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so tonight i am a bit distressed. i have been thinking about MY life lately. i know that no one really gives two shits less on what i have to say.. but i feel like this is the ONE spot were i can put it all out on the table and not be haunted by it all. i am so burnt out and i feel terribly washed up. i have been fighting for what seems like an eternity now. fighting with almost EVERYONE. fighting because i don't like who i see in the mirror.. fighting because i can hardly find anyone to trust. i mean how am i supposed to trust people who have FUCKED me over. all of them. i love my boyfriend, don't get me wrong, i would do anything for that boy, he's my life. but he has pulled some shit on me that hurts! but thats okay, i have done some crazy shit in my life too. i have been through so much shit in my life it's scary really. i am 17 now, wow, i was not supposed to make it this far but i am here.. fighting, i wanna let go of my hate, and my black heart. how am i supposed to let all go? it's all i know really. do i just drop it, walk away, find a new way to deal, look to the good in life? where is the good in LIFE.. where the fuck did it go!!!!!?? everyone seems to have a ton of problems now, and everyone is just living to get to the next point in life... thats NOT LIVING, thats just going through the motions. i wish everyone could just drop everything, go outside and look around at what is really going on.. enjoy my icons! also--i credit "asthesunwentdown" for these icons, that site is AMAZING |
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I've got my doubts.
...And what if I'm right?  
For a girl who's had her
heart broken so many times,
she seems to fall in love easily  
It's that fact that I have a chance
right in front of my eyes, but I'm too
afraid to take that chance.  
if people continually let you down, you have to be doing something wrong, right? i mean, no one just drops you like a rock for no reason...right?  
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