| Update!heyyy everybody, i was really bored, and i felt like writing about my life so what better place to do it than here. well i got a boyfriend named jon jon on saturday march 1rd and stuff happened then on wednesday march 5th, he just tells bryonna to call me and tell me he doesnt want a girlfriend instead of doing it himself, i hate when guys do that. i dont really understand why we broke up, but as everyone knows i bounce back from all relationships its one thing i actually can say i love about myself. of course i cried because i felt like i was used not because i liked him or anything i mean it was only a couple days its not like i was attached. haha. so now im single and on the search for a new boyfriend. i dont think it will take long till i find one ive had 4 boyfriends and 3 guys with benefits in the past 6 months now im not a slut. well at least i dont consider myself one. others beg to differ but fuck what people say. i just do what i want. my friends are really important to me now, there helpin me through alot. oh and just so your filled in from last time, britt and johnny are going out they have been since decemeber im so happy for her, hes a really good guy. i hope i find someone who treats me the way he treats her. britt says her and johnny are gonna find me a really good boyfriend by the end of the school year but i doubt that. right now a couple ppl are trying to hook me up with someone, but.. idk how thats gonna turn out. because hes a virgin and i have needs, again im not a slut.  ive been really emotional lately and its kinda freaking me out because i hardly ever am its usually i cry then a year or so later i cry again now ive just been emotional week after week, and it kinda of really sucks, but i know i'll get over it, i always do. music has been helping me out alot lately too songs tellin me it will be okay and everything there really helping. also something that ive turned to now i alocohol its not the best thing but it helps me i usually go out to a bush party everyweekend.  well peoples are callin me so im out.. peace.
i just want someone who`ll always be there for me
and not screw me over like the every other person
i`m tired of people leaving me when they promised
me that wouldnt & theyd be there forever. i didn't
know forever only lasted a week or two. Well,
i'm sick of false hopes, consistent lies and pointless
i love yous. i need someone who'll be here to stay
<3 & really mean it this time.
After a while you learn the difference between
holding a hand and falling in love you begin to
learn that kisses don't always mean something
promises can be broken just as
quickly as they are made, and
good-byes really are forever
you deserve to be with somebody
who makes you happy. somebody
who doesn't complicate your life.
somebody who won't hurt you.
he's the better guy.
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haha. i've learned to live my life by the moment so i couldnt tell you whats going to happen with me and him but thats okay as long as im happy which i am.
right now im listening to Mariah Carey's - all i want for christmas is you. oh my brother nik's birthday is in 2 days hes gonna be the big 16 just like his sister which is me of course. 
oh and my good friend eric aka quinny is coming home from his basic training in the marines in 4 days, 
im pretty excited hes been gone since september 9th. welp g2g im going on the fone with nik. toodles.
