I tried to kill the pain, but only brought more... I lay dying, and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal... I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming... am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost?... My God my tourniquet, return to me salvation... my God my tourniquet, return to me salvation... Do you remember me? ...Lost for so long... will you be on the other side, or will you forget me? ... I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming... am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost?... My God my tourniquet, return to me salvation... my God my tourniquet, return to me salvation... I WANT TO DIE... My wounds cry for the grave, my soul cries for deliverance... Will I be denied Christ... Tourniquet... My suicide...
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Name: Brendan
Country: United States
State: New York
Birthday: 5/10/1986
Gender: Male


Interests: heh... music and video games are life. Favorite types of music are rock, metal, goth, and anything similar. Can't stand rap, hip-hop, pop, and any other mainstream crap. Fav bands are SOAD, Jack Off Jill, Deftones, My Ruin, Greenday, StainD, Ill Nino, Slipknot, and lots others... As for games, I don't care what you say, Dreamcast and Gamecube are the best systems out there! I mostly play RPGs and fighting games, but I play every genre EXCEPT sports... can't stand sports, either playing the games, watching them, or playing the actual sport. I'm just weird that way I guess, heh.
Expertise: Being shy and disturbingly quiet... procrastinating... listening... writing... poetry... playing video games. Not good for much else, haha.


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Sunday, September 04, 2005

Currently Reading
Problem Solving with C
By Keith Harrow, Jacqueline Jones
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Craaaaaap! I had a nice long post written up, but it got deleted!!!

 I haven't been around much (not that I am around much usually, anyway), mainly because my DSL is down. I switched from AT+T DSL to Verizon DSL back in the beginning of August, but it hasn't been activated due to line problems on Verizons end. They need to replace a part on their lines in Brooklyn that keeps new customers from getting their DSL delivered to their homes. They don't know when it'll be fixed. We'll wait awhile, but if it isn't fixed soon, we'll probably switch to another DSL provider or to Cable internet. For now, I'm using Verizon dial-up. Ughhh, dial-up....

I plan on getting a new computer soon, however I think I'm going to ditch Microsoft and move to the biggest of the underdog OS's, Macintosh (I still remember when Apple computers were regularly called Macintosh, not just Mac...) Yep, I plan on getting a Mac Mini... check it out here: The Mac Mini! It's so sexy... Of course, I'm not looking for something that just looks good. It's also pretty powerful. That said, there are definitely more powerful Mac's and PC's out there. The Mini uses a G4 processor, however the newest Mac Desktops use a G5 processor. It's still powerful, though, especially when compared to my current PC. I plan on getting the version with an 80GB hard drive (8 times the memory I have on my PC!). I'm also going to upgrade it's RAM to 1GB... apparently that makes a huge difference. It costs a little more with the extra RAM, but it's worth it.

Hopefully I'll be getting it soon. I think I'm going to try it out at the Apple store in the city before I buy it though.

Classes are great... I enjoy them a lot. I have great professors this semester, thank god!

Anyway, I'd better stop tying up my telephone line. I'll post again once I get my DSL (and hopefully I'll be on my Mac Mini, too!)


Monday, May 16, 2005

Currently Watching
Catch Me If You Can (Widescreen Edition)
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TRUSTcompany - Downfall

Fear in me so deep it gets the best of me,
In the fear I fall, here it comes face to face with me,
Here I stand hold back so no one can see,
I feel these wounds, step down, step down,
step down.

(am I) Breaking Down
Can I break away
Push me away, make me fall,
Just to see, another side of me,
Push me away, you can see,
what I see, the other side of me.

Fall back on me, and I’ll be the strength I need,
to save me now, just come face to face with me,
stay in place you'll be the first to see, me heal these wounds,
step down, step down, step down, down

I’m not breaking, down
can I break away
push me away, make me fall,
just to see another side of me,
push me away you can see,
what I see, the other side of me

Go!

Fall, can I break away
push me away, make me fall,
just to see another side of me,
push me away you can see,
what I see, the other side of me

No one can see anything on the other side of me
I walk, I crawl, loosing everything and waiting for the downfall
No one can see everything on the other side of me
I walk, I crawl loosing everything on the downfall.
Downfall, Fall.


Friday, April 29, 2005

Currently Playing
Make Yourself
By Incubus
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Well, I got a cell phone. Its a Motorola V220 w/ Cingular service. Free mobile to mobile, free nights and weekends, and 600 anytime minutes w/ rollover. My mom decided I needed one, so she got it for my birthday. I told her she didn't have to, but it was nice of her. Now I don't have to depend on payphones anymore (which, as of late, have been VERY annoying and never let me contact the people I need to when I need to the most...).

I can also talk to some ppl free which is great. I love free! Yay! Free! Cingular users can talk to other cingular users and ATT users for free. As of now, that means I can talk to Rafal and Joe for free! I think Nunzia has ATT, but I dunno. That's really just a guess, i.e. there's no facts to back it up. Not Reyenne, though. She has T-Mobile! Evil! And I'm pretty sure Charles and Maria use Verizon, as do my sister, Keli, and Jared. I'm not sure about anyone else. Not that it really matters... people can still call me on it... after 9 PM I actually really don't want to use up my weekday minutes, so, aside for free people, I'd rather people call my house first before my cell on weekdays before 9PM unless we're meeting or I'm not home. I'm not cheap, I just don't like spending money that isn't mine (i.e., my Mom's.) Not that I get many calls anyway, lol.

As for giving people my number, I figure its easiest to post here. If you would like my number, make sure you let me know! This way I don't forget anyone. Its on your heads if you don't get it, Xanga readers! Bwahahaha I'm not going to post the number here for obvious reasons, but e-mail me and I'll e-mail it back to you. Ok? easy enough.

Anyway, things are going fine. Schools almost over, which is weird because it went by so unbelievably quickly. Plus I'm going to be 19 soon... I'm so old now *cries* lol

I haven't really had much to post lately. Some people *cougherincough* have been complaining that I don't post, so I figured I'd finally do it since I actually have something of slight interest to post.

Ah well, talk to you later. ;)


Sunday, March 13, 2005

Ring 2

I just took this cool quiz for Ring 2, where Naomi Watts returns in the sequel to the scariest movie ever. Posting about this quiz makes me - and ten of my friends - eligible for free Xanga Premium... Check it out!


Friday, March 04, 2005

Currently Playing
Statement
By Nonpoint
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You Are 10% Extrovert, 90% Introvert
You avoid people at all costs You aren't one for social interaction And you limit your interaction to a select few Thank God for self checkout!



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Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

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Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) Low
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