I believe in God because He is the only thing I have found peace in. If you can find real peace in something else, you know, go for it, but everything else was dead ends to me. Because of the fact that God does give me peace and without peace I'd have killed myself by now, He is very real to me. Also, He is a person I can get to know. anyways, you're beautiful.

I love you girl. I guess you would understand me more then any other person since we're somewhat in the same rut. You know I seriously wish I could take you up on that offer sometimes but sadly it's impossible. Yes I know just one more year. Actually less now since this is what? Mid of the forth month of this accursed planet we have so begrudgingly called home.

I believe I'm somewhat immune to crying when I need to cry and find myself crying when I don't want to cry. Like when I watch a sad movie and I wana cry becuase...well duh, it's a sad movie, I can't cry. But in other instances like the other day I was watching this chinese movie that my dad let me borrow called Demi-Haunted(read previous post on my xanga for link to synopsis) I nearly bawled my eyes out becuase the girls mother ran off with the main actor and she found that her dad died long ago. Man...my eyes friggin buldged out from crying so friggin much!

I worry about myself sometimes. (Why am I starting all my paragraph with "I" am I that self-centered? Damn) Oy...help me?

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