Alright, I'll give a decent entry.

I think I'm a crappy driver. More to the point, my attention has become something like "hot potato". Yesterday, I got into my car and started to go down my street at 3 m/h when I notice a big hair on my shirt. I look down and pick it off, I look up and I hit my next door neighbor’s mailbox. Oh, Jesus Christ. What the hell, now. His mailbox survived, there was a second mailbox for newspapers, though, that was attached to the bottom, and that took a beating. The box broke off but it was still intact. It was made of wood; apparently, he made it. So, I spent the next 20 min. repairing it. Now, today, I was pulling out and Josh was looking at me and telling me something through a body gesture, when (going 3 m/h, again) I hit the curb. Josh's laughing pierces the air with mocking intensity. Damn, again.

It seems all my mishaps happen when I'm going 3m/h, I need to remember that going extremely slow doesn't mean that I can take my attention off the road.

I'm been really joyful, lately. Today, I wanted to scream with joy in CW. Unusual, though, I'm warmly greeting the change.

I'm a failure. To many perspectives, I would assume. But have I failed myself, yet? I don't know. I'm referring to school. I am not an unintelligent man, nor am I one you would call ignorant; but, that doesn't mean much if I don't apply the talents I have. What would Shakespeare have been if he never wrote a play? Nothing, I suppose. Despite what insight he may have possessed of human nature, he would be nothing. Hmm, is that true? Maybe, he could be something to someone, or the whole world to one person. Is someone who is there for someone else, as achieved as, someone who does something that provides for a bulk of society, but in a less intimate way. For instance:

Would a fat bold man that supports his wife and three kids the best he can be considered as achieved as someone, like, Dan Brown. I feel that in the end my answer will be- "It's all perspective" Is there a common ground? Is there not a tangible line between what's right and what's wrong? I'm getting tired of perception being the only real judge of things, stating (in my view) that you really can't judge anything that will forever, in every light, be considered one solid thing. Where, where, where, can I find the answers. The place where everything is the same. And when I find that place, will I still want it. What's my purpose in living. What is my goal? I've found my drive, but I have no real direction, I feel. What to do. Happiness can't be my only goal, it has to be more complicated than that, I feel. I know, I know, "simplify"; but my goal, at least, has to be complicated. I'm tired of living my simple life. Well, I was tired of living a complicated life, there came the reform; but now, I think I prefer the complicated style better. I can't undo the years, ctrl+z doesn't work in real life, sadly. We gain from the bad, as well, so I've read and agree; so, I should be satisfied with the past and just reform again. Hell, reforming is even fun... Maybe only fun because what I'm turning into now, is improvement. Maybe, experiencing some points of views isn't improvement; but, for instance, what kinds?