"I am you who made me."

So much of this search for truth and meaning is fueled by something within me. I'm not sure what it is, and what to do with it, but all I know is that my heart is restless and there's no cure for it. I'm in a completely different plane of thought than most of my friends, and those that try to understand what I'm going through only grasp a partial understanding of the whole. However, I feel the need to address this issue because like the circumstances in my life, things are definitely changing.

I may be getting a permanent position at the hospital. What does this mean? My hours at work will be fixed and it will help me plan my weeks with ease. I don't want to celebrate just yet until I sign the papers on Wednesday officializing everything.

I met someone, very cute, straight acting, plays the guitar, not into the gay scenes. I hope it works out.

School is picking up. I'm really excited about the classes I took this semester. I'm also really scared of it. This will have to be the busiest semester thus far with long lab reports, essays and reports, midterms and class presentations. It's also my last year. So I'll have to figure out what I want to do afterwards. lol. I'm a masochist in the closet; all I'm missing is a whip.