| everyday new things come and old things go and most things change... but when you yourself are apart of them changes or surrounded by them, do you really see them? the fact that I went back to a home today that has never seemed to change threw out the years brought this to my attention... with in less than 2 months of being gone friend, enemies, and even landscaping has changed. and I can't help but wonder that if I hadn't left, would I have noticed? would the world changing around me be soo different than the differences I see now? The decision to come back is becoming a much harder one as I see friends grow apart, relationships take over, and a once inseperable group of friends fall into the abiss of "I don't knows" to any question asked about anothers life. I find my refuge in my computer, oddly enough. Somehow the thought of sitting in front of it and just pooring out my heart and soul in seemingly intellectual philosophy holds a new meaning in me now. If I hadn't left 2 months ago, would now seem so different? Or would it just seem the same as always? While we sit around in our lives we never notice just how much is changing around us, the lives we have led take sudden new paths and all it seems in our minds is another step along the same road. People and places take time and stages to change so while we sit in our lives the changes seem minor as they go but the out come is significantly different. We're just used to it already. By returning to a place that I once considered 'home' and feeling an outcast and awkward round friend I've known for years the idea of change is in fact changed in my mind. for things always change everyday all around us we just don't notice them because we change with them. But since I have "left the path" that everyone in Rofo has been living along my new "Pottsgrovian" path is miles away and significantly different, though I know that my decision still stands to go back to that changed place I just fear that maybe that place and myself have changed too much to fit like we once did. That "home" as I once called it has suddenly become a distant unknown place, and my "loved ones" as they once were changed to the factor that we can no longer hold a decent five minute conversation. |
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| HEY! this is my philosophy Xanga... it's where I'm gunna put all the things that I study on the side that no one really wants to read about in my other Xanga!!! haha! it'll also contain any theories or thoughts that pop into my head!! lol ok well have fun reading it... and like most of my other "on the side" Xanga's this will probably be rarely worked on!
Screw you! 
Meggz! |
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