Currently Listening The Best Little Secrets Are Kept By Louis XIV Finding Out True Love Is Blind see related

All right, this is such bullshit. I had two entries put in for today, and Xanga ate them both when I tried to enter a music choice at the bottom. *groooooowl*

Okay, here's the summary of the big long entry I had:

School: Sucks. Way too much work, and it's pretty overwhelming. I'm pretty intimidated by school right now. But, in the end, won't it help me out? Hopefully.

Home: Sucks. Parents won't get off my back about the fact that I just have to get a job and just have to start driving. I mean, honestly, I can't have a job if I can't drive, and I can't drive if I haven't gone through driver's ed. yet. So I'm stuck until the end of October.

Me: In general, I feel really ugly lately. Someone (I'm not going to say who) told me that they thought I was ugly recently, and even though I'm sure they were joking and that I was just being a drama queen, it just makes me wonder. What if they just happened to let something slip that no one else had the guts to say to my face? What if everyone really DOES think I'm ugly, and I'm just too intimidating for them to make it clear? Well, no matter what, this isn't the best time to feel ugly, what with my Aunt's wedding happening on Friday of this week. Hopefully I'll get over this little slump and be back to normal sometime soon.

Overall, I really despise life at the moment. Mostly because I haven't gotten into the swing of things with school and blah. Maybe things will be better after this next week is done. Or maybe they'll be worse.

That'd suck.

Wait, does anyone even READ this anymore? I know Lynn has a Xanga, but I don't know if anyone else does. Everyone I know has a MySpace, and I do too, which is why I haven't been updating as much.

Er...correction: haven't been updating AT ALL.

I need to take some new pictures where I have makeup on and where I don't look like a total porker. Maybe that's just wishful thinking on my part.

Later, Much.

-Maddie

Currently Listening Mellow Gold By Beck Loser see related

Hey there, kids:

I only have a few minutes to update before I get my ass to the barn, so here goes:

I have a MySpace now. Check out it's beauty, if you already haven't, and give me suggestions on what my music should be. Beck's playing there now, and I like it, but just for future referrence.

No country. Or I keel you.

www.myspace.com/navari

Other than that, my school grades were awesome. I got them in the mail earlier this week, and even though I was less than half a point away from the honor roll (damn Catholic school), I was happy anyway. Erm...what else is there...

Going to SC in about a week. Can't wait, man. Though, after today's bombing of London train stations and a double-decker bus, Washington D.C airport is going to be insane. Ugh. But hopefully I won't be traumatized too much. This'll be my first time flying solo on a plane. Let's hope it doesn't get hijacked.

Party on Saturday, too! w00t! Can't wait to see all my buds from school. And I can't wait to get my damn hair cut. God, I look like a freakin' sheepdog at this point.

Been up to Normandy on Tuesday and Wednesday of this week. I have to say, it was a lot more fun than I thought it was going to be. Kim, Shannon and I hung out and shared stories. It was fun. xD

Hm...did I mention that I've decided on becoming a chef when I'm older? I don't think I did. Yeah, I want to design and bake wedding cakes. A lot of work, and a lot of competition in that field, but I think I can get the job done. Hell, I'll end up being like the guy on Hell's Kitchen.

Anyway, I have to get going. I have a lesson at four (ugh) and I have to go because it's the last one before my vacation (double ugh).

See you later everyone! And make sure to leave plenty of comments here and at my MySpace!

*wave*

Currently Playing Furious Angels By Rob Dougan Furious Angels see related

Hey guys!

I'm pretty sure I'm going to be giving the 'ol Xanga a makeover. It's looking a little retarded recently. I'm gonna need to take a better picture of me, too. The one I have now is a little spastic.

Let's see what I can do. Anyone have any secrets to making your Xanga look good? Lynn, I'm sure you do. XD Lemme know.

Nothing much else to say, though. This movie Braveheart is really graphic during the fight scenes, and it's getting kinda gross. xx Some guy just got shot in the ass cheek with an arrow. NOT something I wanted to see during my lifetime, people.

Anyway, let's see. Only about a week left of school, if you don't include weekends. The rest of this week, and then two more days of school next week, followed by exams. So technically two weeks. But even so, that's damn short.

I have to pick out dates to go to SC to help my aunt with her wedding. That should be fun. And I'm going to have to make sure I get my permit sometime soon. I heard they were making some changes, and if I'm not quick about it, I'll need to wait for six months. Or something like that.

In case any one is wondering, I'm feeling a lot better lately. Last week and the week before were a lot of stress for me for no apparent reason, and this week is better, but still not great. I'm just dealing with things a lot better.

My mom called me a fat fucking pig today. Isn't that nice? Family is awesome. Especially when they threaten to shove their foot up your ass.

- Maddie