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| Hola amigos!
Its so wierd to see a computer, I forgot how to work this thing. I am rockin it here in Iquitos, Peru at the moment, and besides the hepatitis a b and c, the multiple cases of malaria that I contracted, the numerious intestinal worms, the diabeties,infected blowgun wounds, the monkey/parannah attacks, the mosquitos ripping us to shreads, the smallpox, sars, the cancer, ebola, the anthrax, scarlet fever, the west nile, madcow, black plague, whooping cough, typhiod, lyme disease, the dysentery, the eccoli that has engulfed my body, and the pirates, all is well. The trip is closing and we are in the process of our 4 day trek to american soil. Im using the computer in the hotel (hotel=$shower and beds indoors$=refreshing). The past month has been a challenge spiritually, physically, and mentally but an adventure as well. Our gigantic team of 32 flew in to Lima then Iquitos then from there took a 30 hour barge ride down the Amazon river deep into the jungle. We worked with a man named Jorge Montero (who is sitting at the computer next to me) who is basically the Paul of the Amazon jungle, and one of the coolest guys Ive ever met. He started his ministry here 17 years ago and has planted many churches in the villages along the river. All in all we traveled to 8 of those villages to encourage and build up the churches there: Maypuco, San Antonio, Esperanza, SaraMuro, Ollanta, San Juan, Nueva Union (which was the most primitive and unique of the villages, they had their own language, the women only wore red on top and black on bottom and they didnt have many rights compaired to the men), and San Jose. I got to meet many awesome people, play with some rad kids, and experience a few different cultures, ate a variety of amazonian foods: monkey brains, monkey, carachupa, crocodile, parannah, and maggots (the maggots werent intended they were in the monkey and the carachupa by mistake), spent my 4th of july vomitting and having constant diarrhea (probably because of the monkey and maggots I ate july 3rd), and spent my 17th birthday here, of course I swam across the river, got to go crocodile hunting at night with a peruvian ,named Ramone, who I could talk to very little because of the language barrier, in his small homemade canoe armed with a machette, a spear, and a stick (we didnt catch a crocodile but we did spear multiple fish, a few of which actually jumped in our canoe, and a bird), took multiple swims and boat rides in the river (during most boat rides we started sinking and had to bail water out and during one of the travels hit a hardcore amazon storm and almost sank to death), got to help some men build a hut, played multiple games of soccer with Peruvians (lost everytime except for once when I was on their team), watched many beautiful amazonian sunrises, sunsets, and star lit nights, and took a few jungle expeditions. All while serving God. Great things happened in his name. Thank you all for your prayers and support, and I honestly cannot wait to get home, and see all of you. I missed the heck out of you guys during this trip, one person particularly. Continue to pray for us as we travel home and for myself in general as I enter back into society. God bless you all, live it up and Ill see you in a few days(the 22nd), in which the party begins. -Don Barr ps: the lack of llamas here is lame http://adventures.org/a/reports/r3re.asp?id=1133 the upside down question marks ¿¿¿ come standard on the keyboards here, you dont even have to push shift | | |
| currentquickthought: You reap what you sow, If you want more love in
the world then put more love in the world. But how to be truly loving
in a world with so much anger, meanness, sarcasm, and hate? It
seems like nice guys always finish last. I wish I knew how Jesus
would react to the world we live in, or how he wants me to react. So
often do I lose focus. I want a Christlike love, and perspective.
$Revolution$
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| Jesus is alive! He is not dead, not in a tomb, but he lives... in you and me. Amen!
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| "An accident of latitude and longitude decides whether you live or die
in this world, Im not having that, this is a generation thats not
having that!"
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| Disclaimer: The following is basiclly the personal compolation of
a portion my writing and an e-mail that I sent to someone and while I
writing it I felt that I would put it here in hopes of helpful words or
advice, or anything anyone has to say about it. Feel free to say
stuff.
Here? I don't
really know if things are going good or bad. I've hit some tough
times in the past few weeks. It seems there is a spiritual battle
going on and I'm playing tug-of-war with myself. My moods just go
up and down. It seems like a spiritual depression but with little
blotches of hope. Many past nights with little sleep Ill just be
sitting there and in a troubled mood and feel burdened down but then
God will show me something and I'll get hopeful but then I start
thinking about stuff again Ill get down. (sorry that didnt make to much
sense) I can't quite put my finger on what is going wrong. It may
be focused around doubts and the fact that my focus is off of God a
lot. I get really frustrated sometimes when I talk to God because
sometimes it feels like Im talking to a brick wall... maybe one that
I'm putting up. I just wish I could talk to him face to face and
hear clearly what he has to tell me, instead of me trying to figure it
out like a puzzle.
One thing that I have been faced with is the face that I try to
please and impress other people way to often, to the point where I put
other people over pleasing God. Sometimes it seems like Im not
myself.. I pick up traits of other people very easily and sometimes I
look at myself as a big compilation of who all the people around me are
and I don't really have any individual qualities. I don't know
why that is such a big deal to me but it is. Same thing with my
faith, I sometimes feel like it isn't authentic... and I just feed off
of other peoples faith and passions. Passions for example Kyle
Howe who has a heart for Africa, world affairs, and missions etc, I
admired that so I started to pick it up and started to try and have a
heart for Africa and global affairs and missions,etc. and I dont know
if it is an authentic God given passion or if I'm just doing it to look
cool and be Mr. "big heart, aids and problems in Africa, cares for
others, has a passion, wants to help, revolutionary" Don Barr. I
would get down, but an idea sparked in my head (which I would like to
think is God, and do think it is God) that maybe I do have a passion
for things of that nature and God used Kyle to help me discover it, and
that maybe the way I act and things I say really are who I am and God
uses the people around me to develop my personality. and then 30
minutes later I'll get to thinking again and I just put down everything
I feel God just showed me. Maybe thats the devil trying to get at
me, and I let him all to often. He has so many stupid foot holds in my life. Its a battle and its discouraging
sometimes. It feels like the more I learn and figure out things,
the more there is to know and figure out. God is infinite and
there is so much to know. That is amazing but very frustrating at the
same time... I want to know everything but can't. I want answers
but have to be content with not knowing, but it is good because if God
wasn't infinite then what kind of a God would he be.. if I knew the
extent to his power then I would know how far I could go in existence.
(i hope that makes sense) All i know is that I want the doubts to
cease, I want to put God number one and please him first, I want to
walk with him daily as if he is by my side, I want my focus to be him,
I want to be his servant and I want to know and show and feel his love,
I want to be thankful, I want to be myself, who God made me to be and
model after Jesus, I want to show love towards others, I want sweet
surrender, I want joy, I want to be real, I want to be revolutionary, I want I want I want... its not about me I know
but I still desire these things. I guess these are things He wants me
to desire. I desire a passion for Him, maybe I already have one,
I don't know where to start with all of this, maybe I have already
begun.
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