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Thursday, April 03, 2008

  • dead babies and more

    Never hold off telling somone your preggers. And definalty not after you lost it... well let them know, but dont wait.. It really screws you over in the end. No matter what happens. Wether you can take care of it on your own or not.. or whatever the fuck you have planed.

    part two.. If your gonna do something. Do it. Odnt be chiken. Wether you feel like youve completely destroyed yourself because of it. Dosent matter.. you can do whatever you can for people... but theres a point where you cant blame them.

    there are plenty of things to be upset about tonight...greatness.. greaness

Saturday, March 29, 2008

  • The one that made it out?

    Wish I had a better title...Guess thats not gonna happen today. Well recently Ive had too many things toworry about. But I do have to say that they became a bit less since I moved all the way out to vacaville. ITs ice. Its quiet.. people here mind there own business. And since they do..I can live my life. yay? I mena I do enjoy social interactions, but seriously. Ive only met two people I actualyl enjoy hanging out with since Ive been here. Grant and luara. ( Luara is the shit! lol needed to put that) Well And their daughter. Emma. Shes so darn cute... my place was more child proof Id steal there kid. lol jkjk..but... they keep trying to convince me to take her home with me...::shrug:: who knows. Other news if anyone reads this.  Jake proposed to me.  Yes.. thats witha  big shiney ring....And Ive been sitting here thinking about it. Wth all the things that happend. What he trying to say.  ANd alot of people think Im doing this blindly. yeah I can see why.. Im only 21. Alot of people have come up and told me that im an idiot for even saying yes. I see all there reasons. And all I start to do is feel bad. cause seriosuly. Im tired of getting shit like that from people. Ive stood up formyself but for some reason THEY are REALLY agianst it. And its like yes, I have an alone issue. well not as much of an alone issue. As much as Id like to leave a legacy instead of just dieing alone. For all the guys who say they love me or tell me that they never had the chance Im sure if I called all this off.  Theyd vanish! Simple as that. And being with someone isnt of my main concern but if they are all getting butt hurt about jake proposing( mind you I havent planed shit and its been a while, so im in no rush) the only  person that really makes.. or stands up above the rest. Shawn. And thats because of a lot of things. I cant be with him. theres just.. as much as that be great..the future i see..  I have no idea where its going.. I see noplans than where hes at right now. And yeah maybe thats what everyone else is tryign to tell me. I dont need to worry abotu making a future. HAving a house and car and ... lets throw kids in for that classic picture look.  But its like. THen when am i going to do that? When am i going to actually going to stop renting.. have a house.. have friends over when ever, people over to party and not act like .. MORONS. Just somethign easy...less dramatic.. just make it a reality. like i have to be rich one day to ahve everythign i want. No.. not really.. just for the more expensive things on my list, but in the end..  I really just kinda want peopel to not be so mean abotu the whole engagement thing. Jake is a really great person...(acts like a blonde sometimes and thats amazing.. cause he walks around without a brain everyonce ina while. makes for interesting entertainment) The only thing thats getting to me is.. Who else watns to stop this? And are they doing it cause they care abotu me or because of there own selfish reasoning.

    that was a lot of writing. Hope someoen could get it. -.-;;

Friday, February 01, 2008

Saturday, October 13, 2007

  • Cant find me now

     So im finally moved.. and seriously.. i dont think anyone could find me if they wanted to. then again i dont want them to.Im feeling empty agian. like I know he loves me, but i feel so bord. Like i do love him.. very much so, but i m so far away agian. tehre is nothign sparking my interest or to be excited baout. I know its there.I keep telling myself to stop trying to look so much for the extrodanary.I geuss there is no one but me who can keep my ever runnig mind entertaind. But  the entire time i feel so empty. Like i just feel distant from myself. something is draining me. Im pissed off about it.  Solving my problems...one step at a time. Just  stop askig for so much. i dont need all that. its just what im used to. I normally just have so many more things going on. Damn seperation from the city.. I miss it.. I miss being so stressed out a cigerette in the midlle of the day setteld it all..maybe thats it...I dont feel like im chokeing anymore.. but its too much aair... let me go..

Friday, November 03, 2006

  • the new game

          There are million things better out there.And I been keeping myself busy. Its a neat feeling tonot have someone obsessing over me. But its nice knowing that Hes responsible, pays all his bills and still has extra money to spend.  Opens doors..makes sure your comfy. if you dont wanna do it.. dose it for you.. or maks it easier. smokes a bit, but its not a problem. there are worse things..  Love what Im doing now....talk more later..

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