Love. and happy juice.

" If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now."

-Realize, Colbie Caillat

I'm out of my element right now.

I'm usually not like this.

I don't let BOYS in general have such an effect on me.

and when i do, i still have control of things. But this time around...ugh.

 i'd compare this to being crunk.

Like the one time that happy juice hit the hardest...

It's like you totally know what's up beforehand. You're totally aware of what you're getting yourself into. and the risks. But you keep downing it willing to go deeper because it gets more [addictive]. You begin to lose yourself a bit, the more you get into it. Your ability to watch what you say- which leads to a lot of truths and also your ability to think straight. Once you get sucked in, you can't come back out easy. You know it might suck the next morning. But you keep going, hoping for something good to come out of all of it. But you know it's close to impossible.

Of course there are a lot of differences between love and happy juice as well...i'm well aware of that. and i would pick LOVE over happy juice any day. But...that's what i kinda figuredd.

-Debbie

ps: i'm still in total summer mode. going out everyday?? heckk yeahh.

pictures eventually? check facebook :]

i will post a picture that isn't all that new on facebook but new on xanga on most of my posts from now on okay??..until i get new pictures. i don't really take much n.e more.

Me and one of the Besties Precrunk. <3

my heart just melted.

x100.

i remember the feeling of being wanted.

desired.

But this.

wow

Two days left.

really, life.

just keep getting me into situations where my heart gets messed up some more.

i think i've been through enough.

but you seem to have other ideas.

</3.

california is amazingg!!

i've had an AMAZINNG time.

i won't bother going into detail with that.

because i'm actually in a really crappy mood- for the first time since being here.

i just hate how all good things have to  come to an end.

Life likes to mess around with me.

Put me on an all time high.

and then ruin it with reality.

Joyy.

-D

Ps: Happy CANADA'S DAY.

I think it's the third time that i haven't been in Canada to celebrate.

What kind of canadian am i?

last day in colorado &&

i have not packed yet.

not so much super-procrastination, but it's summer, and i like hanging out with friends n stuff so i was practically out every day of this week.chillen with my girls. n my crunk buddy [we do some stupid shiiiett. sorry the girlicious song was somewhat stuck in my head]. n guy bestie. n cuzzins. n one of the cuzzin's grad party. :] but here i am, sunday, wanting to pack. but i can't.

why? because my grandparents from vietnam have been here for the past month and my room was the lucky one takenn.

at least i'm out of walk-in closet status now. i slept in there a couple nights when we had our major fam bam reunion at the beginning of summer.

ughh. preparin for this trip todayy has been kind of stressful, actually. and ppl are coming over today too. i don't even know why my parents agreed! we're leaving after midnight!! likeee idgjdflkjdgkldjgkdjgdfklgjdflkg.

probably on edge cuz something happened today that kind of madee me madd, too. JERK status.

but whateverrr.

it's time to have fun where wearing a bikini top won't make you look half as whorish as you would here .