her to church, and go out to eat with her, then go home. And then it turned out that my parents had already made plans for tomorrow, so she couldnt come. So i made plans for her to stay the night yesterday, and go see team impact with us, then later on today go see a movie. And then she couldnt stay the night last night, cause this morning she had to go do the redbud run or something like that... o_O So now she wants me to stay the night at her house tonight, and go to church with her tomorrow, and this afternoon go see a movie with Lauren, Chelsea, and the gang. So whatever. I just wanna spend the night with Chelsea where ever its at.

This is SO amazingly long, and i can pretty much bet that no one is even gonna read all of it, so ill leave it at that, and leave. [:

In Christ,
Megan