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Name: Patricia
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 11/3/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: pantera, nirvana, make up, hair dye, nail polish, RAY, degrassi, fashion, my closest friends: ray, troy, josie, jessica. the mall, burger king, white donuts, puppies, people.. thats alot more im just lazy right now.
Expertise: doing make up, making people smile, eating.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  blackpuppy528
Member Since:
10/23/2004
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| I'm still alive, hangin in there. 10 more school days. I updated for you letty!!!! lol | | |
| i havent been on this thing in a while. well, it's over with ray (thanks god) he's been such an ass to me but whatever i really don't care anymore. he's already made my self esteem go way low. hillside is going pretty good i guess, ive made some friends and i'm doing good in my classes. i promised my mom i wouldnt be suicidal anymore but i've really been thinking about it.. like, what's left for me in life? fisnish high school then do what? none of my friends from upland really give a fuck about me becausde IF they did they would call me atleast ONCE in a while to see how i am doing. there's a few that are an exception but everyone else is two faced. i dont care i dont need them anyways, i dont need anyone anymore, i just hate life and thats all thats to it, no on is going to change MY mind about it. i give up. | | |
| Booooo life sucks.... I don’t go to UHS anymore.. I go to hillside high school. I’m behind credits. Hillside is soooo depressing, seriously, ever since I started I’ve been like all sad and stuff. The only think that is kind of okay about it is that I get to see Ray in the morning for like 20 minutes. Then I go to class at 11:30 and go home at 2:35. I don’t like it at all.
Everything sucks I don’t like being sad but there is nothing I can really do to help it. I have zero friends at my new school all my old friends are still at upland and I’m at the lowlife school the only cool people at that school are me and ray other than that everyone else sucks because they are all bad or weird or pregnant.
Me and ray have been together for 4 months now and he wants to go to prom, his parents said they would pay for everything. I am excited about going because I think it’ll be fun and we’ll have the time of our lives lol! But yeah I wanna go I’m excited......
I have a killer headache I’m going to go take a warm shower and go be emo in my room. | | |
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Sometimes I feel like I do everything wrong..
Other times I feel like I’m doing really good..
But tonight I feel like shit… so many thoughts are running through my head.
I wish I knew who my real friends were.. where are they when I need them?
I’ve been feeling so dead lately… sometimes I wish I could just end my life and finally die, but then I think about my future, my friends, my boyfriend. What would they do or think of me after I was gone? I was an insane emo psycho freak? I don’t know.. Why should I really care about what others think of me? I really shouldn’t one bad comment makes me depressed. I shouldn’t let people get to me but I do all the time.. it hurt so much…
Why do I feel so ignored?
-PATRICIA
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| My new cell phone sucks. Vibrates louder than fuck | | |
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