Currently Playing A Rush of Blood to the Head By Coldplay green eyes see related

AH its almost midnight and im soo excited because im talking to jaspal!! its crazy because when we were in sixth grade i apparently told him to fuck a cow because he wouldnt go out with me! i was very mean in those days. *sigh* maybe a bit pathetic too. we're talking about how horrible it is that lakeside and greenbrier split up.. and it really is! i miss everyone i ever knew, and especially my mosh buddy angela!! the world may never see a greater rock concert... lol- anywhoooo-- jaspal has too many polo shirts, but he has lime green so thats just flippin sweet. :P 

hey dont forget... the skwerls.. they're coming..

Currently Playing Lines in My Face By Chronic Future Time and Time Again see related

FAKE

Hiding in a corner, looking at what doesn't stare back.
Watching you lie to yourself, making promises to no one, falling through, and getting right back up to start it all over again. You dont realize what has happened-- and what is happening. No suprise, seeing how naive and unknowing you are. When faced with the truth and all the complications that go along with it, ignorance seems like paradise. In unknowing you know, and in doubt you are confident. Its no suprise that all the knots and ties havent loosed themselves with time, once the web is woven, it is rarely undone. But no one tied it. IT contoured itself, as if free of the happenings outside. Yet i understand it all. The beginning and the discovery. The orientation, the comprehension. The rejection, and everything associated with it. The reasons behind it. Both sides of the story. Why it was even a thought, and your motives. I have to posess something you want, and I have nothing. No matter to you; just another brick in the wall, another notch on the gun, another stone turned. An insignificant statistic. Through all of this, i understand feeling lifeless. emptyness. blackness. nothing bad, nothing good. no pain remains, and no feelings of hope. no fear, no hate. no love, not pity, not happiness. numb to any kind of emotion, walking with an empty head. and taking it all in, all at once watching and knowing. comprehending and calculating. contemplating and scrutinizing. watching waiting and understanding it all.

Currently Playing Here's to the Mourning By Unwritten Law F.I.G.H.T. see related

*sigh* its been a while since i wrote in this and ralphie worked very hard on it b/c i was a bit-- er.. how do you say-- inept. yeah so i suppose ill just use it again-- today was the first day back from spring break and it was awesome! i became santa clause for the day b/c i gave out presents that i got from california.. AH CALIFORNIA was... well. eventful. i stayed for a week at my grandmothers house by san fransisco/oakland... well- i had to sleep on one of those aerobeds b/c the midget and mother took the guest room. well my grandmother has a cat- whos close to death and is in fact deaf. its very annoying and each night it scared the squirrel out of me(oh yeah my puppies killed a skwerl today.. woohoo!) while i was sleeping cause it would make noises while it was right next to me on the floor cause it was hungry or w/e- and the noises sounded exactly like the boy in the grudge when he made a cat noise- the first night i woke up screaming-- ah it was great. oh man and ralph is moving soon- they just put up the for sale sign and it was devistating! i shall miss him. *tear*

Currently Playing Hybrid Theory By Linkin Park Somewhere I Belong see related

Today was 'oh so wonderful' of a day... i woke up extremely early and walked in the freezing cold with my midget for an hour JUST to visit some chick she knew in maple ridge..*neighboring...neighborhood* The kid ended up having a broken ankle, so i had to let her sit on my back as i trudged thru the woods in the cold! AH! then i went to kevins house-- it was awesome- we 'confusingly' watched Queen of the Damned, and drank hot chocolate while commentating on how fruity the people looked, and how one girls hair-color kept changing throughout scenes.. then i got to watch kev play grand theft auto- san andreas and *ahem* totally screw up. JK! but seriously, hes the master of running into things that are nowhere in the same direction of his path-- THATS OKAY. it was fun anyhow- now im about to eat chinese and im starving!

Currently Playing The Reason By Hoobastank Never There see related

ah today was just... quite eventful. i slept till noon, and then had to go shopping for my great grandmother who's 97. First of all, shes practically blind anyway so whats the point of shopping for TWO HOURS to find one of those vibrating back massagers... ...*laughs hysterically* Shes also insane- she beleives there are people living in her house stealing her funeral dress and shoes.. (yeah shes got em picked out lol) Sorta strange. ANYHOW- at 830 im leaving with the family to drive around augusta 'taking a gander' at all the pretty christmas lights... exactly what i wanted to do to finish up my weekend-- it should be some real fun... time with my family always seems to turn out to be FUN *ahem ahem*