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hmm i dont know if its just my environment or just me, but i tend to have anger problem lately ... i think i get this from jason ... hahah jk dude. anyway, now it takes less effort for people to get me to 'snap' ... which is not good but eh, fuck it, its their fault if they made me snap like that ... just one solution i have in mind so far .. i think a punching bag now is worth buying..

wow ... i really can't believe this ... this morning, my aunt passed away at 5.35 am ... i feel so terrible that i couldnt see her for the last time, man if someone would've told me how she is to me i'd have gone there to visit ... i was glad i did call her though last sunday, yea i noticed that she was pretty weak, she didnt say much to me for that she could barely talk, the only last word that i hear from her is that " andre, sorry i can't really talk, but i just want u to know i love you" ... i really wish i could've said more, cuz i didnt think i told her how much i love her. she's been a great aunt for me... i mean for taking care of my ass for 3 years, giving me a lot of good advices, n never ONCE yelled at me for doing stupid shit but rather still talk to me patiently, she is just the most, bestest, greatest person in my life .. i really feel lucky that i had a chance to know her, and i also treated her as if shes my second mom ... i thought i was gonna be able to see her in a couple weeks for spring break, n that is the only motivation for me to start praying again, praying for her health... but i guess God already has decided that it is the time for her to go... I cant do anything about it now but to pray for everything else ... i hope that you know you will always be in my heart tante Grace ...

life just gettin' more and more confusing ... thought it'll be better once i settled down but no ... too many damn choices with a big deal of opportunity costs, n the thoughts of being greedy isnt helping me at all. hate this.

haven't visited my xanga for awhile so i thought i could give it a lil update ... so yea finals are coming up, so stressed rite now, been studying forever ... wish me luck guys, gotta bring up those damn grades up. So 3 days ago i apperently got into an accident ... well not really, i kinda did it to myself .. attempted to get more height on my backflip, but it didn't work out that well, so yea, fell upside down, and ended up fractured my right hand... I have a splint on my right hand now and gonna get a cast in a couple days ... this sucks balls cuz that means i cant go work out nor tricking anymore for a while =( hopefully i dont have to keep this thing on my hand for a long time ...
we had holiday dinner in my house, that was cool, n i got a cheeker shot set from my secret santa...who wants to play? this thing will literally fuck u up if u lose lol
well anyway, whos gonna be down south for next week? im gonna be down there for a week next week before i go back up north, so if theres anything going on, or if u just wanna chill, hit me up :) peace

false interpretation can lead u to depression and it sucks ... life been busy wit rush, and alot of things happen throughout the week ... too much drama its killing me...