OK people i am actually updating. i had decided earlier when a bunch of crap was going on last semester that this stupid site is just over rated and just causes trouble. and this may be true and this may even be the last time i write on here but i realized that the last few times that i have written on here it was when i was in such a rough time in my life. i was angry and hurt and sad and disapointed and probably a ton of other negative emotions were running through my head and my heart. and i dont want people to come here and read the things that i wrote and think that i am always and forever going to be a negative person. because that is just not me! i want to let the whole world know how much better my life is these days. ive forgiven those who hurt me and i have moved on for good. and i know i have said that before but i think those times were me trying to convince myself of that but now it is just the truth. and i couldnt be happier about it. and i dont know if things are ever gonna be the same but im ok with that because i have the good times to remember and smile about. things in my life are going so much better. God has been with me every step of the way and i ma so thankful for that. and guess what else!? you know how people say that as soon as you stop looking for 'that special person' then thats when they will come along? yeah well me being my old cynical self always doubted that. thats something the people who have someone say to you because they dont know what else to tell you. well i have a surprise for all you cynics out there... its so true. i was so sick and tired of trying to impress people and so tired of looking for someone and thinking that every single guy i meet might just be the one that i stopped being myself. and i decided i wasnt going to do that anymore. and thats when it happened. when i wasnt even looking or caring. and i think thats something special. now dont get me wrong im not in a relationship and i dont have a boyfriend... yet. i dont know whats going to come out of this and i dont even know exactly what hes thinking or feeling because ive only ever heard it from other people. and until i hear if from him then we are just friends getting to know each other better. and i couldnt ask for anything more. and if the good Lord above decides that this is a far as he wants this new relationship to go then so be it. i couldnt be happier. and i will always trust in the Lord because people... he really does know what hes doing. He will ALWAYS do what is best for me and im so excited to see what he has in store for me next. i cant wait. i dont know if ill keep you posted on here or not but if i dont then feel free to talk to me in person or online or on the phone because id be glad to share with you anything you wanna know. and if you are reading this and we used to be friends a long time ago and you want to have this lisa back in your life because you simply just want to be my friend then please tell me. cuz i miss it. i love life, i love God, and i love all of you!

Relient K -- Pressing On

I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
There's only one thing left to do.
Drop all I have and go with you.

Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We're going and I'm never knowing (never knowing) where we're going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I'm pressing on.

Chorus:

Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone. (pressing on, pressing on)
And I won't sit back, and take this anymore.
'Cause I'm done with that, I've got one foot out the door.
And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on.

I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Adversity, we get around it.
Searched for joy, in you I found it.

Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind;
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We're going and I'm never knowing
(Never knowing) where we're going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong;
I'm pressing on.

Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone
(Pressing on, pressing on).
And I won't sit back, and take this anymore.
'Cause I'm done with that, I've got one foot out the door.
And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on.

And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on . . .
On, pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone
(Pressing on, pressing on).
And I won't sit back and take this anymore
'Cause I'm done with that; I've got one foot out the door,
And to go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I'm pressing on.

You look down on me, but you don't look down on me at all.
You smile and laugh, and I feel the love you have for me.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here, and we're gonna make it after all

OK so here we go again. im sorry. i was angry and upset and sad that things were never going to be the same agian. and im sorry. i said things i shouldnt have and things i didnt mean. and i miss our friendship. and im just sorry. it hurts to know you blocked me on facebook and on aim and probably on msn too but i guess i deserved it. id block me too. i just hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. thats all i needed to say. and if you read it then you know how i feel and if you dont then i guess im still better off cuz i vented a little bit. but for once i actually hope you read it.

How to Save a Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

OK honestly. stop looking at my site like my life is any of your business. i dont write anything on here that would be of any intrest to you in the first place. im over your boyfriend so get over yourself. you know i was a threat to you otherwise you wouldnt be looking at my site but newsflash i havent even spoken to your boyfriend aside from a few text messages and a gay facebook comment in over 3 months. apparently he doesnt care about me and i sure as heck no longer care about him like that so just make better use of your freetime like reading the Bible instead of my xanga site. i know you do so dont deny it, technology is amazing these days. back off. you are both no longer a part of my life and im better for it.

SIMPLE PLAN

"You Don't Mean Anything"

Maybe, I'm just not good enough for you
And maybe, i just don't wanna be like you
And maybe I just don't wanna know
How low you're ready to go
I'm not gonna change, you can't make me, WHOA

[Chorus]
You don't, You don't, You don't, You don't
You don't mean anything to me [x2]
You're what I never wanna be

Tell me, does it feel good to be like you
And tell me, why should I waste my time with you
Cuz maybe you always bring me down
And I'm sick of being pushed around
I'm not gonna change, you can't make me, WHOA

[Chorus]

I know you think you know me
You don't know anything
I know you wanna help me
I don't need anything
Don't tell me where to go
I don't need you to know

You don't, you don't, you dont, you don't
You don't mean anything to me
You don't you dont, you don't, you don't
You don't me anything to me
[Chorus]

Relient K

Getting Into You

when i made up my mind
and my heart along with that
to live not for myself
but yet for God
somebody said
"do you know what you are getting yourself into?"

when i finally ironed out
all of my priorities
and asked God to remove the doubt
that makes me unsure of these
things i ask myself
i ask myself
"do you know what you are getting yourself into?"

i'm getting into you
because you got to me
in a way words can't describe
i'm getting into you
because i've got to be
you're essential to survive
i'm going to love you with my life

when he looked at me and said
"i kind of view you as a son"
and for a second our eyes met
and i met that with a question
"do you know what you are getting yourself into?"

i'm getting into you
because you got to me
in a way words can't describe
i'm getting into you
because i've got to be
you're essential to survive
i'm going to love you with my life

i've been a liar and i'll never amount to
the kind of person you deserve to worship you
you say you will not dwell on what i did but rather what i do you say
"i love you and that's what you are getting yourself into"

i'm getting into you (getting into you)
because you got to me (because you got to me)
in a way words can't describe
i'm getting into you (getting into you)
because i've got to be (because i've got to be)
you're essential to survive
i'm going to love you with my life

i'm getting into you (getting into you)
because you got to me (because you got to me)
in a way words can't describe
i'm getting into you (getting into you)
because i've got to be (because i've got to be)
you're essential to survive
i'm going to love you with my life

you said "i love you and that's what you're getting into"

Well people i know its been over 3 months since i have updated.... but in that period of time, nothing too exciting and eventful has happened worthy of writing about. BUT today was a day that will live in infamy. i dont even know if i spelled that right. but anyways.... i saw Tyler Hilton in concert tonight and it changed my life. someone so beautiful and so talented was a matter of feet from my seat. holy cow tyler effing hilton... hes so amazing! and incase you all doubted me... yes i did meet him! got the autograph AND the picture and a lil chat about his grandparents being from good ol' Searcy AR. coincidence? i think not! but he is just ...ahhh the words that dont even describe what he is and how that experience was... and so you can share in my happiness, heres some pics you can look at. and naturally im gonna have a tyler hilton song as my song of the day... more like song of my life!

is he gorgeous or what?! oh man and hes so nice... anyways heres a lil song by none other than the hottie hot hott above...

"Pink And Black"

So, yea, you said you heard this one
Maybe lived it twice
But with bias on my side

I swear I've got a different one
To be laid to line
And with a dime for your advice

You never saw a man
Make a fist and grab so fast he said

Good luck you know you better just forget it
Cause love is never in the same place that you left it

I said you wouldn't understand
This was long-term love
She was perfectly described

And what she wore when we last met
It was pink and black
A study in scarlet up inside

You never saw a man
With bigger eyes that understand
He said

Good luck you know you better just forget it
Cause love is never in the same place that you left it

You never saw a man
With bigger eyes that understand
He said

Good luck you know you better go and get it
Cause love is never in the same place if you left it

He said good luck you know you better go and get her
Cause love is never in the same place if you left her