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| New Xanger... Hope you find it... | | |
| well, i got ditched for prom... kinda low and shady that i got told by someone else... but whatever... anyone want to go to prom? Nah, ill probably just go to kings island and hang out with who ever isnt going... so yeah...cheaper anyways...seems like its all crashing down again... things are going smooth, but im hoping that all i need is time... 20ish day left then this summer...man, i need to hang with my bros... that what will cure this...little bit of old time jackass shit and then some other...'intoxicating' things and we'll be set...Damn high school, and damn women who i like... they're just to confusing. | | |
| So my weekend, has been LONG... fell asleep around 4:30 friday (sat. morning) then we woke up and headed down to louisville for thunder which sucked major ass cause it was so damn cold.... we then went to mcdonalds, and it was now about 10 at night... so we do that whole thing and decide that we want to go down to louisville and find something to do... joe, and brooke and i say hey...strip club... so we do that till 3 in the morning, followed by a long ass drive... while i was driving half asleep, i encounter 3 snow storms and something in the car that i didnt do but im blamed for... FUCK THAT... i didnt do that shit...ruin a friendship over that... nice. Then we get home at about 4:30 our time and joe and i watch some sportscenter (damn you pacers) and then crash at about 5am.... school is going to SUCK tomorrow... | | |
| Why do i feel like everything i do is wrong? I mean yeah i know this hurts, its hurts me as well, but i dont want it to. we said we love each other but we arent IN love with each other, so why is it still hard. then everything about what im doing after this year is wrong... my parents seem to think that me working for a little bit before i go to college is wrong... but its not like they can support me financialy. i dont know what it is but senior year is just a big huge spiral towards the thought HOLY FUCK LIFE IS BEGINING... i need a break, i need a break from school, from friends i just need time to think about what i need and not what others want. cause i want to go to school, i want to work, i want to be dependent, but i want to be independent, i want an apartment, but i cant afford it if i go to school... so im stuck in this huge mess of shit i need to sort out...and i feel like i cant do that if everyone keeps breathing down my neck about it.... fuck! it just seems that for my problems to disappear i need to as well...that or drown my thoughts in booze (JK)..... maybe ill get this all straight soon.... cause till i do... im not going to enjoy anything this last stretch of school....
Sorry so depressing tonight... but i have had a pretty bad day... | | |
| so im sure ill catch a lot of shit for this... but you know what... i know i screwed up and im sorry. so say what you must, but say it to my face...not behind my back...
Nick, not once was i trying to be a dick behind you back, i simply reacted to what i heard...
Jon, thats low man, real low... i see who has my back now...
God damn wont high school be over yet?? | | |
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