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So I got up this morning, feeling like absolute shit.

Head acheing, stomach cramping, when I tried to talk nothing came out. It was horrible. I had to cry myself back to sleep because I was so upset.Geez I hate this.

I wanted to go to school today because I have alot of school work to do. I hate getting behind. And I miss Sarah like crazy.haha. But I couldnt. I felt and I look horrible.

No pictures for now.

Question of the day?

--What is Brie thinking?

--Update

Hung out with the greatest people in the WORLD.

Haha. They are the absolute greatest. It really is nice just to hang out with the people you love.

God. Everytime I think about myself, I want to laugh at my pity. I appear as this attention craving, moody bitch. LMAO.
It's true though. One minute i'm happy, and then by the end of the day it seems my whole world is dying right before me. The only time I am truly happy is when I am with Sarah. haha. God I sound so gay. But she is like the greatest friend I've ever had. She is the ONLY one who truly understands me. We have been through so much shit together.
The fact of not having someone is killing me slowly. It's so stupid. Why am I worrying about boys? Sometimes, god, it's just so stupid.
And then I have alot of issues with my family. Me and my mother use to be so close, so close, like best friends. I told her everything. And then I built this void between us, blocking her out of my life. I'd kill to take it all back.
The other night we were having a counceling meeting, to build up to a better family. My brother began to complain about how much he hated it. Then we all began to fight. I was so pissed. I hate the fact that everyones been to focused on Scott's issues for the past 7 years. No one realized there are other people with problems in the house. I decide to bring this up with my mother..and she questions me..."who?"...."what?"...so I just spill it all out. I tell her EVERYTHING. About every suicide attempt and everything...I scared myself. This is the only way to get help. So our councelor, Annet, is getting me a doctor/councelor...and I will be getting help. I am happy for this. Very, very. But now I have to wonder...what will my family think of me? and my friends? I am a good person. I really am. I just have issues and problems. I wish you all could see.
I hate the way I deal with anger. I feel afraid. Afraid of myself. And of the deamon inside me, when i'm upset. One day I got angry, and kicked my great grandmothers organ, breaking it. How could I do that? What the fuck is my problem? I am so stupid sometimes. I watch my brother sometimes when he gets angry, and how terryfing he is...and I think "am I like that? OMG how could I do this?" I just hate it...very much. I am tired...so fucking tired...of being upset. It's so fucking gay.

I sincerely apologize to you all.

Your typical Monday. Sitting around doing nothing..waiting by the phone.

I am so happy for my bestfriend Sarah. She is truly happy again. Her and Justin make a great couple. And I know they can make it far.

A friend called me last night in search of advice. About their relationship. Their girlfriend of 6 months left them, for someone else. Sad. How heartless some people can be. Kind of funny really. I give good relationship advice, but I can't keep my own...ahhh, what a sad life I live.

All this remind me of all my relationships this year. All of them, All of them, have not been so good. My self confidence has dropped majorly because of this. But like I said, i'm not gonna be sitting around and mopping all the time. It's not worth the tears and stress.

at least I have my Bert.

SOMEONE CALL ME BEFORE I DROWN IN MY BOREDOM

--UPDATE.

OH SHEEIT SON.
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DADADON'T HATE.

I am the hottest thing since Michael Jackson.

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Good Day Everyone ;; OMFGZ.

Today has been pretty damn good. I got the new Senses Fail CD. I Got some yellow and green eyeshadow, and a new shirt. Yes, I am a pimp. Then me and mi madre got some taco bell which totally topped my fucking day.

I can't wait to get my councelor. I never thought i'd say it. But, I really REALLY need it. And some of the things I would like to say, i'd never really feel comfortable telling anyone. But I need too. I need help.

I am tired of complaining about being lonely, and I know you all are tired of hearing it. So I think i'm done. I just figured if I stop then eventually someone will come to me. It just takes time.

<3